Hanny in Real Life

Love Me

2012-01-24T08:06:00.002+07:00

"I love you in a really really big pretend-to-like-your-taste-in-music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you love you. So pick me. Choose me. Love me."

-Meredith Grey (Grey's Anatomy season 2, Bring The Pain)-

China Studies Major University of Indonesia Proudly Presents:Sinofest XI

2012-01-19T22:07:00.003+07:00

"Chinese culture is not a PART of Indonesian culture, it is one of the forming element of Indonesian culture itself." -Dr.Priyanto Wibowo M.Hum, lecturer of China studies major in University of Indonesia-

China Studies major of University of Indonesia proudly presents Sinology Festival XI, widely known as Sinofest XI, Festival of Indonesian-Chinese Culture and Culinary.

Sinology Festival is our annual event, and this year we are focusing on the culture and culinary of Indonesian-Chinese people . This year Sinofest will be held on 19th-21st April, and will take place in University of Indonesia's campus in Depok.

Events are as written on poster above. Registration for contests and bazaar is opened already. All of you are welcomed to join. There are going to be workshops and seminars as well, so make sure to mark your calendar so you won't miss Sinofest.

For further info contact Atika 08568561466 or Ivana 085719479914. Godspeed.

C.I.N.A

2012-01-14T12:16:00.002+07:00

This is a short story I wrote for my final assignment in Popular Writing Class. I hope you would enjoy it and tell me how it is.

C.I.N.A

“Kamu tahu apa yang paling ditakuti orang di dunia ini?”

“Hmm, senjata api? Nuklir? Wabah?”

“Bukan, bukan tiga-tiganya. Kamu tahu apa?”

Aku yang mulai bosan dengan pertanyaannya yang berulang-ulang ini kemudian hanya menggeleng pelan sambil memasang ekspresi ‘wow aku sangat tertarik dengan apa yang sedang kau bicarakan’ terbaikku.

“PENA,” ucapnya perlahan dengan nafas yang sedikit ditahan. Mungkin untuk mendapatkan efek dramatis, entahlah aku tak tahu. Yang pasti sekarang aku merasa canggung. Aku datang untuk diwawancara, bukan untuk mendapatkan kuliah dari Mario Teguh KW Super ini.

Biar kujelaskan lebih dulu bagaimana situasiku sekarang. Umurku 21 tahun, bulan lalu aku baru saja lulus dari sebuah universitas ternama di Jakarta dengan nilai yang tidak cum laude, namun bisa dibilang cukup memuaskan untuk ukuran seorang mahasiswa yang hanya belajar jika keesokan harinya ada ujian. Sedari SMA aku memang tidak pernah suka mengulang pelajaran di tempat lain selain di kelas. Menurutku, belajar ya di kelas, keluar dari kelas kau tidak boleh belajar. Yang harus kau lakukan adalah melakukan hal-hal yang bisa membuatmu melupakan kepenatan belajar di dalam kelas. Bagiku, hal itu adalah menulis.

Aku sudah mulai menulis sejak lama. Tulisan pertamaku yang bisa kuingat adalah surat cintaku kepada teman sebangkuku di Sekolah Dasar. Namanya Ami. Pipinya selalu bersemu merah ketika tersenyum. Bau minyak kayu putih selalu tercium samar-samar menguar dari tubuhnya. Anehnya, aku suka bau itu. Bau itu mengingatkanku pada bau nenekku di kampung yang sudah berusia 70 tahun. Setelah itu aku terus menulis banyak hal. Puisi, cerpen, artikel, sampai surat opini. Namun, bodohnya tidak ada satu pun dari karya tulisku itu yang kuperlihatkan atau kucantumkan di tempat yang bisa dilihat oleh khalayak. Semua itu hanya tersimpan rapi di rak bukuku, di dalam lusinan buku-buku catatan yang telah menemani waktu-waktu kosongku.

Tersimpan rapi sampai hari ini. Hari di mana aku memutuskan mencoba berjudi dengan nasib, dan melamar pekerjaan di sebuah surat kabar yang bisa dibilang adalah pahlawan masa kecilku. Ya, kalau pahlawan masa kecil anak-anak kebanyakan adalah tokoh di dalam komik atau kartun animasi di televisi, pahlawan masa kecilku adalah sebuah surat kabar. Sebuah surat kabar yang telah memberi makan mulut-mulut di dalam keluarga intiku yang kecil. Ayahku adalah staf humas di surat kabar ini dan pensiun pada saat aku duduk di bangku Sekolah Dasar. Ibuku adalah kepala bagian administrasi yang jatuh cinta kepada ayahku, seorang pemuda polos dari kampung yang sama sekali tidak terkontaminasi oleh pikiran-pikiran bulus orang kota. Tiap hari ayahku akan membawa pulang surat kabar gratis, dan kami bertiga selalu antri untuk membacanya. Kemudian, 21 tahun kemudian, di sinilah aku, duduk di ruangan kecil ber-AC ini, menyiapkan hati dan mental untuk apa yang akan kuhadapi selanjutnya. Laki-laki yang jika dilihat dari penampilannya itu sepertinya lebih tua dua kali lipat dariku, kembali melanjutkan pidato kecilnya.

“Ya, sudah bertahun-tahun, berdekade-dekade, dan bahkan, berabad-abad, manusia menggunakan pena sebagai senjata andalannya. Sartre, Lu Xun, Li Bai, Kant, Gie, dan beribu-ribu nama lainnya menggunakan pemikiran dan tulisan untuk mengubah dunia. Bukan senjata. Bukan nuklir!” gaya bicara laki-laki ini seperti tokoh-tokoh dalam film-film, dengan ekspresi yang hidup, mata berbinar-binar, dan tangan yang selalu aktif bergerak mengikuti intonasi suaranya. Saat ia ingin agar kata-katanya lebih hidup dan berapi-api, ia membelalakkan matanya lalu menggerakkan tangannya ke atas dan ke bawah. Ini mengingatkanku pada film-film mafia Itali di mana para tokohnya sering menggerak-gerakkan tangannya seperti sedang mengukur sesuatu.

“Dan itulah yang menginspirasi surat kabar ini untuk bisa menjadi seperti sekarang ini. Pena,” ujarnya dengan nada konklusif yang menyiratkan kepuasan akan apa yang telah dia sampaikan kepadaku selama setengah jam terakhir.

“Pertanyaannya sekarang adalah, apakah kamu siap atau tidak menjadi pewarta Pena. Seorang jurnalis harus menyajikan suatu kebenaran tanpa distorsi apapun, tidak peduli situasi apapun yang sedang dihadapinya. Ia harus menjadi terang di antara yang benar dan yang salah.”

Bekerja di Pena merupakan impianku sejak kecil, dan harus kuakui apapun yang laki-laki ini lakukan, ia telah melakukannya dengan baik. Ia berhasil menantang hati nurani kecilku untuk menjadi yang sesuatu yang lebih dari aku yang sekarang. Aku mengangguk dengan perlahan namun pasti.

“Bagus, nak. Saya sudah membaca dua karyamu yang kamu kirimkan via pos. Saya tahu ayahmu. Yang harus kamu ingat adalah, bukan karena ayahmu kamu bisa diterima bekerja di sini, namun karena dua bundel kertas yang kamu kirimkan ke saya minggu lalu. Dua-duanya luar biasa.”

Aku mencerna kata-katanya sebentar, lalu bertanya dengan ragu-ragu. “Jadi..maksud Bapak, saya diterima bekerja di Pena?”

“Selamat datang di Pena, nak,” ucap Pak Candra, itulah nama si Bapak ini, dengan senyum lebar di wajahnya dan tangan yang terbuka, menyambutku masuk ke dalam keluarga Pena.

Hal selanjutnya yang kuingat adalah aku berlari pulang ke rumah, berteriak memanggil ibuku, memeluknya dan setelah itu aku masuk ke kamarku, menutup pintu dan berlutut. Kupejamkan mata, kuhirup nafas dalam-dalam dan mulai berbicara dengannya. Terima kasih untuk segalanya, Yah. Ayah memang selalu tahu yang terbaik untuk Wisnu. Wisnu akan selalu berpegang pada cita-cita Ayah. Menulis untuk mengubah dunia. Pasti.

Seminggu pertama aku bekerja, Pak Candra sudah mengutusku ke berbagai tempat di Jakarta dan Pulau Jawa untuk meliput. Hal pertama yang kuliput adalah peluncuran buku seorang penulis wanita yang cukup kontroversial. Selanjutnya hari-hariku dipenuhi dengan tugas meliput kegiatan-kegiatan seni dan budaya. Setelah sebulan bekerja, Pak Candra mulai mempercayaiku untuk merambah ke bidang lainnya yang telah kuidam-idamkan sejak dulu, Ekonomi dan Politik. Krisis finansial Asia, peningkatan inflasi, sampai akuisisi sebuah bank ternama di dunia, dipercayakan oleh Pak Candra untuk kuliput. Aku merasa seperti di atas awan. Inilah pekerjaan yang sedari dulu kuimpikan. Bukan hanya mencintai apa yang kita kerjakan, namun juga mengerjakan apa yang kita cintai!

Sampai suatu hari Pak Candra memasuki ruangan kantor dengan muka asam. Kami para jurnalis yang sedang sibuk menulis meliriknya sambil bertanya-tanya dalam hati tanpa ada yang berani mengungkapkan apa yang kami pikirkan. Ia berhenti sebentar di tengah ruangan, menyibakkan rambutnya ke belakang, menutup mata, lalu bertahan dalam pose itu selama beberapa detik sebelum menghela nafas panjang dan kemudian memanggilku.

“Wisnu, masuk ruanganku lima menit lagi ya.”

“Baik, Pak.” Wajahku menunjukkan ekspresi tenang meskipun hati ini sebenarnya sangat penasaran dengan apa yang sedang terjadi. Rekan-rekanku yang lain juga melemparkan pandangan penuh tanya ke arahku yang hanya kubalas dengan mengangkat bahuku sedikit. Setelah mengetik satu paragraf, aku pun bangkit dan berjalan menuju pintu ruangan Pak Candra.

“Masuk, Wis.” Lalu ia mengisyaratkanku untuk duduk.

“Kita tidak bisa menulis hal-hal seperti kemarin lagi.”

“Maksud Bapak? Seperti artikel penggelapan uang yang saya tulis kemarin?” Pak Candra tidak menjawab pertanyaanku, namun aku tahu diamnya itu berarti iya.

“Tapi itu memang kenyataan, Pak. Itu yang saya dapat dari hasil wawancara dan observasi saya! Kalau itu tidak saya tulis, itu sama saja dengan membelokkan fakta, Pak!”

“Iya, saya tahu. Saya sudah menjadi wartawan lebih dulu dan lebih lama dari kamu. Saya tahu betul tentang itu, Wisnu.” Pak Candra berhenti sebentar, mengambil kotak rokok bergambar Mao Zedongnya dan menyulut sebatang rokok.

“Kamu tahu betapa sulitnya kakek saya dulu membangun surat kabar ini?” Aku menggeleng.

“Sulit sekali bagi orang Tionghoa yang tinggal di sini untuk membuka sebuah perusahaan surat kabar. Bukannya kenapa-kenapa, tapi uang. Birokrasi selalu meminta uang yang lebih dan lebih lagi. Mereka pikir semua orang Cina pasti kaya. Surat kabar ini pernah nyaris bangkrut kamu tahu? Ayah saya dulu pernah menulis artikel yang menyinggung beberapa pihak, kemudian Pena ditutup selama tiga bulan sampai akhirnya Kakek saya membayar uang tebusan Ayah. Untuk menjalankan Pena kembali pun, masih saja dibutuhkan ini lagi,” cerita Pak Candra sambil membuat gerakan isyarat ‘uang’dengan tangannya.

“Bapak..keturunan Cina?”

“Tionghoa, Wis. Tionghoa. Kakek dan ayah saya, bisa mencak-mencak kalau dengar kata itu. Cina. Mereka berdua sepertinya sudah sakit hati sekali dengan kata itu. Korban rasisme mereka dulu,” Pak Candra tertawa kecil, membuang puntung rokoknya ke asbak, dan mulai menyulut batang yang kedua.

“Eits, maaf, kamu mau?” ia menyodorkan kotak rokoknya kepadaku. Aku menggeleng pelan. Pak Candra pun melanjutkan ceritanya lagi.

“Tapi kalau saya sih sudah bukan Cina lagi. Keturunan sih iya, cuma kamu lihat lah muka saya ini. Mata belo, kulit coklat, rahang macam orang Batak. Sering dikira orang Batak saya ini. Kebetulan pula aku ini orangnya senang ngerjain orang. Suka kali aku ngomong pake logat Batak macam ini. Bah!,” Pak Candra tertawa dan aku juga ikut tertawa.

“Ibuku orang Cina-Flores, ayahku Cina totok dari Bangka-Belitong. Ibuku orang pertama yang membuat Ayah yakin bahwa perbedaan itu indah. Ada untuk dihargai, bukan untuk diinjak-injak. Manusia itu tidak boleh dikotak-kotakkan, kau tahu Wis? Kadang mereka lebih baik diplastikkin.” Lelucon Pak Candra yang terasa kering mau tak mau membuatku tertawa.

“Intinya,” pak Candra mengangkat satu telunjukknya dengan telapak tangan menghadap ke arahku. Nada bicaranya kembali serius. “Intinya, aku masih punya keluarga yang harus kutopang. Apa kata anak istriku nanti kalau aku pulang membawa barang-barang dari kantor karena kantornya terpaksa harus ditutup? Mulai sekarang kita tidak akan menulis hal-hal seperti kemarin lagi. Kalau memang yang kita temukan adalah borok, ya tulis yang bagus-bagus saja, buang boroknya. Atau tidak usah kita tulis sama sekali saja.” Aku terdiam sebentar meresapi kata-katanya.

“Tapi pak, apa kata anak Bapak saat ia sudah besar nanti, dan ia menemukan bahwa ayahnya hanyalah bentukan atau ‘pesanan’ birokrasi?”

“Maka akan kuceritakan yang sesungguhnya, sehingga anakku tidak akan berakhir seperti bapaknya.”

Idealisme lawan Realita. Pak Candra sang idealis yang ingin menjadi lilin di antara kegelapan akhirnya tunduk menyerah pada kenyataan. Ini seperti menonton film superhero dengan sebuah akhir yang menyedihkan. Namun Wisnu bukan Pak Candra. Aku tidak akan menyerah pada mereka yang ada di atas! Kekuasaan ada di dalam pena dan tulisan, bukan di dalam uang! Aku terus menuliskan tentang kebobrokan birokrasi meskipun Pak Candra telah melarangku. Setelah tulisan-tulisan itu terbit dan masuk ke dalam surat kabar, toh Pak Candra pun tidak bisa berkata apa-apa lagi.

Seorang penjaga sel membawa senapan berburu panjang membuka pintu sel. Di belakangnya dua orang pria dengan setelan rapi dan berjas putih panjang, sepertinya dokter, menatapku dengan teliti. Penjaga sel mempersilakan kedua dokter itu masuk, menutup pintu lagi, dan berdiri di depan pintu memperhatikan kami dengan seksama.

“Halo, Candra.”

“Aku bukan Candra! Aku Wisnu!”

Kedua dokter itu saling berpandangan. Yang satu yang sepertinya terlihat lebih muda, menjelaskan situasinya kepada dokter yang lagi yang kira-kira berusia empat puluh tahun.

“Candra Indra Natama Anggara adalah kasus kita yang cukup spesial, Dok. Ia mempunyai seorang ‘teman’ bernama Wisnu, yang sifatnya merupakan kontradiksi dari Candra. Sejauh analisis kami, Wisnu muncul dari tekanan yang dialami Candra. Wisnu adalah bentuk pemberontakan seorang Candra. Karena pemberontakan seorang Wisnu, maka sekarang mereka berdua ditahan di sel ini. Yang sedang kami coba yakinkan kepada para juri dan hakim adalah terdakwa memiliki penyakit jiwa yang menyebabkannya tidak bisa membedakan kenyataan. Dan seperti yang Dokter lihat tadi, yang ada di depan kita sekarang adalah Wisnu.”

“Apa yang kalian bicarakan? Aku memang Wisnu! Pak Candra tidak ada di sini! Ia telah kalah! Ia bebas bersenang-senang di luar sana dengan para orang kaya itu, sementara aku di sini menang! Biarpun aku terkurung, tapi aku menang! Aku akan terus menulis sampai tanganku lumpuh. Tidak, bahkan setelah tanganku lumpuh, aku akan menulis dengan mulut. Kalau mulutku lumpuh, akan kutulis dengan kaki!”

“Namamu bukan Wisnu. Kamu adalah Candra Indra Natama Anggara. Kalau kamu tidak percaya kamu boleh lihat papan itu,” dokter yang lebih tua mengisyaratkanku supaya melihat ke papan putih yang digantung di kaki tempat tidurku. Di atas papan itu tertulis,

Nama: C.I.N.A

Tanggal: 21-02-1991

Penyakit: Skizofrenia/Gila

Happy Nu Yeah 2012!

2012-01-02T10:19:00.003+07:00

Just another year..just another number..just another celebration..they all wouldn't mean a thing without you..Happy Nu Yeah 2012 fellas! Without 'U' there would be no 'fUn'! Godspeed!

Lelehkan Hatiku Menjadi Batu

2011-12-22T10:39:00.002+07:00

Right under my feet is air made of bricks

Pulls me down turns me weak for you

I find myself repeating like a broken tune

And I'm forever excusing your intentions

And I give in to my pretendings

Which forgive you each time

Without me knowing

They melt my heart to stone

And I hear your words that I made up

You say my name like there could be an us

I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

Each and every time I turn around to leave

I feel my heart begin to burst and bleed

So desperately I try to link it with my head

But instead I fall back to my knees

As you tear your way right through me

I forgive you once again

Without me knowing

You've burnt my heart to stone

And I hear your words that I made up

You say my name like there could be an us

I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

Why do you steal my hand

Whenever I'm standing my own ground

You build me up, then leave me dead

Well I hear your words you made up

I say your name like there should be an us

I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

My Thanksgiving Speech

2011-12-13T10:56:00.004+07:00

It's almost year-end, and I can't believe all the stuff I've been through this year. Lost my laptop due to my brother's house robbery. My friend's cellphone got nicked when I was borrowing it. Got elected as the head of Ikatan Mahasiswa Sinologi. Meeting new wonderful people from Teater UI and got involved in their big play "Perempuan Pilihan Dewa." Welcoming our new family, Sastra Cina 2011.

And last but not least..had my major won the title of Juara Umum Festival Budaya UI 2011! A total woohoo experience for me and my family of Sastra Cina. There's been a lot of ups and downs this year.

I already have a family, but now it feels like I have a lot of families! I can never be thankful enough to God for sending all these wonderful people to me. Godspeed! <3

The music team in Perempuan Pilihan Dewa

Juara Umum Festival Budaya UI 2011!

King and Queen of Confusion

2011-11-20T18:10:00.003+07:00

Di google translate, galau = confusion. Oke mungkin gue akan ubah jadi kata sifat yaitu confused. And, no other singer is ever more confused than....ADELE. Congrats Adele, you are the Queen of Confusion. Along with John Mayer as the King.

"I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you. I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, but I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it, I hope you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over."

"It's really over, you made your stand. You got me cryin as was your plan, but when my loneliness is through, I'm gonna find another you."

Omalele! A Sweet Escape

2011-11-14T09:54:00.009+07:00

Club Med Bali tampak atas. Yang bangunan bulet di tengah-tengah itu main barnya.

Hello folks! Post kali ini gue akan membicarakan suatu hal yang basi, yaitu cerita summer job gue di Bali. Mungkin waktu itu gue udah pernah cerita ke kalian semua secara singkat tentang pekerjaan magang gue di Bali selama 1 bulan. Kali ini gue akan membahas secara detail sekaligus berbagi pengalaman ke kalian semua.

Tawaran bekerja magang di Club Med datang pada bulan Juni 2011, saat-saat liburan musim panas. Caranya mudah, tinggal kirim CV dan surat lamaran ke HR Club Med di Jakarta, terus lanjut interview. Salah satu teman gue bahkan hanya

ikut interview aja dan langsung dikirim ke Bali. Well, the thing is, in summer and winter holiday they're really packed with guests so they need a lot of interns real bad. Especially interns for Mini Club, salah satu fasilitas yang mereka miliki.

Kasarnya, Mini Club atau MC bisa disebut sebagai tempat nitipin anak para orangtua yang berlibur di sana. Tapi nggak juga sih. CM already provide baby sitters service for that matter. Untuk mendefinisikan MC itu fasilitas yang seperti apa, mungkin lebih tepat kalo dibilang kita itu semacam taman kanak-kanak. MC udah punya jadwal pasti setiap harinya kegiatan apa saja yang harus diikuti anak-anak yang lagi dititipin.

Akhirnya setelah mengikuti prosedur yang berlaku, gue pun dikirim bekerja di Club Med Bali sesuai dengan availibility dates yang gue ajukan, 4 Agustus-4 September. Begitu sampai di sana, gue dan tiga teman UI lainnya, -Andre, Ncek, dan Nadhira- langsung disambut oleh assistant manager MC Bali, Haruka. Doi orang Jepang item manis yang sering banget ngomong 'Ne?' dengan logat khas Jepangnya.

Lobi Club Med Bali. Belok kiri terus ada tangga naik ke teras kecil, nah itu dia tempat Haruka menyambut kami.

Mini Club!

Kami berempat, para Intern GOs (GO itu sebutan buat para karyawan di sana, Gentils Organisateur) baru yang lugu dan polos dibawa keliling kampung. Yeah their concept is somewhat calling the resort 'village', because CM is not an ordinary resort. Here, you don't just come and stay and spend your holiday, but you also get to gain new friends and family. Like you do when you stay in a village. Di bar, kita semua mesen milkshake coklat, dan langsung diketawain sama Manou, bartender asal Mauritius atau Prancis. Entahlah, di sini batas nationality jadi amat kabur.

Di CM, kerjaan gue tiap hari adalah ngejagain bocah-bocah umur 4-7 tahun (kadang switch ke 8-10 sih, fleksibel aja), berenang, makan, main game (archery, basket, mini golf, tennis, etc), mini club show or events, dan seterusnya. Gitu aja diulang-ulang terus tiap hari. Saat lagi ga shift di MC, gue dan para GO lainnya harus melakukan yang namanya GM Contact. Apakah GM Contact itu? Kita tanya Galileo. GM itu sebutan mereka untuk tamu. The point is you have to look for GM yang keliatannya lagi nganggur, nyapa mereka, duduk bareng dan ajak ngobrol. Mungkin kedengaran aneh, but that's just their concept. Their trademark. Their blablabla.

Malamnya, nonton show, ngurusin bocah2 lagi, dan ga jarang kita para GO yang do the heavyliftings alias angkat2 barang. Belom pernah kan angkat-angkat meja yang kayak di taman kanak-kanak gitu plus bangku-bangkunya dalam sekali angkat (gue dan Ncek menyebutnya posisi burger :D), pake high heels + dress, sejauh kira-kira setengah kilo? But I gotta tell you, it gave me a total hiiiigh! Belum lagi kalau responsible clean up main show. Angkat-angkat stage segede-gede gaban bukan masalah lagi bagi para GO. Ga ada perbedaan antara GO cowok atau cewek. Semua pasti bakal kebagian beberes.

Yang pasti menjalani hari di sana, kalau tanpa ditemani teman-teman dan orang-orang yang luar biasa, pasti bakal bikin gue gila. Thanks God for all the wonderful people I met there. Gue mau banget balik lagi ke Club Med, tapi bukan sebagai GO, maunya sebagai GM :P

Kerja di Club Med bikin gue pengen mencari lagi sesuatu yang susah. Bagi gue sendiri magang di Club Med, meskipun amat singkat, tapi gue merasa setelahnya gue pasti bisa get through almost anything. Ga kebayang deh jadi GO contract yang kerja di sana berbulan-bulan atau bahkan bertahun-tahun. To put on that smile, no matter what you are going through, for me is tough, and the people who can survive there are cougars, coyotes, lions, or whatever other cool wild animals, you name it.

Bangunan kamar. Kamarnya biasa aja sih. Mereka lebih menekankan di keistimewaan konsep resornya itu sendiri.

Poolside yang sumpah enak banget buat nongkrong. Kadang setelah jam kerja gue sama Ncek suka rebahan aja tiduran di salah satu dipannya sambil menatap bintang-bintang Nusa Dua *tsaaaahh*

Beach Bar tempat gue nongkrongin Takuto di hari-hari terakhir gue kerja. Takuto ini bartender Jepang yang kece tapi pemalas. Hahaha. Dan asli, tiduran di salah satu dipan di pinggir pantainya bikin ga pengen kemana-mana.

Gang kamar para GO magang. Ironis ya kalau dibandingin dengan bagian depannya Club Med yang bagusnya ampun-ampunan. Kita nyebut gang ini gang Dolly. Gimana nggak, di sini kebanyakan cewek jadi mondar-mandir cuma handukan bahkan beha+kolor doang uda jadi hal yang biasa. Cowo-cowo yang cuma 2 biji harus bersabar.

Moto utama para GO: Work hard, party hard! Habis of kerja jam 12 malem, bakal ada aja yang ngajakin ke Kuta. Biasanya kalau besoknya day off atau shift B yang masuknya jam 11, gue selalu mau ikut. :D

Abis kerja jam 12, kalau lagi iseng, hangout in front of the night club yang buka jam 12-2 pagi.

Ini kabogohan aing pas magang di Club Med :D Kevin Zhao, Assistant Manager Bar,Virgo, 37, and married. Tapi gue tetep naksir <3 Kata Andre kalau lagi di bar dia galak, tapi biasanya sama cewek-cewek nggak tuh, apalagi yang Chinese speaker. Hihihi.

Ini dia nih yang tercakep seClubMed Bali..Olivier! Wakil kepala kampung, baik dan ramah setengah mati, beda banget ama P*** tuh -__- (oke kayaknya ini internal hehe)

Sheba has the smile that could brighten up the whole room. In my last days there, she and Okta terus menerus ngomelin gue karena kerja gue yang lambat. Hahaha sori dori mori Sheba. I still love her anyways.

This is Okta, maminya gang Dolly. As a Libra, she is bossy and likes to talk a lot. Biar begitu, she has a motherly nature, and always take care of us young GOs.

Semua intern GOs yang baru dateng pasti awalnya sebel sama Gede, abis doi pendiem dan nyeremin. Tapi lama-lama suka ngebanyol dan ngangenin <3

Yoon si Korea gila yang suka ngomong 'Bangsat', 'Anjing', dan seterusnya. Tapi sebenernya doi baik banget.

Me and Nadhira's farewell note to all the remaining GOs. Hope to see you soon!

Mencintai Dengan Sederhana

2011-11-01T19:45:00.006+07:00

As a student majoring in literature, of course here and then I would be assigned to read some poems, sometimes I even take the initiative to read one or two. It would only be weird if I don't.

Some of you probably been familiar with Chairil Anwar's Aku. Well, I think anyone who was a teenager growing up in 2002-2005 would easily recognize it thanks to Ada Apa Dengan Cinta. Doh. Don't even get me startin on how much people quoted that on Friendster.

Of all the Indonesian poetries I've read, this is one that I like the most. It's 'Aku Ingin' by Sapardi Djoko Damono.

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana

dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan

kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana

dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan

awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada

It's so simple yet so beautifully composed by Mr.Damono (and he's a Pisces too! #TeamPisces :P). The thing with it is I can read it several times after, and still have different interpretation each time. Depends on how I am at that moment. I'm not gonna discuss what impact it has on me, because a poetry has different impact on each person, and from every interpretation you can see how their mind really works. It helps you to know a person. Well, at least for me it does. Now, in whatever I do, I'm gonna try to mencintai dengan sederhana. Godspeed!

Everybody's (Not) Fine

2011-10-10T19:16:00.005+07:00

Kemarin gue baru saja nonton sebuah film di Cinemax yang berhasil bikin termehek-mehek. Everybody's Fine. Sebuah kalimat yang sering kita pakai untuk menjawab pertanyaan orang akan kabar kita.

"How are you?"

"I am fine thank you, and you?"
"I am fine too!"

Ya, memang kadang lebih mudah menjawab 'aku baik-baik saja' dibandingkan menjawab 'tidak, aku punya masalah' dan kemudian harus menceritakan panjang lebar tentang keluh kesah kita sehari-hari. Belum lagi harus menghadapi penilaian dan penghakiman orang lain tentang segala sesuatu yang kita perbuat. 'Lo harusnya gini gini gini dong!', 'Yah, coba lo ga kayak gitu, mungkin keadaan ga akan kayak gini', dan seterusnya mungkin adalah kata-kata terakhir yang mau lo denger dari orang lain saat lo bener-bener lagi terpuruk. Kadang-kadang yang kita butuhin memang hanya sepasang telinga yang selalu siap sedia mendengarkan dengan baik, dan sebuah tatapan sayang di akhir cerita disertai dengan sebuah 'sabar ya' yang terucap dengan tulus.

Ya tapi mau gimana lagi? Emang kadang-kadang orang lain udah ga tau mau ngomong apa lagi, mungkin orang-orang gemes ngedenger tingkah laku kita yang membuat mereka berpikir 'yah, lagi lo kenapa gitu sih.' Jadi mungkin keduanya memang diperlukan. Kadang-kadang kita bukan hanya perlu sepasang telinga, tapi kita juga butuh sebuah mulut yang selalu siap 'menampar' kita dengan realita hidup yang sebenarnya tidak terlalu keras, tapi karena hati kita sedang seperti diiris-iris light saber jadi kayaknya keras. Sebuah mulut yang siap membawa kita kembali ke jalan yang seharusnya (belum tentu benar ataupun baik).

Hanya dengan kedua hal tersebut, then everybody would be fine. Godspeed. :)

Summer Experience :)

2011-09-11T13:01:00.003+07:00

Hello folks! Long time no see! How was your summer holiday? Was it good? Splendid? Superb? Well I know mine was! Hehehe. I spent two months of my three-months summer holiday taking a short term class, and the other one working as a part-time GO in Club Med Bali.

Let me explain a bit about my job there. GO is short for Gentils Organisateur. I worked as a Mini Club GO. Club Med has a facility called Mini Club. Mini Club is separated to 4 clubs. Petit Club (2-3 years old), Mini Club (4-7 years old), Kids Club (8-10 years old), and Junior Club (11-17 years old). Our job is basically to take care of the kids who sign in to the club, play and do activities with them. We open at 9 am in the morning till 5.30 pm and open again at 6.50 pm til 9 pm. I deal with the Mini Club kids. It's hard to say which club GOs has the more difficult job because each club has its own ups and downs. With Mini Club, you have to deal with smaller kids who have less responsibilities in life, they probably just learned how to walk and run yesterday. I have to say sometimes it's a pain in the ass to chase them around, some of them JUST WON'T LISTEN! They're like devil in disguise! Heheh. But some of them are really nice and sweet once you got them to come around to you. Somewhere between and after our Mini Club working hours, we have to do GM contact, basically we sit down and mingle with the guests.

In my first week there, I really wanted to go home. I felt like all the people there were awful. The GOs might be smiling to the GMs but with other GOs, sometimes they were just awfuullll. For a newbie like me, it surely did feel like living hell. They expect us to know things around by ourselves, without telling us in advance. Well, of course we're allowed to ask in advance, even some of them would help without us asking, but some just give us a horrible look and explain things to us briefly without further ado (but now that I come to think of it again, aren't all workplace just the same? Haha).

As days went by, I got used to the situation and started to understand that's just the way things are there. Under pressure, of course sometimes you could explode, but there was NO WAY you may explode in front of the guests. So sometimes you misdirect your anger unto your colleagues, and you should understand each other. You work hard, you party hard. At working hours you really work, there are boundaries, rules and everything that tied you altogheter. After working hours, you're just colleagues hanging out and having fun together. I started to grow fond of my colleagues. Now and then, after a week being at home, I even still think about them. What are they doing at this time of day? Oh they're supposed to be having snack by now, oh they're supposed to be having Michael Jackson Show right now, etc. I even pick up a little French, Japanese, and Korean. I can say 'Let's go!' and 'Sit down, please' in six languages now! Ha.

I started to grow fond of Club Med life too. What I really like about Club Med is how it brings hundreds of strangers together, and kinda force us to be friends within seconds. That was actually a fun experience, something I would never do if it weren't for working in Club Med.

Overall, part-timing in Club Med Bali was really fun, and in the future, if they're still willing to accept me, I would totally go back there without further thinking! (+ I kinda left my fav short and my friend's tanktop somewhere in mini club, so I probably SHOULD go back hahaha). Thanks for the fun you gave me, Club Med! Now, let's go back to college with full tank! Godspeed.

Sistem Pembayaran Sebuah Universitas Kelas Dunia (Wannabe)

2011-06-01T08:43:00.003+07:00

Pada tanggal 30 Mei 2011, saya Bernardine Stefani, membayar iuran Semester Pendek atau SP sejumlah Rp.750.000 melalu ATM BNI Fakultas Ilmu Pengetahuan Budaya Universitas Indonesia. Layar menyuruh saya untuk menunggu karena transaksi sedang diproses. Setelah itu tulisan di layar berubah menjadi "Maaf, transaksi untuk sementara tidak dapat dilakukan." Sebuah struk kecil pun keluar dengan tulisan yang sama.

Akhirnya saya menunggu untuk membayar lagi pada tanggal 31 Mei 2011. Ternyata saat hendak membayar, saldo saya tidak cukup, padahal saya ingat terakhir kali saya cek sebelum percobaan membayar SP tanggal 30, saldo tabungan saya masih ada sekita Rp.1.200.000. Akhirnya saya pun panik dan mengecek ke BNI KC UI Depok. Di catatan mereka memang pada tanggal 30 Mei, saya ada transaksi bill payment sebesar Rp.750.000 ke rekening UI. Di SIAK NG, sistem akademis mahasiswa online, status IRS saya masih "Harus menunggu konfirmasi pembayaran." Makin panik, saya mengurus hal ini ke rektorat lantai 4 dengan Bapak Dedy Supratikno. Bapak Dedy sangat kooperatif dan langsung mengurus hal ini. Setelah itu, beliau menyuruh saya mengecek status saya lagi di SIAK.

Pagi ini begitu saya mengecek di SIAK, status IRS saya sudah berubah menjadi "Menunggu konfirmasi pembayaran." Ya, memang berubah, hanya kata 'harus' yang hilang. Mau tidak mau saya sekarang merasa kesal. Harus melapor kemanalagikah saya? Harus mengurus kemanalagikah saya? Apakah ini sistem pembayaran "WORLD CLASS UNIVERSITY"?

Why I Love Sinetron

2011-03-04T21:05:00.005+07:00

Reasons why I love sinetron:

1. It encourages young people to dress and/or act older than they really are/supposed to

2. It teaches us that everything will be alright as long as we "pasrah" and "berserah kepada Auloh."

3. If your life's miserable, you're probably not your parents' daughter. Someone might've switched you when you were a baby. So don't worry, be happy, and keep praying.

So, what's so not to love about sinetron? You guys are crazy, duh. Godspeed.

Birthday Wish List 2011

2011-01-28T22:26:00.002+07:00

1. A puppy. Beagle/husky/chow chow/pug.
2. Hyun Bin or Ryu Soo Young. Hahaha.
3. A nose job.
4. A private chef.
5. Justin Bieber concert VIP tickets.

Pasti bisa terwujud kan ya? Amin...Godspeed.

Dream High: Genie Cover

2011-01-26T20:29:00.003+07:00

Been watching Dream High. Anteng karena pemainnya cakep-cakep, lagunya bagus-bagus. Gue paling suka pas mereka bikin cover Genie di episode 4 (eh atau 5 ya). IU's been known for her amazingly skilled guitar-playing, dan selama ini kalo dia ngecover lagu artis-artis lain emang jatohnya jadi enak. Lies-nya Big Bang yang jejingkrakan jadi mellow, Sorry Sorry jadi agak quirky tapi tetep enak, Gee jadi manis nan syahdu. Kali ini gak terkecuali. Terus gue heran banget, si Suzy baru 16 tahun, tapi kenapa cakepnya udah naudzubillah ya Allah?

Oke cukup sekian. Silakan ditonton. Let's spread some Dream High love! Godspeed.

Dream High: Winter Child

2011-01-26T20:23:00.002+07:00

This would probably be my most favourite birthday song EVER.

Winter Child

Born in the winter, beautiful you
Clean like snow, you who belongs to me
Born in the winter, my lover
Clear like snow, you who belongs to me

Regardless whether its spring, summer, autumn, or winter.
Always clear and clean

Born in the winter, beautiful you
Clean like snow, you who belong tome

Regardless whether it's spring, summer, autumn, or winter
Always clear and clean
Born in the winter, beautiful you
Clean like snow, you who belong to me

happy birthday to you..happy birthday to you ooohh
happy birthday to you. Your birthday...

happy birthday to you (happy birthday to you)

Being A Bitch

2011-01-23T01:16:00.003+07:00

"Calling somebody else fat won't make you any skinnier, calling somebody else stupid. Calling somebody else stupid doesn't make you any smarter. All you can do in life is try to solve the problem in front of you." -Ms.Norbury, Mean Girls-

Okay, I won't go against Tina Fey, she's like my goddess. But I gotta join the dark force this time. Angst is better out than in. So when you're mad/angry with something/someone, just let it out. Call them names sure won't solve the problems, but it will produce good hormones in your bodies caused by reliefs of stress, which would make you solve the probs better. Am I right? Am I right? Yea, I'm feeling you, bitches.

Godspeed.

Day 11: Top 10 Blogs According To Me

2011-01-14T11:38:00.002+07:00

I don't really blogwalk that much..so probably I know little of top blogs..or the "trending" blogs..so here's my version of top 10 blogs (not necessarily in order)

1. http://thefreakyteppy.wordpress.com/
She was my senior in high school and I love how she writes. And what she writes. About her life, normal stuff, love stuff, I enjoyed them all :) (ps: if you're reading this ci Teppy, I'm a big fan of your blog ever since your blogdrive days)

2. http://adriaticblue.multiply.com/journal
He started off here and now has moved to www.vipertongue.com. I don't even know him in person, and he doesn't know me either. Loved his tweets and followed him.

3. http://manampiring.multiply.com/journal
Turned out he knows my sister's best friend. Who knows if he knows my sister too.

4. http://bulejugamanusia.blogspot.com/
I'm really curious as to how this bule right here can speak such fluent Indonesian and even write his blog in Indonesian. And from what I read he seems like a really cool bule.

5. http://namakutephy.wordpress.com/
Someone posted her link on facebook, I clicked it, and am a frequent reader ever since. My favorite statement of hers was how writing a blog in full English does not mean that we aren't nationalists, or we dont love our country, or so on. We studied it LOCALLY, which proves that we are not a stupid nation.

6. http://dramabeans.com/
Well, if THIS considered a blog, then yes it is one of my top blogs.

7. http://allkpop.com/
This one too :D

8. http://jagoanmovies.blogspot.com/
Checked in here quiet frequently to check out new movies.

9. http://jktshitlooks.blogspot.com/
This blog only has 24 posts, but I swear those are the best 24 posts of mockery and fuckery I've ever read! Ha! Can someone update this blog, puuuh-lisss?

10. http://terselubung.blogspot.com/
Full of trivial facts, world's hidden secrets, et cetera. A light read that makes me a more knowledgeable person.

There, there. Hope you enjoy my favourite blogs as much as I do. Godspeed! :D

Blah

2011-01-14T11:21:00.002+07:00

The worst thing that might happen is when one of your fears come true. One of mine did. I failed classic Chinese 1 and I did see it coming. So, no surprise though. But still, it burdens me just by thinking I still have to go through that traditional characters hell one semester longer than others who passed.

Guess my luck has ran out now, eh?

Sekilas Tentang Euforia AFF

2010-12-29T21:09:00.003+07:00

Piala AFF telah berakhir. Malaysia keluar sebagai pemenang. Oke sebenarnya saya tidak begitu ambil pusing dengan kekalahan negara saya. Yang saya pusingkan adalah para SUPORTER RELA MATI dari negara manapun itu. Gila, heran banget melihat para pemain tim dari Malaysia dan Indonesia saling peluk-pelukan, pegang-pegangan dan cium-ciuman (oke lebay, ga sampai cium-ciuman sih mungkin) dengan mesra, sementara kalian dengan bodohnya rusuh sana-sini, main laser sana-sini, nyalahin sana-sini. Maaf, saya tidak peduli kalian mau membenci saya atau memanggil saya sok bijak, tapi saya tidak rela kalau kalian mau bunuh karakter bangsa ini (dimana saya juga termasuk anggota di dalamnya) dengan pikiran DANGKAL dan kata-kata kasar kalian yang seperti tidak pernah mengecap bangku sekolahan.

Oke pertama-tama, mari bahas tentang laser. Ha, saya senang sekali malam ini, di final AFF Indonesia vs Malaysia, tertangkap oleh kamera, seberkas sinar laser hijau yang menyorot muka Fahmi. Hey, itu berarti, ya suporter kita di pertandingan malam ini sama saja kotornya dengan suporter Malaysia di final leg 1 sebelumnya.

Kedua, Indonesia kalah di leg 1 karena laser? Hey, lihatlah! Lihatlah Khairul Fahmi yang tetap berhasil menjaga gawang Malaysia dengan sepenuh tenaga sampai titik terakhir tanpa mengeluh apapun perihal sinar laser yang saya yakin terus menyoroti mukanya. Itulah mental final yang saya bicarakan waktu itu. Saya tidak tahu tentang mental juara, tapi yang pasti saya tahu mental final. Itulah mental final yang sebenar-benarnya. Fokus, lapang dada, tidak manja. Buktikan bahwa tim memang pantas berada di posisi final saat ini. Tidak, sekali lagi, saya tidak menghina anggota tim Garuda dengan mengatakan mereka adalah kebalikan dari segala sesuatu yang saya katakan tentang Fahmi tadi. Yang saya permasalahkan adalah logika kalian yang patut dipertanyakan. Kalau nasionalisme berarti harus bertindak dan berbicara tanpa logika seperti yang kalian lakukan, membangun suasana destruktif dan ricuh untuk timnas yang, hey by the way, juga saya cintai loh!, maka lebih baik saya tidak ikut-ikutan jadi nasionalis. Mencintai timnas bagi saya adalah memberikan kritik yang konstruktif, memuja mereka tanpa memanjakan. Mereka juga manusia yang perlu diberitahu jika berbuat salah. Bukan mental timnas yang saya pertanyakan, tapi mental kalian.

Ketiga, marilah kita coba, meskipun sangat berat rasanya, untuk mengambil hikmah dan nilai positif dari kekalahan kita malam ini, ini berarti bahwa: TIMNAS INDONESIA BUKANLAH JAGO KANDANG. Buktinya main di kandang sendiri toh tetap kalah. Yang juga berarti kita harus mengakui kehebatan timnas Malaysia. Oke jika kalian mau saling menghina tentang kebudayaan negara masing-masing, atau membuat puns
yang menyebalkan tentang bahasa masing-masing (meskipun hal ini juga selalu membuat hati saya sedih sekali), tapi saya mohon, jangan merusak nilai-nilai sportifitas yang dijunjung tinggi oleh dunia olahraga, dan nama baik bangsa kita!

It goes the same to you as well, Malaysian suporter. Shame on you, shame on that laser stunt you pulled on us! Your team could've won fair and clear without any laser, but you chose the other way. Shame on you, supporters. But then again, Khairul Fahmi has proven that laser is not an obstacle in becoming a champion. Glass raised for Indonesian and Malaysian national football team. I love each and every member of my national team. And to Khairul Fahmi, you got a bright future ahead, lad. Seriously.

Okay. That's a wrap. I'm gonna quote AADC one more time, "Kalau emosi mengalahkan logika, terbukti kan lebih banyak ruginya?" *terus di latar belakang, Nicolas Saputra mesem2 malu* Godspeed.

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-26T18:02:00.005+07:00

Dear friends and all strangers out there...time to share the love! Merry Christmas 2010! Only God knows how much I love this year. I just wanna say that we're blessed differently, each with our own needs, just believe it and bliss will follow.

What's your Christmas present? Mine is Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol. Happy holiday! Godspeed :D

My gift to yous: Foto manis dengan pohon natal mini

Day 10: 10 Random Things I Remember From School

2010-12-19T01:35:00.004+07:00

1. Me and my friends used to spend time singing and jamming and rapping like there was no one around

2. At break time, sometimes I followed friends around and snatch their snacks. Ha. *smirk

3. Class meeting was the time I was really waiting for in the whole semester.

Besides that, I don't remember anything much. What I remember now is how much I hated it, and how relieved I was to get out of that little circle of "eh elo lagi elo lagi" and got to go to UI. It was and it is now still the most amazing chance I'd ever got.

Godspeed.

A Wisdom from Ujang

2010-12-04T22:15:00.003+07:00

Melihat sinetron-sinetron zaman sekarang, saya teringat kembali dulu saat saya masih smp kalau tidak salah, antv pernah membuat sebuah program film televisi mini yang berusaha mendobrak stigma-stigma film televisi yang sudah ada. FTV mencoba menyajikan tayangan baru yang segar yang bukan melulu hanya sinetron. Yang bukan melulu hanya ibu tiri. Yang bukan melulu hanya kisah satir Cinderella kacangan dengan akting dempulan dan remaja-remaja baru puber dengan aksesoris beli grosiran di Naughty.

FTV yang waktu itu paling saya suka, sekaligus FTV pertama yang waktu itu ditayangkan di AnTV adalah Ujang Pantry yang dibintangi Ringgo Agus dan Dina Olivia. Ceritanya tentang Nadine si cewek kaya yang got knocked up by Ujang si pengurus pantry ini.

Ceritanya lucu, ringan, dan aktingnya bener-bener ga bikin alis mengernyit mempertanyakan kewarasan diri sendiri. Ada satu kalimat yang menyentil waktu itu. Saat Ujang berusaha minta maaf kepada Nadine, setelah berulang kali, dengan menyebalkannya menyakiti hati Nadine, teman si Nadine pun mengusir si Ujang gebleug ini, sambil berkata:

"Nadine tuh orang kaya. Tapi dia ga pernah sombong sama kekayaannya. Tapi kamu?? Kamu selalu sombong akan kemiskinan kamu!!"

Saya pun langsung merasa tersentil. Pernah ga sih merasa kayak Ujang ini? Selalu berkoar-koar tentang kelemahan kita demi mendapat, entahlah, dibilang rasa kasihan juga bukan..rasa simpati juga bukan..telkomsel juga bukan... *eyaaaaa

Contoh: "Iya tahu deh..saya mah orang miskin..ga kayak kamu, kaya. Udahlah ga usah deket-deket saya lagi."

Setelah dipikir-pikir, iya sih. Ngapain sombong dengan kemiskinan kita? Intinya? Moralnya? Auk deh, cari aja sendiri, udah gede ini. Godspeed.

Feedjit Post #5

2010-11-17T15:59:00.002+07:00

I missed Feedjit!

Let's see what you guys been typing

"Orang gendut pake jas" --> .....maaf google saja Harry de Fretes atau Ruben Studdard -_-

"Celana high waist di Indonesia" --> saya punya banyak celana high waist loh. Tapi daleman aka granny panties. Mau?

"Empal gondrong" --> sorry, di sini empal bonding.

"Gue chinese" --> toss dulu dong.

"Gaya vintage itu seperti apa?" --> gaya vintage itu adalah ketika kamu pergi ke mal dengan menggunakan baju bekas ibu atau nenek kamu. Atau ketika kamu pergi ke mal dengan ibu atau nenek kamu.

"Apa cinta itu pasti napsu?" --> saya tidak tahu dengan kamu, tapi kalau saya sih iya.

"to show how vulnerable im not" --> Dexter fan spotted! Toss dulu dong.

"hanny+coi" --> so..hanny coi? Saik banget

"gaya ngedate orang bule" --> biasanya mereka ngedate di dalam mobil atau di atas motor. Mencari tempat yang gelap, biasanya kalau di deket rumah saya, itu di belakang CNI. Lalu mereka pelukan sambil makan nasi goreng. Oh wait. They're not bule. Tapi kok hampir sama ya gayanya.

"jangan dibutakan oleh ambisi" --> setuju! lebih baik dibutakan oleh bleachingan rambut bisma karisma!

Sekian dan sampai jumpa di Feedjit post selanjutnya! Godspeed.

Survive the Fear Factor

2010-11-17T15:28:00.003+07:00

Pernah merasa bingung ga sih, "Sebenernya gue kuliah ini buat apa sih?," "Sebenernya ini yang lagi gue pelajarin apa sih? Wtf sih?" Pasti semua orang minimal sekali pernah mikir kayak gini. Gue termasuk orang yang di detik ini pun sedang berpikir seperti itu. Apalagi denger selentingan2 dari beberapa alumni, "Toh ntar pas lo kerja juga ga bakal kepake. Tenang aja."
Oke oke, itu nanti. Tapi sekarang, toh tetep, gue harus melewati semua mata kuliah asem ini.

Setiap kali buka buku Cina klasik, pikiran gue pasti langsung asem. Pertanyaan "Apa sih ini?" bukan lagi hanya bermajas hiperbola, tapi sudah masuk ke ranah harafiah. Bener-bener nanya dengan khusyuk dan khidmat, "Apa sih ini, Tuhan?" Atau ga usa Tuhan deh, "Apa sih ini, PAK?"

Dan pertanyaan ini benar-benar coba gue jawab dengan sepenuh hati. Jawabannya adalah: Ini bahasa Cina klasik. Eyaaaa basi. Lalu dengan menyambungkan dua komponen bahwa (1)Ntar pas kerja ini ga bakalan kepake, dan (2)Ini bahasa Cina klasik, sebenarnya banyak kesimpulan yang bisa gue ambil, tapi hanya satu yang mungkin paling kereng di otak gue: Inilah idealisme. Iya lah, orang-orang yang bersedia nuntut ilmu demi ilmu kayak Rancho di 3 Idiots, mempelajari lebih dalam tentang bahasa-bahasa yang dipakai leluhur-leluhurnya, kalau ini bukan idealisme, maka saya tak tahu lagi apa itu idealisme. Halah.

Setiap kali liat teman-teman seangkatan gue berjuang nerjemahin ini itu, listening ini itu (dan ketika bilang 'teman-teman seangkatan' seakan gue ga termasuk di dalamnya, ya benar, gue memang ga termasuk di dalamnya, karna perjuangan gue lebih di dalam hati dan di saat gue bersujud menghadapNya hahaha), celetukan itu muncul lagi di kepala gue, "Toh ntar pas kerja ga bakalan kepake." Oke, satu: siapa tahu kerjanya emg jadi translator jadi bakal kepake, dua: ya mgkn juga sih, tapi sebenernya ada manfaatnya juga loh.

Ngelihat mereka yang sering banget begadang hampir ga tidur, jadi kepikir bahwa: sebenernya yang mau dilihat bukan nilai kita pada akhirnya (oleh siapapun itu, bukan dosen doang), tapi survival ability kita. Bisa ga sih kita survive dari tantangan-tantangan artifisial semacam ini (ya, maaf, menurut meteran arogansi saya kuliah itu artifisial, tantangan sebenarnya ada di dunia kerja nanti). Kalau tantangan-tantangan yang begini saja kita ga bisa lewatin, apalagi nanti tantangan yang lebih besar di dunia maya? Eh, nyata maksudnya.

Lama kelamaan gue makin merasa kuliah ini makin kayak Fear Factor aja. Bisa ga kita overcome rasa takut kita, dan mengolahnya menjadi suatu output yang baik, yaitu sikap positif kita ga peduli betapa buruknya pun nilai-nilai kita, atau mungkin menjadi suatu result yang lebih baik, yaitu selamat melewati semua 'faktor ketakutan' yang disediakan. Sampai jumpa di Fear Factor selanjutnya! :D

Godspeed.

Lucifer Unyu

2010-11-17T00:19:00.002+07:00

Can I pull off Taemin's haircut? I don't think so..ha. Will I ever found anybody else as breathtakingly handsome as Minho? I don't think so..
Dan terima kasih Tuhan atas mulai mendingnya outfit SHINee, dan mulai jelasnya tujuan video mereka, terima kasih mereka sudah ditarik dari jurang Ring Ding Dong dan lebih diarahkan lagi ke konsep mereka circa Replay (Hello sukses bikin mata saya kreyep-kreyep <-- bukan kriyep-kriyep ya). Meskin bukan Shawol, tapi aku tetep cinta SHINee. Go SHINee! Godspeed.

Day 9: A Random List

2010-10-17T13:25:00.005+07:00

I went to listverse to look for an interesting list and it turned out there are tons of it. But since I'm a fan of vampires, so here's 8 Vampire Myths Explained (click for the original link)

Vampires have haunted literature, art and folklore since the dawn of mankind. Stories of vampirism can be traced as far back as biblical times, with Lilith the first rumored vampire. The term vampire did not become an everyday superstition, and fear, until the 17th and 18th centuries in Europe. Was the belief in vampires considered some type of mass hysteria, since numerous countries all had their own form of blood suckers, from the Russian Vurdalak to the Romanian Strigoi? Or are there other explanations for the myths?

8. Stake Through The Heart

Staking a vampire through the heart has been the most popularized method of extermination. Many different countries show references to driving a stake through the heart as well using specific woods to get the job done. Certain types of wood have tied symbolism to Christianity, such as Ash, Blackthorne, Maple, Hawthrone, Buckthorne and Aspen. A stake was driven through the chest cavity to ensure deflation of a bloated corpse, so it would be deflated before its transformation into a revenant was complete. Groans were reported to escape the “vampire’s” mouth when the chest was either pushed on or staked. Gasses trapped in the stomach, intestines and esophagus escaped and pressed against the vocal chords when the pressure of staking was applied.

7. Bats

In Romanian folklore it was thought that a bat, insect or other flying creature that passed over a corpse, could turn it into a revenant (a corpse that returns from the grave). In fact, bats are much like vampires. They are nocturnal, some species drink blood, and they have an acute sense of hearing and smell. The discovery of blood drinking bats only exacerbated the vampire myth.

6. Fresh Corpses

When suspicion of vampirism fled though an area, it was not uncommon for the towns people to exhume the corpses of their loved ones to check for the tell tale signs of a vampire in the grave. Normally, a vampire’s corpse appeared fresh (not far into decomposition), the cheeks were reported to be full and rosy, the lips and mouth were red, from what appeared to be fresh blood, and the hair and fingernails of the corpse appeared as if they had continued growing. With a basic knowledge of decomposition these signs can be explained. The lack of fresh air and substantially lower temperature of the Earth below can, for lack of a better word, refrigerate a corpse therefore slowing down outer signs of decomposition.

In the case of bloated corpses, blood would be pushed to the surface of the skin, causing rosy cheeks, red lips and even blood in the mouth. When oxygen hits blood, it binds itself to the hemoglobin, causing the shape and appearance of blood to change. Because of the constant temperature and conditions of being underground, it would take longer for blood to dry up and no longer have a bright red appearance.

Hair and fingernails have the appearance of growth after death, but that’s just at first glance. When the body expires, the loss of moisture in the skin causes it to recede giving the fingernails and hair the appearance of growth.

5. Fangs

Those who were vampires were thought to have longer than usual eye teeth. Porphyria, also called the Vampire’s disease, is a recessive genetic disease that is characterized by too little hemoglobin being produced in the blood. This disease is said to have happened as a result of European nobility intermarrying. Skin complications of Porphyria include, but are not limited to, photosensitivity, skin blisters, skin itching, skin swelling, hair growth abnormalities (which can explain myths of lycanthropy), skin pigment changes, deterioration of the lips and nose, and receding tissues of the gums and lips. The appearance of someone whose lips and gums have receded would be a gruesome and frightening sight, indeed, making the eye teeth stand out. In most European countries if a child was born with teeth it was considered to be a vampire.

4. Vampire's Reflection

Another telltale sign of a vampire was a lack of reflection in mirrors. Mirrors have always held relevance in folklore when associated with death. It was common superstition in Bulgaria, that if a corpse’s reflection was shown in a mirror, or if mirrors were not covered in the presence of a corpse, then there was an increased likelihood another death would occur. It was also customary for a corpse to be removed from a house through a window, and never through a front door, as to discourage the corpse of a loved one from returning to the home to claim another family member. It was also thought that those who suffered from Porphyria abandoned mirrors from their lives because they did not wish to see their ghastly and ghoulish appearance.

3. Photosensitivity

Porphyria appears to be the prior missing tie in the myth of vampires blistering and burning in the sunlight. The bodies of those with Porphyria lack the function of being able to effectively repair their skin cells from UV ray damage.

2. Aversion to Garlic

Garlic holds classic symbolism in vampire folklore. But why garlic? Again, Porphyria is the culprit to this age old myth. Garlic contains chemicals that exacerbates the symptoms of the disease, and causes those with it to avoid it at all costs. Imagine having severe allergies and walking into a field of dust, flowers, and weeds.

1. Drinking Blood

Why blood? If a vampire is already dead then what purpose would ingesting blood have on a corpse? Although that part of the myth is left up to the imagination, blood consumption is, none the less, the ultimate telltale sign of a vampire. Porphyria rears its ugly head again. Because a symptom of the disease is a deficiency of hemoglobin in the blood, it was a common practice for those with the illness to drink large quantities of fresh blood in hopes that drinking it would provide the same effect as someone who takes a supplement to meet their daily requirement for a vitamin. Although the afflicted at the time most likely did not know the details of their disease but rather just assumed their illness was from “bad blood” so to speak.

Godspeed.

Day 8: Top 10 TV show or TV Show Chars of All Time

2010-10-10T05:40:00.004+07:00

A post before going back to the lodging house!

I've watched a lot of tv series. Some I followed till the end (Friends, Will & Grace, Seinfeld), some I just left in the middle because of the uninteresting story (Brothers and Sisters, The O.C.) or insufficient funds (there're too many :P)

To pick just 10 favorite tv character will probably be hard, because I believe I don't favorite that many. But why don't I try instead of yapping now.

1. Jack McFarland. Because of him, I almost wished I was a jiggly gay guy :D
2. Karen Walker. She's maybe practically the other side of anyone of us that we hide in order to survive in society :)
3. Yuan Xiang Qin. I probably would never the get the feeling of crushing on the same person steadily for 7 years, and then after years of ignoring you, he finally proposed. It is amazing what she does. And she is so lucky to have Zhi Shu and vice versa.
4. Blair Waldorf. I love her clothes, I love the way she talks, I love how she has her own way to show affection to her friends, I love the way Chuck loves her, I love the way she puts on revenge.
5. Patrick Jane. I really wish he was real. But I do believe there are people like him amongst us, but will they ever be as cute as he is? Unyu unyu.

I want to stop at number five as I can't think of anyone else to be my favorite character. But it's a challenge, so I can't and don't wanna lose to this stupid, silly challenge.

6. Debra Morgan. Yeah, Dex's lil sister. I love the way she swears. Haha.
7. Cosmo Kramer. He seems like the perfect everyday Jakartan unemployed man.
8. Peter Petrelli. Basically, just because he's hot :9
9. Gumiho! She tells the truth, and she always say and do things that seems to be the perfect analogy to everything. And she isn't afraid of anything (of course, she's a nine-tailed fox, the only thing she should be afraid of is a ten-tailed fox), unless it's losing the people she loves.
10. Chandler Bing. Adorkable with dry sense of humour. I could just marry him right now.

Day 8 done! See you on day 9! Godspeed.

Day 7: People In My Family and A Random Fact About Em

2010-09-25T21:43:00.002+07:00

I guess I'd skip this challenge..totally not interesting..and there are too many eyes out there..hehe

Peace out.

Day 6: Ten Facts About My Hometown, Jakarta

2010-09-15T02:08:00.001+07:00

1. I was gonna complain about the ridiculously massive traffic jam, but to think of it again, it is actually something that’s quite inevitable when you’re living in a city of 660ish square kilometres with another 9ish million people.

2. People feel insecure all the time due to the high criminal rates.

3. Beggars are everywhere. Sometimes they even go door to door. Also buskers.

4. In this city, the police are the real thieves. You know what I mean. If you don’t, ask. Or whatever.

5. Goin home from work and suddenly it starts to rain endless rain? Consider yourself sleeping on the street tonight. Rain and traffic are quite the deal package here.

6. There are a lot of malls and shopping centre. Even in my neighbourhood, two giant hypermarket standing just a few metres away. In the middle, standing a huge apartment building packed with ANOTHER HYPERMARKET and a few restaurants. Totally unnecessary. The gov should build more sports centre instead. At least if we’re going down to bottomless destruction, we can do it with chocolate abs on.

7. It rains in June and sometimes it’s sizzling hot in December. Talk about global warming.

8. You know you’re in Jakarta too long when you have at least gone once to Java Jazz even if you don’t like Jazz.

9. Everybody seems to have a Blackberry. Or someone in their family does. Either that, or they have two cellphones, GSM and CDMA. The GSM might be Blackberry though. Maybe it’s just a matter of time til they create Blackberry CDMA.

10. All the teenagers have at least one legging. True story. Haha.

Godspeed.

25 Days Challenge: Day 5

2010-09-12T02:14:00.004+07:00

Top 10 favourite songs of all time (not in particular order)

These 10 have proven by time that they’ll always be the songs I would never get bored to listen to

1. Sara Bareilles - Gravity. Also youtube this: Kayla Kupono Addiction. Amazing routine from SYTYCD that made me fall in love with the song.

2. Adele - Someone Like You

3. Katie Thompson - It Doesn’t Hurt. Worth youtube for: Tara Jean Vincent Contemporary.

4. Yesung - It Has To Be You

5. Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me

6. Shakira - Underneath Your Clothes.

7. 2NE1 - Ugly

8. D’Cinnamons - Ku Yakin Cinta

9. Sasina - Lagu Cinta

10. Corinne Bailey Rae - Like A Star

Ugh it was so hard to pick just ten! I had to actually open my music folder to choose! This list pretty much describes me, a little bit indecisive with a little bit of edge. Ha. Godspeed.

25 Days Challenge: Day 4

2010-09-11T05:43:00.001+07:00

Ten favorite movies (not necessarily in this order)

I gotta say, this quite difficult..I’ve got too much favorite movies, I can’t pick out just ten! But you know, since this is a ‘challenge’ so I guess I can slim it out to just ten all time favorites..

1. Definitely, Maybe. I looove the story to the point that I wish I’m April.

2. P.S. I Love You. The best romantic feel-good movie ever!

3. Walk The Line. I don’t really know why I really like this movie though..I’ve watched it over for like 20 times..Maybe it’s the cute southern accent. Maybe it’s the soundtrack. IDK..I just really adore this movie.

4. Hellboy. He is like my personal heroine. I know, I know..some other people maybe would’ve picked Iron Man as their fav superhero..or Batman or Spiderman or Superman or whatever..but me, I’m Hellboy’s girl forever. I guess that’d make me Hellgirl then. Haha.

5. Chicago. This is probably the best musical movie I’ve seen, if not ever.

6. Up. Cried like a baby, laughed like a toddler. Memorable and sweet, it is totally my number 1 favorite cartoon movie.

7. Bring It On. Cheesy? Naahh..you gotta admit it is actually a decent cheerleading movie, probably the best so far.

8. Mean Girls. Tina Fey. Enough said.

9. Twilight. Ha! No matter what people said about it, I still love it and thinks it’s the best out of the three establishments. It was kinda Ada Apa Dengan Cinta-ish if I might say, brings out the high school memories in you. Still waiting for Breaking Dawn though.

10. Knocked Up. Katherine Heigl, my twin sister. Enough said.

See, even though I watch a lot of movies from all kinds of genres, my favorites are actually the light-hearted ones. I mean, sure I like James Bond or Jason Bourne, but I wouldn’t actually bother much to watch those movies twice or more. I think you can categorize a movie as your favorite if you can see it for more than three times and still can’t get enough. And that’s what I feel about these ten movies. Makes sense enough? Enough! Hahaha. Godspeed.

25 Days Challenge: Day 3

2010-09-10T03:47:00.002+07:00

Seven secrets

Hmm..I gotta skip today’s challenge. I have no secrets. Or maybe I do, I’m just not telling because they’re, uhm, SECRETS. Kthxbye :)

Yes Minwoo

2010-09-09T11:50:00.004+07:00

Due to this ridiculously a lot of spare time I got, Ive been watching Korean drama via mysoju. Playful Kiss, I Am Legend, and...My Girlfriend is A Gumiho. I think Lee Seung Gi is totally outshined by his two casts, No Minwoo and Shin Minah. When did No Minwoo get so crazily handsome?? I mean before in his TRAX and Pasta days, I always think he's too girly for a man, but believe me, you'll love him in Gumiho. He's not No Minwoo there, he's YES Minwoo! Hahaha. And I didn't remember Shin Minah to be so out-of-the-world beautiful either. I mean, it's like sunlight comes out of her eyes everytime she talks and smiles! Okay, oversaid it, but seriously, see it for yourself and you'd know what I mean.

Anyway, here's one of my favorite scene. I'm hooked.

Minwoospeed!

25 Days Challenge: Day 2

2010-09-09T01:31:00.001+07:00

Ten random facts about myself

1. I have a huge girl crush on Shin Minah.

2. I really don’t get people who doesn’t like Friends. I mean, the show is like bubbly and funny! Who wouldn’t love it? I, like, have watched the whole ten seasons three times! …O wait, wow, I had a LOT of spare times, had I not.

3. I actually love my noodles and pizzas lukewarm. Sizzling hot is just overrated. When a pizza’s lukewarm, you can actually taste the dough better, and the cheese tastes way chewier. And so are noodles. The spices taste deeper when it’s lukewarm than when it’s hot.

4. I hate shopping for clothes. It’s the most boring activity. I’d rather eat….(mmyeaaa riiiiggghhttt…*smirk*)

5. This is one thing I just realised when I started teaching..I actually love kids..only if they’re pretty. Ha.

6. I have a morbid interest on spirits and ghosts.

7. I love everything about Korea.

8. I have a really awkward sense of humour. Enough to drive people away.

9. I am not complicated. Complicated is overrated. It’s just for people who don’t know what they want and don’t know their trueselves.

10. I believe in ‘a love that will last’ too much, sometimes it’s tiresome. Ha.

Godspeed.

25 Days Challenge: Day 1

2010-09-07T06:18:00.002+07:00

Five most important/memorable memories (not necessarily in that order)

1. October 10th 2007. Thanks for what might have and might have not been :)

2. December 30th 2004. It was the most painful day of my life. I can never forget that day. I still remember the order perfectly and my dad’s last expression will haunt me for the rest of my life. I love him more than words could say and I can’t wait to see him again.

3. The day I got accepted at UI. It was like a dream come true. And now that I’ve come to experienced life as a student there, those moments will totally be unforgettable. I’ve met such amazing people, and loving every second I’ve spent, and will be spending with them.

4. An encounter with a pervert angkot driver when I was in 8th grade. Man, how I wish to kill him, I would kill him right away if I see him. That, if I still can recall his face. I wish him thousands of bad luck!

5. August 28th 2010. The first day I stepped my feet on Doha. So far, I haven’t got anywhere much, but these days will totally be memorable. The city and the people gei wo likai le shenke de yinxiang :)

25 Days Challenge

2010-09-07T06:17:00.002+07:00

via http://truly-free.tumblr.com/
25 lists.

01. Five most important/memorable memories
02. Ten random facts about yourself
03. Seven secrets
04 Ten favourite movies
05. Top 10 Favorite songs of all time
06. Ten facts about your hometown
07. List the people in your family & a random fact about them
08. Top 10 favorite TV show or TV show characters of all time
09. A random list (one can be found on listverse.com or toptenz.net)
10. 10 random things that you remember from school
11. Top 10 blogs, according to you
12. Five chores that you love, 5 chores that you hate
13. Top 10 things you look for in a friend
14. Top 10 things you look for in a romantic partner
15. 10 places you want to visit before you die
16. Put your music player on shuffle, list the first 10 songs that come up
17. 5 favorite actors, 5 favorite actresses
18. 10 most important people in your life
19. 10 things that you could not live without
20. 10 favorite websites
21. 10 favorite games
22. 10 things that you love about yourself
23. 5 Favorite Foods, 5 least favorite foods
24. 10 most influential people/things/events in your life
25. 10 of your wildest dreams

Doha Day 8

2010-09-04T01:59:00.003+07:00

- Kpop is my biggest guilty pleasure. You know how Quil in Twilight imprint on that little girl and ever since doesn't see other girls' faces no more? That's how I'm like with Kpop. It's like other kinds of music doesn't sound interesting to my ear anymore. Seriously. I think Kpop is the best. You'll never get tired listening to Run Devil Run or Ah! over and over again. Well, at least I don't. Then why is it a guilty pleasure to me? Well, as much as I love listening to Kpop, I sometimes still get embarassed when people catch me listening to 2NE1 or SNSD or else. Well, CERTAIN people actually. Hehe. I also find it funny that I'm more attracted to the female idols than the male idols. I think they're much cooler and more attractive on screen. Who's with me?

- Sometimes I really can't stand my mother's humour. It's very dry and slapstick-y sometimes. It's like when we were waiting for the traffic light in Qatar, she suddenly said "How come there's no Kopaja and Mikrolet here?" And I was like "Uuugghh, you think??," but not out loud of course. She can get so jayus sometimes it's irritating. Oh, and she also likes to mock others physique, no, not their makeups, or the way they dress, but their BODY SHAPE. She can be so condescending and mean sometimes, it's really really bugging me. You know why? Cause I'm afraid I might turn into her. Oh, God forbid.

- I actually never envy other people's faces, I just envy their body. I ain't pretty but I just never really desire to have another face. I mean I might say I do once in a while, but that could be out of flattery. What I really do desire is, a body like After School's Jung Ah. Or UEE's. :9

- I like basa basi! I think that is still a really important part in our culture, you gotta suck up to the elders! But with people my age, I just don't see why I should, but I still do sometimes anyway. It has become a habit. That's why most people I just met see me come off as someone who is difficult to approach to, but really, it was just a habit I can't seem to shake off. Kinda pretentious you may say, especially if you'd gotten to know me. Come on young peeps, be courteous and pretentious once in a while..it's fun you know hahaha.

- Oh, and did I mention Kdrama is also my guilty pleasure?

- Moustache is a really sensitive accesory to men. It can be disastrous, but it can be gorgeous too. Hello Kim Nam Gil and Eric Dane :)

- Lee Seung Gi. I'm just not feeling him. Yet. Maybe. DK.

- What is it with Kdramas that all the girls seems like programmed to choose a bad guy over an extremely nice guy? It'd be refreshing to see the opposite once in a while, like in Hello Schoolgirl :)

Doha Day 4

2010-08-31T20:25:00.005+07:00

I've been playing the sims for almost 5 hours straight. Trying to create a new neighborhood called (guess what?) FORKS. Hahaha. Yeah. Done creating the Swan family, got too tired and now buffering some Exploration Human Body episodes on Youtube. Geez, maybe I should start doing something more productive. Like, hmmm, taking a shower. Or, make my bed. I really can't wait to see the beach!

Trapped in this big apartment, just me and my mother alone, I thought about things (yeah right, like what? What wallpaper should you use for the Swan's dining room?). I saw how my sister's living in this comfy small place. I saw Ivana's facebook status. She's back to her apartment in Depok and she said 'It's obvious that I love my place.'

Will I, no, will us ever be able to separate from the place we've lived in for a long period of time? Will I later, after I graduate, be able to separate from Depok? It has been such a routine, walking to the class, hanging out at campus, eating at Jeri or Sasari, playing with Randu, Oriz, Vana, Sandra and other fellow dormers. I think it will be unbearable to be apart from all of that I don't even wanna think about it. Wait, I'm thinking about it now. Yeah yeah. I haven't even graduated for God's sake. Haha. One thing for sure amongs everything I'm not sure about in this world is that we can't be so sure of anything. Of course I will be able to separate from Depok. I won't die cause of it, I'll live. But to know that I even doubt it is the proof that I really do care about the place. And the people. And don't forget what Paul Child said in Julie and Julia: "Home is wherever we are."

See you and take care of your heart, peeps! Godspeed.

Doha Day 3

2010-08-30T23:17:00.003+07:00

Assalamualaikum! Saat ini di Ad Doha waktu menunjukkan pukul 19:18. Empat jam lebih awal dari Jakarta. Saya sedang duduk di ruang depan apartemen kakak saya, sambil memanfaatkan fasilitas wifi yang baru saja berhasil tersambung dengan riang gembira.

Ya ya ya..saya sudah tiba tiga hari yang lalu dengan selamat sentosa di Ad Doha, Qatar. Dan coba, coba, ngacung sebentar, di tahun 2010 ini siapa yang masih ngira bahwa Qatar itu adalah sebuah KOTA di Arab Saudi...? Coba, coba ngacung..well, I wouldn't blame you. Because it is indeed a very small country. Saya sendiri tahu di dunia ini ada negara yang namanya Qatar gara-gara pas SD dulu ambisi pengen selalu menang Pancasila lima dasar lawan temen-temen satu jemputan, jadi dari rumah udah prepare nama-nama negara A-Z nyontek dari Atlas :)

Actually, I really hate to post about things without pics, but I don't have a decent camera, and to make it worse, I forgot to bring my cellphone data cable. I haven't really explore anything, since I'm always stuck in the apartment all day like a TKI. But I ain't complainin, cos this apartment is packed with entertainment (and fooooooood nyahahha). So far, I only been to two supermarkets, and the food were all very tempting.

With this comfy apart, 24 hours entertainment, I don't really have the desire to blog, almost at all. But I figure I gotta blog something. Anything, about this place. It's like a commitment to myself. Hope I can complete the post with pics soon. Now I'm going to facebook, youtube, and tumblr some more. Sooo..Godspeed. :)) xxx

Black Gold Red Blood

2010-08-19T23:28:00.009+07:00

This is a dialogue from The Mentalist season 2 episode 6, Black Gold Red Blood, between Patrick Jane and an inmate. A quite flicked scene if I might say..So in every prison there's always this shot-caller inmate, the one that other inmates follow around or obey, right? Jane met one when he got in jail for eavesdropping on a fellow agent. This inmate is the typical tough-looking guy that lives off by scaring people off. As usual Jane played around and got on Inmate nerves.

Inmate: I don't think I like you much.
Jane: If you stop seeing the world in terms of what you like and what you dislike and saw things for what they truly are in themselves, you would find a great deal more peace in your life and I can help you with that if you want.
Inmate: I, uh... *lost for words* (Me: Owned! Haha!)
Jane: Think about it. Where's the phone in here? I need to make a call.
Inmate: Over there.

First of all, it's amazing how this show can twist such a scene. You should see the expression on the inmate's face after Jane's little speech! Ha! Cracked me up even the second time. And secondly, can Simon Baker be anymore adorable?? I find him more mischiveous and witty in season 2. He's not actually my type of bule, but this Patrick Jane charisma he's portraying? Just super cute like a bite-size Snickers!

Lastly, the quote is applied to pretty much everybody, and it is very much true so I really feel like I should enlarged it.

Can I put you in my pocket please, Sir?

Janespeed :)

Into The White Night

2010-08-15T12:18:00.005+07:00

Ever since I heard about this movie, I can't hardly wait for this movie to come out at mysoju.com already. It is based on popular Japanese mystery writer Keigo Higashino's story "Byakuyako," published first in Shueisha magazine from 1977-1979. It was then compiled into a best selling novel.

And now that I've watched it, I gotta give a standing ovation for Son Ye Jin. It is already a sin to be that goddess-like beautiful, and now this?? The movie was so intense, I felt like I had to get away from the screen once in a time. It is not the story, it is the characters that are all very well played by the actors.
Or I don't know, maybe it's because I've seen Son Ye Jin did several totally different characters, and they were all impressive. Innocent and in love (A Moment To Remember), a past and present adolescence (The Classic), a ~~too~~ carefree housewife (My Wife Got Married), and this broken-inside woman (White Night). I fell in love with them all.

She is one of my girl crush, amongs with Park Si Yeon. And After School. (;P) I recommend all Ye Jin's fans to watch this movie. And non-fans to watch it too, because you will be a fan after you watch this. And not too mention the hot bed scenes. Hahaha. Go Soo is such an eye candy.

Godspeed.

Things I Really Wanna Try Right Now..

2010-08-15T01:43:00.005+07:00

Not necessarily in that order

1. Vongole
2. Truffle Tagliatelle

3. Pasta Aglio Olio

4. Foie Gras

5. Soju

6. Makgeolli

7. Samgyupsal

8. Jajangmyun

9. Kimbab

10. Spicy rice cake stew

11. Bibimbab

12. Doenjang Jjigae

What I love about Korean food is how much colour they can put in a plate/bowl of meal. Beside, they're really healthy. And those pasta...I don't know, that's what you get from watching too much Pasta. Hehe. Heart you, Chef.

Godspeed.

Self-made Blindness

2010-08-01T00:29:00.003+07:00

Some people feel so great for not missin a single mass every week. That same some people also feel great for havin a lot of friends with the same belief, and perhaps, the same class in society. Okay, maybe this is the most classic stereotyping, I'm sorry but some people like moi myself can't help it.

There are sooo many reasons of why I don't go to church anymore, and I can't even find a single one why I should. And why am I sayin it proudly and blabbin it all here for you strangers and earthlings to see? First of all, I'm not proud. It's just a fact that I just couldn't hold on to that left-me-an-empty-inside-after-effect habit that we, Catholics, called mass.

Secondly, it seems like some people have forgotten one very basic thing that we Catholics should implant very deep in our minds and hearts, something that Dan Brown once tried to implicitly explain in his oh-so-mind-blowingly-divine book, The DaVinci Code. One fact that: Mary Magdalene was a prostitute. Yeah, she was a prostitute, yet she was God's best friend. He wants people to REACH OUT to those who are in need, be INCLUSIVE, not EXCLUSIVE. If you only hang out with the people you like, people you think match your social status well, you shouldn't be proudly adding 'GBU's or 'Thanks God's in your everyday speeches, should you?

I ain't writin these all so you can practice what I preach. I don't even practice what I preach, so who am I to tell you to do so? My very underlined, bold, and italic point is that, if you're saying 'Oh this is so me' to yourself after you read all the stuff I wrote above, please stop act like your God's super holy disciple. Please stop writing out your prayers in your facebook statuses or tweets or another hey-look-at-me! websites. Please stop bringing up your church in the things you say or do if you don't even wanna befriend someone who has lost his/her faith in the Big J, or someone who hates church. Everyone has their own saying, and if you think you're really that great, then why don't you try to reach out and fix that someone?

Seriously, sometimes it's not the church or the religion that makes people blind. It's the people themselves, they took the iceforks and stab their own eyes with it.

Last thing last, I swear I'm not writing it because of one particular person, it's just out of common observations, from stories I heard, and my own experiences. No particular person intended, so don't flatter yourself, whoever you are. Read this post with an open mind, even leave a hate comment if you want. Like I care. Hahaha. Godspeed.

Feedjit Post #4!

2010-07-17T16:48:00.005+07:00

It's really funny to see what people typed that made them end up in your site, ain't it. As for my site, it seemed like there's it's own trending topics: PUCUK DICINTA ULAM TIBA, HANNY ATALIE, CINTA VS NAFSU. Anyone care to tell me who Hanny Atalie is? Cause I just can't find her on google. (If you don't get this Feedjit post, here's a reference to my first feedjit post)

Some new inputs are in, I've taken a note to share with all of you :) Some are amusing, some are just weird.

"betis yang jelek" <-- well..you've arrived at the right site...I guess

"gambar baju orang gendut" <-- well thanks again..you guys have really made my day *gloomy*gloomy*

"hanny in real life meredith grey's anatomy" <-- loyal reader spotted! hahaha

"hanny wu nude" <-- yea, but I'm not THAT myspace Hanny Wu..I'm Kevin Wu's Hanny Wu.. :D

"what does mw makan yang beda mean" <-- diiihhh..bule kampung

"range harga makanan restoran seribu rasa" <-- hmm berapa ya..lupa..sekitar 15000an sampai 100.000an mungkin

"how to live without internet" <-- sorry, but you've come to the wrong site, cause I don't know how to as well :)

"daniel hannys serial" <-- okay this is hilarious. I think you meant Daniel HENNEY'S. Duh??

"people who want to be hellboy" <-- no no, I don't wanna be Hellboy. I WANT Hellboy.

http://www.buruan/ setubuhi gue.com <-- gosh you're weird. Just go to redtube, youporn, or something T_T

"dexter "i can see their pain" <-- I see you. O wait, that's Avatar. But really, I posted about Dexter once. Really love the show.

"nci gang sawo" <-- seriously?? seriously?? hmm

"cokelat ritter halal" <-- diiih..kalo suka mah makan, ya makan aja...halal ga halal enak toh

"jurusan mana yang bagus hi atau hukum" <-- SASTRA! HI dan Hukum udah kebanyakan..jangan mau ikutin arus :P

And lastly, I couldn't help but notice a frequent visitor from DOHA, AD DAHWAH... Who might it be ya...? Hihihih well whoever you ever, I'm grateful as it is. Enjoy.

Godspeed.

The Winner of WC 2010

2010-07-12T15:54:00.004+07:00

Beberapa saat sesudah Sneijder mendapatkan karmanya di Piala Dunia 2010 ini karena memutuskan hubungannya dengan saya via skype (jiaaaahh ngarep.com bin ngasal.com), saya penasaran dengan suatu hal. Langsung saya sms teman saya si Sandra.

H: Eh jelasin dong, siapa/apa sebenarnya Paul gurita itu?
S: itu gurita di kebung binatang Brazil.. (<-di wikiped katanya Jerman, San) dia dari pertandingan sebelumnya udah nebak siapa siapa aja yang menang..terus pas final ini dia nebaknya Spanyol yang juara!

Hah? Gurita? Gurita idup? Yang ada di pikiran saya langsung ini....

Tadaaa!

H: Hah? Emang guritanya bisa ngomong?? (shock beneran)

S: Kagaa...dia di kasih pilihan bendera..terus dua ngesot ke bendera yang dia tebak menang! (semangat ngejelasin sekaligus heran akan temannya yang ga tau Paul si Gurita)

Penasaran saya pun langsung ngegoogle Paul the octopus. Ternyata bentuknya kayak gini...

Kebayang 'gereja' nya si Idya, Flying Spaghetti Monster. Sebenarnya saya rada jijik ngeliatnya. Terlebih kalau dilihat dari thumbnailnya aja tanpa diperbesar, Paul seperti punya muka seperti topeng Scream. Gurita emang katanya makhluk vertebrata terpintar. Sepertinya si Paul ini selain pintar, dia juga punya bakat berbisnis. Dengan bakatnya ini dia bisa cari duit jadi bandar togel!

Menurut saya sih biasa aja, ga heboh sampai bilang si Paul ini a new animal oracle segala. Manusia juga banyak kok yang bisa memprediksi hasil pertandingan keseluruhan 86% akurat. Cuma mungkin karena Paul adalah seekor gurita aja jadi dia lebih beken (ngiri.com). Yang jelas apapun itu alasannya mengapa si Paul sampai bisa menebak hasil pertandingan 86% akurat, yang jelas kamu beruntung, Paul. Saudara-saudara kamu sudah banyak yang saya cerna dan berakhir di septic tank. Setidaknya kamu masih bisa berendam, berenang, dan dikasih makan 2 kali sehari dengan nyaman dan santai.

Godspeed.

Eclipse Update

2010-06-12T12:49:00.004+07:00

New updates on Eclipse, Twigeeks! Haha I just can't get enough of this series, both the books and the movies. Credits to Kristen Stewart's facebook fan page.

Other version of the poster. Not bad. At least they shoot from different angle this time.

I guess it's the Victoria vs Edward scene..?

IMHO I'm a girl and I think Kristen's hot! One of a kind

Not lovin the wig, K...your hair's lookin all frizzy and weird

Hellloooooooo Jake!

Can't wait for June 30th! Just another 18 days! Yeah!

Review: Personal Taste. Totally suits my personal taste :)

2010-06-06T12:30:00.007+07:00

Today I'm gonna review this Korean drama I love so much...Personal Taste! Gosh, words can't even begin to describe just how much I love it. At first, I only watched it cause Yoon Eun Hye got a cameo role in it as Lee Min Ho's ex-girlfriend. But the more I watch the more I fall in love. I was kinda worried it'd be dead boring like Kim Bum's post-BBF drama, Dream (I only lasted for 7 episodes, the fact that Son Dam Bi and Kim Bum were in it wasn't even helping), and also because Son Ye Jin was older by 6 years than Lee Min Ho (she was 28, he was 22) but nooo noooo it turned out to be super kawaii!

Yoon Eun Hye cameo in episode 8

First let's start at how good looking the two main casts are. My gawt, it's almost like a sin to be THAT beautiful. Both of them. Rumor has it, LMH had a plastic surgery, but hell, like I care. Nyahaha.

Son Ye Jin as Park Gae In

Lee Min Ho as Jeon Jin Ho

Let's start with Son Ye Jin. She played the perfect role as the clumsy yet kind-hearted Park Gae In. I really didn't expect this from her. She first got me dazzled as the bubbly alzheimer-diagnosed Kim Su Jin in A Moment To Remember. Was so innocent, yet she got this sensual vibe about her that you just can't ignore. So innocent and sweet, she shocked me by the role Joo In Ah in My Wife Got Married, in which, she won the Best Leading Actress in 2009 45th Baeksang Art Awards and Most Popular Actress in 2008 29th Blue Dragon Film Awards. Really, I never thought she'd be this brave in choosing roles.

As Park Gae In, I think she really proved she can act. Everything was so natural. I think she even beat Yoon Eun Hye as my favourite rom-com actress. In the future I hope to see more of her on tv shows. Her expressions were just fascinating to watch, and never failed to make me laugh and smile the whole time I watched (in the room, alone, in front of the laptop, thank G I was alone, anyone'd thought I was crazy talkin and smilin to the screen).

And...Lee Min Ho...gosh...everybody knows him as the hot-tempered romantic Goo Jun Pyo in Boys Before Flowers, and I wasn't really rooting for him, I kinda liked Kim Bum more..but now....he's so handsome, it's almost irrational. How on earth did God created such a good lookin creature like that?? Huh?? Thou must've not been fair G! *o*

I was afraid that this role was gonna be too Goo Jun Pyo for him, but my worry was just unreasonable. Playin the cold, poker-face, Jeon Jin Ho, he's just soooo manly and cool that I was lickin the screen. I think he's smart for choosin this role. No more childish Jun Pyo and welcome manly Jin Ho.

Overally, I think this is THE BEST Korean drama I've ever watched, and I'm not exaggerating here. The story's not too much, the characters are just right. I love the message it got that it is almost impossible for girls to be theirselves around guys, and maybe vice versa. Unless we know that particular guy will not be romantically interested in us, by then we can be ourselves since we know that he won't be judgin us in every move we make. Right right? Am I right? Say amen, ladies. The relationship between Jin Ho and Gae In can be THAT sweet, cause she doesn't hide anything from him, and he knows that she ain't pretendin and sincere the whole time. I think it won't be too much if I say that they are the ultimate on-screen couple that'd make all the girls go crazy.

This drama is too watch for! If not too die for. Hehehe. Kay then. Godspeed!

Fantastis Elastis

2010-05-14T21:08:00.006+07:00

Beberapa waktu yang lalu, gue sempat tergila-gila dengan video ini. Benar-benar tergila-gila. Hampir sebulanan, kayaknya tiap hari ngedengerin lagu ini, kalo kebetulan di depan internet pasti buka video ini, ngehafalin tariannya (yang sampe sekarang pun ga hafal-hafal, kecuali pas bagian refrainnya doang).
Sampai sekarang gue masih heran sih, "Kok bisa ya?", mungkin pertanyaan yang paling tepat untuk diajukan perihal kesukaan gue akan video ini. Mungkin karena irama lagunya yang catchy, mungkin karena si MinHo yang ganteng, mungkin karena didoktrinasi oleh Memelicrut, yang tinggal di sebelah kamar kosan gue. Yang pasti kalau gue liat-liat lagi sekarang, VIDEO INI SEBENARNYA CUKUP KONYOL. Mari kita ulas sedikit video ini.

Video dimulai dengan 5 cowok2 Sineh ini serta beberapa penari latar, yang semuanya berpakaian super lebay dengan bulu-bulu dan entah benda apa lagi itu, menari-nari di suatu tempat yang sepertinya ceritanya atap gedung yang ada tulisan Sineh-nya. Sembari menari-nari dengan seksi dan gembira di atas atap itu, sesekali ada scene mereka di ruangan serba putih, ada cerminnya, dengan pakaian serba putih pula.
Sangat tidak dimengerti maksudnya apa, jika dikaitkan dengan liriknya. Oh, persetan lah, memang sebagian besar video klip Korea toh ga ada nyambung-nyambungnya dengan liriknya. Lalu si MinHo melirik ke arah cermin, dan bayangannya di cermin ADA SAYAP MALIKAT ITEMNYA AJA GITUH. Muka MinHo pun sepertinya menjadi agak bingung (wait, wasn't that supposed to be a sexy face? he pouted his lips. Or so I thought).

Oke, setelah itu lanjut lagi menarikan tarian asyik di atas atap. Refrain lagu ini emang hook banget sih. Siapa yang ga bakal terngiang-ngiang terus di kepala, apalagi disertai dengan tarian ayunan pantat setengah lingkaran itu. Adegan beralih ke salah satu cowok Shinee di ruangan putih yang tadi. Sepertinya dia leadernya. Namanya tidak tahu siapa. Panggillah si LS (Leader Sineh). LS pun menyentuh gagang gantungan lilin, dan seluruh lilin pun menyala. Lalu ada adegan jam menunjukkan pukul hampir setengah sembilan dan jarum jamnya bergerak mundur (aaaarrrrhhhh makin ga ngertiii).

Lalu cowok Sineh yang berambut agak helm, panggillah dia si Sineh rambut helm atau SH, duduk di ruangan serba putih tadi, daaaaann dia MINUM SUSU AJA GITUH. Kalau diliat dari liriknya, bagian ini sedang menjelaskan betapa rapuh wanita yang dicintainya, terlalu gentle. Apakah ini simbolisasi terselubung dari sang sutradara? Menyimbolkan kegentlean perempuan dengan seorang lelaki rambut helm meminum susu? Hmm well, who knows.

Setelahnya adegannya begitu-begitu terus sih. Dance di atas atap, ruangan putih, dance di genangan air semata kaki, dance di atas atap lagi, nyanyi di dalem mobil, ruangan putih lagi. Sekarang yang saya ingin pertanyakan adalah LIRIKNYA. Fantastic? Elastic? Cuuuuummm oooonnnnhhh, that was like.....the catchies lines ever (akhirnya ngaku paling suka bagian ini hahahah), meskipun ya emang...aneh banget sih...jatuh cinta bisa bikin jadi fantastis..elastis..ini jatuh cinta apa kena radiasi meteor di luar angkasa? (jahaha Fantastic Four ceritanya -__-)

Beginilah bentuk seni liberal zaman sekarang. Semua bebas berekspresi sesuka hati. Tak ada yang boleh mengekang. Biarpun mau banyak orang yang bilang ga suka, jijik, toh tetep banyak yang kecantol sama hooknya lagu ini sampe ga bisa lupa selama sebulanan terus nyoba ngafalin tariannya tapi ga bisa-bisa kan? (what? huh? me? ouh please, as if... *cough cough*)

Anyhow...Godspeed! Hidup Super Jurino, Wonder grils, SDNS, dan kawan-kawan! <--- no, those are not typos, just disguises. Wasted disguises I think. Haha.

Feed me some Jit

2010-04-24T01:16:00.004+07:00

It's been a while since my last Feedjit post.. (just check out the posts under the labels 'Feedjit' on the right bars) and I've received hundreds of keywords that people type that sent them to my page. Some of them were interesting..and yet, still I don't get why they'd ever type that, and why in the world they'd ever come across my page.

"ADA YANG TAHU GAK SIH PINSET ITU APA?" <-- ya elah..masa pinset aja ga tau sih...itu yang anak gadis pake...sebelum akhirnya dia pake bra...ck.

"anak gaul gogirl" <-- ngapain sih nyari anak gaul gogirl di internet segala? nih buka aja di sini dia temen gue, anak gowl gogirl abes.

"diet artis-artis korea" <-- haduh...ngapain sih diet artes-artes korea diikutin..mereka tuh cuma makan kimchi sama ketimun sepanjang tahun...sama sup ginseng lah sekali-kali...kalian kuat? mending diet ala indonesia aja deh..urapan ama lalap.

"bercinta dengan makhluk gaib" <-- again?? what kind of freak are you? seriously.

"hanny cewek idola" <-- makasih loh, makasih.

"wanitapalingcantiksedunia" <-- AGAIN, thanks a lot. What have you all heard about me sih sebetulnya? I'm not that cantik kok sebenernya, suer.

"arti gerak epirogenesa dan orogenesa" <-- nah sekarang ini, seriusan, gue ga pernah ngebahas beginian deh. I'm not that geek.

"lagu tanpa ada suara vokalisnya" <-- lah apaan dong? instrumen doang gitu? atau kayak imagine-nya Glee yang versi isyarat?

Hmm..segitu dulu deh..sampai jumpa di Feedjit post yang berikutnya! Godspeed.

Eclipse!

2010-04-24T01:01:00.003+07:00

Okay...I know..maybe it's too late for the whole Eclipse euphoria...but better late than never! Can't wait for June 30th!

not a huge fan of the poster. Boooooorrriiiinnnngg.

Her face was always like this. Yet I'm always fascinated to see her act -_-

Another "Please Jacob Please Edward" face.

Wheeww....the A-team time.

Awwweeee...

Tribute To A Friend #1

2010-04-24T00:02:00.005+07:00

Meet.....BEBY!

Beby circa 2008

She's one of my longest friend. We've befriended since we just started learn how to crawl, I suppose. Since we were neighbours, our parents introduced us, but we started to really get close to each other when we got into the same elementary school. Long live SDN Kebon Jeruk 11 Pagi! Yeah! (how dogmatic of me nyahahah)

So the story was, she used to hate me so much, cause I was always smarter than her (NYAHAHAHA, still am bebi, still am). Nobody ever taught me how to read, yet at the age 4 I was already able to read the whole newspaper by myself (seeing how odong and lazy I am now, it's hard to think that I was THAT genius bahakhakha okaaayy enough with the backdoor bragging). So when I came to her house to play monopoly, petak umpet, or whatever it was, her mother always shove the fact that I was such a whiz kid in front of her face. "Look at Hanny, Beby! (me reading the elementary PPKn book) Try to be more like her! She can already read the whole book, yet you can barely spell a word!"

That was so 'Ha! In your face!' moment for me, but as a cute and cool five years old I managed to look as innocent as the picture of harp-playing baby angel on the cover of christmas postcard.

Later, we got a 'Gang of Four'. I, Beby, Tami, and the only boy in the gang, Arfie. We used to play everyday in the afternoon, before nap time around 4 pm. Our most visited house was Beby's. Cause they got everything there. Snacks, Sega (yeah, SEGA), monopoly, badminton rackets, and all other things children could ever imagine of together under one roof (hahaha lebay). Between the four of us, Beby was the most spoiled and the most annoying 5 year old ever lived. She HATES to lose in games, and she would do everything in her power (when I say power, as in, well, it was HER house, and HER boardgames, etc. So she had the power, literally. Or so she thought nyahaha) to make us lose. And, we oftenly did. But we always get the last laugh cause then, we would talked about her behind her back, and do what we children called as 'musuhan.' With the whole blowing the thumb, not talking to her, and all. Hahaha, cool aiyt??

Growing up, Beby was always the beautiful one. She took all the prettiest boys in my el school! Hahaha. And she wasn't even that nice to people! She was a stingy, self-centered barbie! But I guess that's why men married bitches....yeah.... -__-

Growing up I also kinda hate her, but I would always forgive her. Cause then again she was my closest friend! (literally, she lives just 8 houses away from me)

In junior high, we were sooooo crazy about Ada Apa Dengan Cinta. We made a diary that'd we would put posts together every once in a while (hell, we still do it every now and then, left the book in my dormroom). And we would name ourselves Cinta, Alya, Karmen, Maura, Milly. Beby, of course, was always Cinta. I would get Milly cause I was the funniest. (backdoooorr braaaagiiinnn)

Oh how I miss those times!

As we got older there were still some clashes between us, but idk why, me and our other two friends Hilma and Ika, just can't get separated. We just can never stand it. And ever since she met this guy, subject M, I can feel the change in her. She's turned into a more mature girl, and she's got this vibe and friendly soul in her that makes people just wanna be her friend (awwwweeee me so sweet ya beb?). Unlike me, who can always see the bad in people that kinda makes me hold back from new people. She can always get me (mmmm you do, don't you Beb?), although lately we don't meet very often. I spend most of my weekdays in Depok, she's in Puri.

I really enjoyed being her friend (well of course I do, if I don't I wouldn't post something like this, would I?). I hope our friendship won't blossom like a rose because rose can be withered, but it will stay strong like weeds. You can never get rid of weeds, no matter how hard you try, unless you whip out the roots. And the roots, is in our hearts. Over our dead body! (okay Imma stop writing before it gets too sweet, it'd hurt your teeth)

Godspeed.

PS: I actually wanted to post some photos of Beby circa 2002 when we just started out in junior high, but she has deleted hers from Friendster! Booohhooo! You suck. She had the culun bob and all. Me the masteng belah tengah hasil papan salon tante Tuti.

Skill-less

2010-04-23T23:35:00.002+07:00

Gue kagum. Kagum dengan orang-orang yang punya hal mereka masing-masing. Orang yang sangat terobsesi dengan teater. Orang yang sangat terobsesi dengan kamera. Orang yang terobsesi dengan musik. Orang yang terobsesi dengan komputer. Orang yang terobsesi dengan mobil. Dan orang-orang yang terobsesi dengan hal-hal lainnya sampai-sampai kalau untung bisa menjadi lahan bisnis. Orang-orang ini adalah orang-orang yang sangat terberkati. Karena lo tahu kenapa? Hidup tanpa obsesi itu SANGAT LAME. Contohnya saya. Percayalah, hidup saya amat sangat pathetic. Hobby-less, obsession-less. Bukan, bukan berarti saya merasa tidak bersyukur. Ingat Tuhan udah ngasih kamu kehidupan blablablab...naaahhh, you're cliche dude.

I mean everyone is never someone without one thing they're really good at. Misalnya, I have a friend. And this particular friend really liked taking pictures until he become very good at it, bought his very first SLR camera, and the rest followed. And one friend was really obsessed with computers and the way they work, and he learned the whole mechanism secara otodidak.

Yah, kurang lebih begitulah. I used to have an obsession. Some, in fact. But I'd never really follow up to any of it (well, accept for my weird devotion to Grey's, Dexter, FNL, True Blood, The Mentalist, etc, but I really can't say that's the thing I'm good at. Watching TV series. Yeah, how cool). The thing is, I don't really know what I am exactly good at. And no one's bothered to tell me. So I'm feeling really lame now. And fat. And lazy. And lame. I even start to suck in writing. Again, it USED to be one of the few things I'm good at.

I was also kinda good in reading. I could read a good, heavy book, in two couple hours. Now I just don't have the money and the time to read. And all books seem kinda suck to me now (mostly caused by the price nyahaha). Please please please God of Books..give us this day our daily read.... ;(

Godspeed.

Degradasi?

2010-04-15T19:43:00.004+07:00

Ucapan seorang teman agak membuat saya terhenyak kemarin.
"Apa yang lo ketahui tentang FIB?"

Hmm..FIB ya..sebuah gedung..tempat para mahasiswa/i sastra bernaung..sebuah fakultas tempat para mahasiswa/i belajar..ya bukan?

"Kalo ga tahu apa-apa kok lo bisa ikutan jadi panitia FIB Nyeni?"

Hmm...ya demi sahabat saya yang kebetulan penanggung jawab bagian publikasi acara ini...sesederhana itu.

"Wah kayaknya lo mesti belajar lebih banyak tentang FIB deh"
"Oh memang apa relevansi antara menjadi panitia FIB Nyeni dan tahu lebih banyak tentang FIB deh? Lantas dengan tahu banyak tentang FIB acara bisa sukses?"
"Wah pemikiran lo anak zaman sekarang banget ya. Acara sukses lantas panitia bubar semua bubar, gitu?
"Ya..habis mau gimana lagi?"

Ternyata kesewotan teman saya ini beralasan. Dimulai ketika saya dengan sederhananya (tidak, saya menolak menggunakan kata bodoh) bertanya "Apaan tuh MID?" Ternyata MID adalah program studi D3nya jurusan Ilmu Perpustakaan.

Kalau menurut teman saya ini sih..FIB sedang mengalami degradasi integritas. Angkatan 2006 ke atas, sekali lagi, menurut teman saya yang satu ini, amatlah erat, sangat akrab layaknya kakak beradik. Sementara mulai 2007 ke bawah mulai aneh-aneh.

"Lah lantas bagaimana dong, apa kita mau saling bersapa di jalan hanya dengan modal muka tanpa tahu nama?"

Ya justru itu, itulah yang membuat angkatan atas begitu erat. Tidak tahu nama tapi saling tegur asalkan tahu sesama anak FIB. Kalau angkatan yang sekarang-sekarang ini, tidak kenal siapa-siapa, tidak tahu siapa-siapa, udah sok-sokan ikut banyak kegiatan.

Oke ini agak baru dan aneh bagi saya. Orang zaman sekarang, kalau tidak disapa kita dibilang sombong, tapi kalau disapa bisa-bisa kita dibilang sok kenal. Mengapa bukan atas yang merangkul? Ingin merangkul nanti kehilangan wibawa, tidak merangkul dibilang senioritas. Ingin jadi kupu-kupu dibilang anak anti sosial, tapi keseringan nongkrong nanti tugas tidak selesai. Saya tidak mau membandingkan jurusan saya dengan jurusan lain, tapi jangan pernah membandingkan jurusan saya dengan jurusan lain sampai anda sendiri jago membaca huruf Cina.

Mendengar cerita teman saya ini saya jadi patah semangat, jadi selama ini usaha saya mempromosikan acara FIB Nyeni yang katanya acara bersama anak FIB UI ini cuma/kemungkinan dipandang beberapa pihak sebagai tindakan sok asik belaka? Apakah begitu?

Mungkin ibaratnya kalau di The Sims, game favorit saya, aspirasi orang itu berbeda-beda. Mungkin ada beberapa yang aspirasinya Popularity, ada yang aspirasinya Fortune, tapi kalau saya sendiri sih aspirasinya Knowledge. Memang penting sih bergaul, buka link sana-sini, tapi ada orang yang bisa begitu, ada yang tidak. Ada yang bisa sukses dengan cara seperti itu, ada yang tidak. Bukan begitu bukan?

Apa kata dunia?

Ah sudahlah, maaf kalau ada beberapa perkataan saya yang menyinggung hati, sudah jam delapan malam nih sudah waktunya saya tidur. Eh maksud saya, mengerjakan tugas. Godspeed.

Quick Rant

2010-03-26T17:10:00.002+07:00

I've been a veeeerrrryyyy bad blogger. I haven't posted anything in like, a month. Bad Hanny! Bad girl! *spank*. Oke, kenyataannya dan kebenarannya adalah, gue emang bener-bener ga ada bahan untuk ditulis, dengan kata lain, mati ide. Oh oh don't we all love it -__-.

Untuk sekedar bercerita, meskipun beberapa fakta ini kurang begitu penting dan berguna bagi kehidupan anda sekalian, jadwal gue akan penuh sekali minggu depan. Senin uts mendengar dan mengajar anak grade 9 untuk pertama kalinya (wismilak banget deh ini, I have absolutely no idea about teaching), selasa uts menulis, rabu deadline karangan bahasa cina tentang kebiasaan suatu suku (thanks so much Bu Uti, thank u so much. For NOTHING -__-) dan presentasi kelas filsafat tentang Darwin (ya , lagi-lagi presentasi tentang Charles Darwin setelah sebelumnya kami disuruh mereview film Darwin sebanyak 7 halaman. Dosen saya yang satu ini memang hardcore Darwinis. I wonder, if Darwin ever go out with his hair wet like my dosen does. Nyahaha), kamis ujian berbicara, dan jumat...I had no idea about what friday is. Mungkin akan presentasi sejarah cina kontemporer, tapi entahlah. Guru sejarah gue yang sekarang adalah guru termetal yang pernah gue miliki <--- grammar bahasa Indonesia macam apa ini. Yeah he is metal and I won't tell you why. It's too public here *smirk*. Okay I'm sorry for the whole nyampah. Sometimes when I got too much assignments, or list of things to do, I feel better if I write them down somewhere.

And me, bothering to explain to you my whole week schedule, which I believe some of you might find it not busy at all (you know I'm always busy any other day..not just next week..you know..I do things and..you know other stuff *pick nose*), will finally lead to the reason why I wrote this post. I just need to break out from the routinity. Yeah, writing post for my blog is far from a routinity for me. It's a blessing for me to even had the slightest thought to write. I'm a worn-out writer, yes I am.

I have a project on this blog and Imma post it real soon. DitUn99u yApHz tMend2qUw. Godspeed.

Random Pics

2010-02-28T09:28:00.002+07:00

Deket kosan gue di gang sawo baru saja dibuka sebuah tempat nongkrong kecil bernama TKW. Lupa kepanjangannya apa, nanti dicari lagi deh. Satu kavling kecil itu diisi oleh berbagai macam penjual makanan yang berbeda; masakan Manado, sushi, siomay, dan lainnya. Ada satu menu berbentuk hati yang paling menarik mata saya. Mari kita lihat bersama.

Yea....reaksi saya dan teman saya Randu adalah "........". Bagus sekali kreatif! Hahahah. Akan saya coba dengan warung mama saya kelak.

Random: You know this amazing So You Think You Can Dance Canada season 2 third winner, Jayme Rae Dailey? Found her on facebook, and wrote this on her wall.

And she replied!! Dang, it wasn't exactly a reply, she was just lifting her thumb *eh*, but I still feel as excited as ever. Shes's the most amazing dancer, very captivating on stage, and every girl just wanna be her. Heart you so much, Jayme Rae (and this is the part where I'd beg and MAY sound like a psycho), would you please come to Indonesia? I'll show around and my mother will cook her best recipes for you. Xoxo, Hanny from Indonesia.

Godspeed.

Absurd Sleepy Moi

2010-02-20T01:15:00.003+07:00

Yeah yeah I know..I haven't updated my blog in a while..That's cause I don't really have anything to blog about you know.. Nothing interesting has happened in my life since I can't remember when, perhaps since I stopped watching dvds and turn into those devilish grammar books, since my grumpy old roommate moved out and gave me nothing to talk about (I talk about her mostly haha). Nothing interesting has happened, apart from the fact that I ain't no longer believe in church now (and I'm not saying it proudly mi freund, just stating a simple fact, a truth), apart from the fact that I often suspiciously believe that everyone talks about me behind my back (this is probably totally delusional, but I can feel their eyes staring with resentment, or was it just my imagination), and apart from the fact that I am getting crankier by the minute (and it's not the pms you know, it's just me, I'm turning into an old cranky hag).

By having seen and read the bitter, has turn me into it as well. Anyone got the recipe to stay sweet even after you've seen all the worst come to life? (didn't actually happen to me, I just know for a fact that, it's sad that we don't even know why we're here).

I've got a lot of saying on a lot of things, but see, I've found out what we humans is most afraid of. To be disliked. We always try to be nice, say things we don't even mean, talk to people we don't even wanna be around with, just cause we want people to like us a little bit more. Is that really our nature to be so?

On a philosophy class, I had to read Darwin and Plato. To read two totally different theories, from two well-opinionated persons, shook me up a little bit. When I say a little bit, I really mean a little bit. I have lost my faith in church for a long time before I read Darwin or Plato, it has nothing to do with reading them. I think those two perhaps were just on a high when they wrote their theories. What's shook me up is their way of asking. So absurd, almost naive, like there are no limits. I start to ask petty rhetorical questions, things I know I will never have the answer. Because just like what Plato referred, I don't really know what it is that I'm looking for. I won't even notice if I have found the answer, cause I don't know what the answer is. Ok, stop right there, I started to sound like a cuckoo. I don't really know what I know now, and my roommate really considered whether to send me to a mental institution or not.

The question is, why can't we just be satisfied with what we have now? Why do we always want more? Why do we always ask for more stuff? Why do we always look for the things that are beyond us? Such arrogant creatures, we are. Can't it just be enough to be happy, and to make people happy? That's why I like China's philosophy. Everything is harmonious. Yin and Yang. Black and white. You gotta have both, or you can have neither. Justice. The ultimate wisdom is like water. It always chooses the low area. That's why I know you can never bring me down. I may be silent right now, I may look like I accept all of your insults, teasings, your egoism, but later I won't be bothered. Cause I'm just like the water baby, the water.

Godspeed.

SYTYCD!

2010-01-30T19:41:00.002+07:00

We've all have our moments of this and that..for me it was 90's pop dance, Meteor Garden, Grey's Anatomy, Korean wave, and then..So You Think You Can Dance. I've heard about the show before but never really see it for myself until I went on a vacation to Puncak with my major mates this early January. It was a rerun of season 4on AXN. Then when I got home, I watched the rerun of season 5 on SET.

The show wowed me on so many levels. There are so many dance styles performed: Paso Doble, Cha cha, Samba, Salsa, Pop Jazz, Contemporary, Hip-hop, etc. And these contestants! Wow! They're very young, just around my age! But no wonder, most of them have received dance educations so early, before they were even 5 -__- yeah I can never compete with that, as if. Hahaha.

I really like it when they do Cha cha, Salsa, Samba, and those Latin dances. Quoting Antonio Banderas from Take The Lead, these dances are like making love on the dancefloor. H-O-T!

Kathryn and Ryan from season 6 Cha Cha

Top 16 from season 5 Hip hop Salsa

Hidup dan Kereta

2010-01-16T00:51:00.002+07:00

Saya memang blogger yang hebat. Sudah lama saya tidak merawat blog saya yang sepertinya mulai ditumbuhi ilalang dan jamur-jamur liar ini. Seseorang di dalam otak saya waktu itu pernah berkata, "Kamu itu paling kreatif kalau kamu sedang kesal!." Ya memang benar. Sungguh pintar luar biasa orang yang tinggal di dalam otak saya itu. Saat sedang kesal, otomatis kita punya hal-hal yang ingin kita utarakan dan kritisi. Hal-hal yang tidak pas di mata kita. Dan hasilnya, voila, kita punya sesuatu untuk ditulis.

Coba lihat setengah isi dari blog saya ini. Anda pasti akan menemukan maksud saya ini (sebenarnya ini hanya tipuan supaya anda penasaran dan akhirnya melihat blog saya dari awal, berhasilkah?). Hanya gejolak emosi, entah itu emosi gembira ataupun emosi sedih, yang jelas emosi-emosi klimaks yang mampu membuat saya tertarik untuk menulis.

Malam ini saya tidak merasakan emosi apa-apa. Namun saya sedang tertarik untuk bermain peribaratan. Maka mari kita bermain.

Ambil satu kata, Kereta. Ia kadang mempercepat atau memperlambat jalannya, untuk mencapai satu tujuan. Dalam perjalanannya itu ia kadang berhenti untuk mengambil penumpang, menurunkan penumpang. Tapi tak peduli berapa banyak yang naik atau turun, terlambatkah para penumpang tercinta itu, kereta harus tetap berangkat sesuai jadwal, kereta bukanlah bis barbar yang seenaknya berhenti di tengah jalan demi penumpang. Kereta juga mempunyai jalurnya sendiri, yang kita kenal dengan nama Rel. Kereta harus tetap berada dalam jalurnya, atau tidak ia akan celaka. Mencelakai dirinya sendiri, penumpang-penumpang yang ada di dalamnya, dan juga penduduk-penduduk sekitar akan terkena imbasnya jika kereta itu sampai keluar dari jalurnya.

Kita itu KERETA, hai kawan, para remaja. Kadang kita beruntung, kadang kita sial, namun tujuan kita adalah satu, yaitu _______ (anda isi sendiri bagian kosong ini). Dalam kehidupan kita yang tidak kita tahu seberapa lama ini, kita berjumpa dengan berbagai macam manusia, segala macam jenis dan sifat akan kita temui. Jika kita cukup beruntung, kita akan berjumpa dengan orang-orang yang setia dan pengasih, yang bersedia ikut kereta kita ini sampai ke tujuan akhirnya. Jika kita cukup sial, kita akan disakiti, atau juga akan menyakiti, tapi hidup tetap harus berjalan, kereta ini tetap harus berjalan. Kadang kita, sebagai kereta, karena kesalahan teknis, salah mengira stasiun yang hanya sekedar tempat pemberhentian sebagai stasiun tujuan akhirnya. Itulah sulitnya bagi kita, para kereta muda, sulit membedakan mana yang stasiun cuma mampir, mana yang stasiun tujuan akhir. Kita juga dituntut untuk tetap berada di jalur kita, di REL kita, karena jika kita membelot dan mengambil jalur lain, tentunya akan ada pihak-pihak yang tersakiti, yang paling parah adalah jika kita sendiri yang hancur.

Malam ini mungkin saya sedang bertutur, mungkin saya sedang melantur, namun yang pasti akal sehat saya tidak luntur. Ya mungkin ini karena karat di otak saya telah mengerak, sehingga saya membahas hal-hal aneh semacam kereta dan hidup. Siapa yang tahu penuh tentang kehidupan ini? Ketimbang bertanya, mengapa aku bernafas tapi aku tidak merasa hidup, lebih baik anda tanya diri anda sendiri, sudahkah anda membuat orang lain merasa hidup?

Godspeed.

You ain't gonna live properly until..

2010-01-08T20:15:00.006+07:00

You watch these shows dudes... Check em out.

The pilot was totally a hook. You would crave for more Jack and Karen. You will despise Will and Grace, but can't help to envy their friendship. Sean Hayes and Megan Mullaly are totally the star of the show. They are way funnier than Jack and Grace themselves. I can't stop imitating them for months after finished the complete 8 season. (or was it 9?)
My fave: Totally Karen and Jack. Their scenes never fail to amuse me. Even after watching it for the God-knows-how-many-times.

Never underestimate the power of good ol' dose of good ol' fashioned vampire! It will keep you all night long! Woohoo!

My fave: Absolutely the most definite gentleman of all gentlemen, Bill Compton. Bite me Bill. I'm a fangbanger for you. Nyahahha.

Patrick Jane knows everything. Patrick Jane can play you, but you can never play him. Patrick Jane knows you. Patrick Jane is The Mentalist. He is Sherlock Holmes minus the muscles and martial arts skills. You gonna love him to bits.

My fave: Obvious enough. And the handsome, swooningly handsome, Agent Cho.

She is not that pretty. And she is not that tall either. But she's willing to do sex scenes and bang! She's famous. Hahaha. I love the tv series! It taught me *coughs* things my parents would never ever teach me. They taught me about how Manhattaners socialize, and other stuff as well. I haven't watch the movie fully, but the first 15 minutes can kiss my ass and send itself to hell! Talkin about boooooooorrriiinnnggg! Thank G, I didn't watch it in theatre, or I either fell asleep or sent my butt out of the establishment soon. I recommend you who haven't watch the series to save your sorry ass and go watch now!

My fave: I don't really have a favourite with this one..but Carrie Bradshaw, grow a brain cell please. Or at least, got struck by a rushing train please. You're not that desirable girl. Stop acting like you're so fun and all.

You gotta endure the pilot, even I couldn't save the first 10 minutes, and change the dvd right away. But once you endure and go through the pilot safely, you'd be gifted by 9 brilliant seasons! I'm feeling you, Larry David. I am so curbing my enthusiasm.

My fave: They're all my favourites! They're all excruciating but lovable at the same time. They're all stupid, jokers, and that's what make the loyal audience always crave for more.

Smart people have the right to be bitches. That's what I learned from the show. They're all annoying, but they're life savers, literally. Most infinitely, they're humans. They do mistake. Some do more than the others. They're no God. This is a love and life lessons from those who are dealing with the dead. A unisex drama that'd make you cry in every episode. Well, I don't *coughs*.

My fave: Totally Addison Montgomery. Too bad she left on season 2. That leaves me with Mark Sloan. Meredith Grey? She could just go drown herself to death for all I care.

I don't get it why some people just could not like the series. It's heartwarming! And the silly characters... Gosh, I wish I was on the show.

My fave: Chandler!!

A show loaded with eye candies. The characters are all heroic-ish, it's a little bit dramatic in a feel-good way for me. About small town people who are just trying to survive in a society that worship high school football just a little bit toooo much. And I LOVE it! To bits.

My favourite: I really can't pick one. They're all cool! Reminds me of the cool high school times I'd never have...

My favourite vigilante. A must watch. Enough said. Love the soundtracks. Very Dexter-y.

Tina Fey is so the America's New Sweetheart. I doubt anyone could hate her. She has this sexy librarian thing going on. And she's witty as hell. I fall for her the first time I watched Mean Girls. And the second time. And the third time. And now 30 Rock. And Alec Baldwin is just perfect for the role of the weird businessman! Love the show, love Tina Fey!

My fave: Kenneth Parcell. Seriously, he is hilarious. The geek who 'lives for television.' My favourite quote of him: "Momma, you carried me for nine months, let me carry you now." Scvhiiiitttttz! Talkin about real momma's boy here!

New Year's Feast! Hoorah!

2010-01-04T01:13:00.005+07:00

New year was hereeeeeeee!! Woooohoooooooooo! Okay, that was totally fake. I am not a big fan of New Year's celebration, but I'd never say no to a New Year's feast either! Hahaha. Tahun ini pilihan makan-makan Tahun Baru jatuh di Restoran Angke di daerah Gang Ketapang. Again, I don't know where it is. Arah mau ke Harmoni situ lah pokoknya. Anyways, sebelumnya gue udah pernah makan di situ sih, tapi sudah lamaaaa sekali sepertinya. Pas kondangan. Entah kenapa seinget gue rasa makanannya biasa aja pas kondangan itu. Mungkin karena bagi-bagi sama banyak orang kali yeeee. Hahaha. Tapi kemarin malam, bener-bener beda rasanya. It was uh-muh-zing.

Pertama begitu sampe, seorang pelayan laki-laki yang sudah agak berumur dan Sun Yat Sen alike offered us the menu and wrote down our orders. Nyatetnya biasa aja. Di kertas note gitu, dengan tulisan tangan ala dokternya. Kayak emak gue kalo nyatet pesenan bubur dan nasi uduk. Oh, I already feel so comfortable here. Ruangannya juga persegi empat luas biasa, bener-bener kayak rumah. Rumah yang dipenuhi meja makan dan Chinese elders. Pelayan-pelayannya sepertinya terbagi dua. The seniors are wearing brown uniforms and the juniors are wearing orange uniform. There were Chinese paintings hung on the wall behind the cashier's table, and Chinese characters everywhere. I feel like I belong here. Hahaha.

Makanan pun datang. Pertama, nasi! Nasinya ternyata sepuasnya, tetep itungannya perkepala. Cihui! Dan what I like is, nasinya ditaruh di tempat nasi zaman dulu yang bolong-bolong, dan gue ngerasa kayak itu nasi yang diambil dari rice cooker rumah gue sendiri. Teh Cina pun datang dengan teko bunga-bunga zaman dulu yang ternyata made in 1976. Di Cina, itu adalah tahun terakhir Revolusi Kebudayaan, saudara-saudara. Ga ada hubungannya sih. Makanannya porsinya besar-besar! Jadi kebayang mungkin yang di dapur itu adalah ibu-ibu Cina yang penyayang yang tahu bahwa kami orang Indonesia pencinta nasi, dan paling ga bisa makan porsi kecil! Heyah laper beneran ini, sadar Han ini uda jam dua dini hari.

Oya, and instead calling the customers 'Pak' and 'Bu', they call them with 'Koh' and 'Nci'. No matter how Chinese my mother and brother are, but nobody ever called em Nci Ngko at restaurants. Hahaha. This Sun Yat Sen faced waiters restaurant is the exception.

This teapot was made back in the 70s! Hence the flower prints! Woohoo!

Gurame Asam Manis. Enak parah, tapi agak terlalu manis dan kental sih bagi gue. Tapi garingnya dapet.

Toge tumis babat. Kata ibu saya sih ini menu khasnya restoran ini. Rasanya pas asin manisnya. Babatnya garing ga alot. Perpaduan yang harmonis antara babat dan toge. Aduh jadi laper.

Lindung cah fumak. Ini iming-iming emak gue supaya gue mau ikut ke sini. Tapi belutnya terlalu tebel, jadi kurang garing dan bumbunya jadi kurang nyerep jadi agak pahit dikit. Lindung cah fumak yang paling oke udah Red Bean deh pokoknya.

Ayam Garam. Cuma ayam rebus doang digaremin, tapi enaknya banget. Cuma sambelnya agak sedikit kurang nendang. Harusnya sambel jahe tuh ngko.

Sekian reportase kuliner dari saya pada dini hari ini. Godspeed.

Seribu Rasa

2009-12-26T00:04:00.009+07:00

Apakah artinya Natal? Bagi saya, hanya sekadar makan-makan besar bersama keluarga saya yang tidak kalah besarnya pula. Kebersamaan. Ya, ya, itu dia. Kebersamaan dan makanan enak. Oh terkutuklah dunia.
Jadi Natal tahun ini pun, pilihan makan-makan jatuh di Seribu Rasa di daerah Menteng. Bagi yang belum pernah coba, ayo lekas! Saya gak tahu jenis makanan apa yang dijual disini, yang jelas lezat! Masakan melayu peranakan sepertinya.
Range harga di sini dimulai dari 20ribuan untuk makanan dan 10ribuan untuk minuman. Harga yang cukup worth-it kalau mau disejajarkan dengan rasanya yang ciamik.

My 31 married brother. He should start wearing man bra like Eric Foreman's dad in That 70's show.

My ** Arabian sister. One annoying bitch. Hahaha.

Salad Mangga. Mangganya segar dan garing. Rasanya pas, asam-asam manis. Disajikan dengan beberapa potong udang kering, dan entah apa itu garing-garingan putih yang ada di pinggirnya.

Cakwe Seafood Oriental. Rasanya sudah tidak seperti cakwe yang dijual di pasar yang dipakai emak saya untuk jualan bubur tiap hari. Yang ini sudah dicampur dengan seafood dalam adonannya (sepertinya), dengan saus ala oriental yang kembali, asam-asam manis. Cakwenya kental dan tebal.

Ayam Goreng Saus Mangga. Ini pesanan saya. Sepertinya saya memang agak tertarik dengan menu-menu mangga yang disajikan restoran ini karena memang enak. Jadi begitu melihat judul dan tampilannya di menu saya langsung tergiur. Rasanya sebenarnya agak keasaman. Tapi selain itu tidak ada yang salah. Adonan tepungnya pas, tidak tebal dan tidak tipis. Mangganya lagi-lagi, segar dan garing.

Daun Singkong Tumbuk. Yang ini menu favorit keluarga. Singkongnya ditumbuk agak halus. Kuahnya santan, sangat gurih dan tidak terlalu bikin enek. Pertama kali merasakan makanan ini, lidah langsung bergoyang. Ada sesuatu yang beda yang membuat makanan ini agak berbeda dengan daun singkong yang biasa dimasak emak saya. Ternyata setelah diulik-ulik, ketemu salah satu bahan rahasianya. Daun mint. Gak tau lagi sih ada bahan rahasia lain lagi gak ya. Yang pasti ini kalau mampir, ini wajib pesan punya!

Dendeng Sapi Dua Rasa. Agak standar sih. Semacam empal sapi, hanya lebih tipis. Bumbunya ada dua, cabai hijau dan cabai merah. Ya iyalah anak tk juga tau.

Sayur Asem. Yang ini saya gak sempet coba. Jadi no comment.

Kepiting Soka Abon. Kepitingnya garing. Abonnya juga enak. Ini masih agak standar bagi saya. Saya agak kurang suka sih dengan makanan yang masih harus dilepeh-lepeh lagi (saya ga luput melepeh kulit kepiting tiap kali makan ini)

Udang Mantis. Again, ngelepeh-lepeh kulit udang. Tapi bumbunya enak. Lupa bumbu apa ini. Hahha. Maap yak.

Cumi Goreng Tepung. Sambelnya asem2 gimanaaa gitu. Pake bawang pula. Nyaaammm... Cuminya sih standar. Garing.

Klaapertaart vanilla. Mungkin lebih baik namanya diganti saja jadi Klaapercustard. Tartnya creamy banget, bener-bener kayak krim custard. Di bawahnya ada potongan-potongan kelapa muda yang tadi gak saya makan.

Ketan Mangga Cubit dan Klaapertaart Rum Raisin. Rasa ketannya kayak rasa permen tango. Mangga-mangga milky gitu. Ketannya ga manis, tapi ga pahit juga sih. Ketolong, meskipun dikiittt banget ketolong tawarnya, sama sausnya. Taartnya amat sangat terasa rumnya. Mungkin dituang setengah gelas sebelum disajikan. Urrrgh I hate rum.

Dengan demikian berakhir reportasi kuliner saya pada dini hari ini. Saya pamit dulu, hendak melanjutkan tugas bacaan terakhir kelas pengantar kesustraan Cina yang akan menentukan kelulusan saya. Karya yang saya bahas adalah Empress Orchid karya Anchee Min. Sangat menarik. Selamat tinggal. Godspeed.

Go Random!

2009-12-04T21:03:00.008+07:00

I never understand all the shits people put out on New Moon. What did you expect it to be? Rocket science? A movie about a teenage girl, vampire clan, and a smokin hot pack of werewolves is supposed to be like that. Easy to chew, and you'll hope one of the werewolves will chew you. Haha.

My foreign language comprehension skill is getting worse. And this supposed to be lethal, since I am STUDYING language <--- if any of my senior or teacher see this maybe they'd say, we're not only studying the language, but also the culture, history, politic.. (and then it fades til all I could hear is blahblahblah..) Fantasticness.

If I could be born again as anyone/anybody in any time/any place, I would wanna be someone who lived in China around 1911-1950. So I could explain to the next me on the next life, which means now, about what and how China post dynasty really was.. T__T

Why did thou ever bother analyzing about words, phrases, clauses and how they formed and reformed, oh dear almighty Language God?

Sometimes I just wanna go honest all the time, but everytime I go, no matter what I ride, I always get blocked by two dead ends, "Manner" and "Morality". Dang, whatever happened to the road to heaven and a peaceful state of mind? <--- Okay, desperate attempt to be witty spotted and busted and charged guilty.

For all we know, the judgement day may happen in 2012. But for all we know too, it may not be too. Whatever happened to the saying "The Judgement Day can happen anytime, we'd never know"? Sure it may happen in 2012, but it may not too. The point is NOBODY ever knows. Stop bitchin about the idea of 2012. No more "2012 ga mungkin kiamat!" or "2012 bakal kiamat!". What about you fix your own goddamn brain first and then you may go ahead blabbing about religion.

Oh how I love the sims. Love, love, love. And ice coffee in the morning. And dipping Marie Regal in ice coffee in the morning. And internet. I don't know how to live without internet. I can't even remember what I used to do in spare time before internet. I can't remember what it used to be like, socializing with real people directly, instead of doing it via internet. Wow, I must be one pathetic oxymoron.

I'm really not a church person. You know...that kind of person who's active at church...doing stuff...best friends with all church youth' members... I'm not saying it's wrong. I encourage the idea. But sometimes I just feel like that kinda relationship is fake. How do you suppose to be yourselves in front of dozens of The God of All Things Good' worshipper? I don't mean to generalize, but sometimes they can be so indirectly judgemental it's making me questioning myself, "Am I really goin to hell or what?". Haha. Well say what you say but it's just me. But it doesn't mean I'm anti-church either, I just don't like the idea of 'Doing things in God'. If you wanna do good, don't bring God in it. Zip it to yourself. If you wanna do good, don't do it for God, do it for yourself, if not for those who are in need. Ok. Me, hell, now.

I always feel I'm slightly more superior than anyone else. Which means I'm also slightly delusional. But in my defense, it is because I have a superior God :)

Before, I have a thing for bald men. Now, gondrong men is everything. Now, me wants gondrong, brewok tipis, mata indah. Dang.

I always feel pity for those who hate or afraid of something a little bit too much. Where's your faith? Where's the love? You may not go through it cause of the pain or fear is just too much to bear, but I know that you know you'll LIVE through it. So, stop WHINING. Stop hating to the point where you can't do anything cause you're always thinking of it. Just STOP everything and live your life like you're supposed to be, IN LOVE. Yeaaah.

People keep saying, "Ayolah, kamu harus diet" and blahblahblahs. Back to the previous point. I am living my life like it supposed to be. I love myself the way I am. If someday I decide to go on a diet, let it be cause I want it, for me, and because of that only. Not because I want some random guy on the street take a second look at me and say "Dang, that girl's hot!". I'm not gonna be a hypocrite and say 'Iyuh, those guys are pathetic!'. Every girl wants to be appreciated sometime. But I just haven't arrived (and I hope, will NEVER arrive) to the point where I won't eat carbs for it, or keeping myself from having the things I love. I have much more important things to be focused on, and I need CALORIES to do it. Period.

I love my friends like I love myself: I always come second, everybody else's first. Hahaha this is sooooo backdoor bragging (don't get it? watch 30 rock!), yet saying 'yes I don't love you that much friends!"

I'm reading Empress Orchid by Anchee Min for my final literature class assignment. Wish me luck. So far chapter one is interesting. Witty.

So long, adios. Godspeed.

Just for the sake of 'update'

2009-11-28T09:46:00.002+07:00

Hello! Udah lama gak ngepost...kalian pasti bertanya-tanya; ada apa gerangan? Ya..gue sendiri mulai bertanya-tanya, apa sih makna blog ini. Diisi juga jarang...dibuka doang yang sering cuma buat dipandang-pandang sambil ngupil.

So, a lot has happened. My oldest (literally, she's old. Hahaha. God she'll kill me if she sees this) sister has moved to Qatar. Tepatnya di Ad Doha. Hell if I know where the hell in the map it was. Hope she'd allowed us (me and my mom, not me and you huh) to visit her next year. Can't wait to see Egypt!

I was chosen as a PO for my college's Catholic youth' Advent on The Road. Well actually it was my friend Sandra who was chosen in the first place but later she gave the position to me. Katanya dia mau memfokuskan diri ke kelas bahasa Cinanya yang nilainya menurun, sementara gue kan nilainya uda bagus jadi bisa lah kalo jadi PO. Wets itu kata Sandra lho, bukan geer-nya gue. Nyahaha.

Semester 3 ini sepertinya semakin sulit dengan tugas-tugas kesusastraan, sejarah Cina, dan kebudayaan Indonesia yang ga penting. Kebudayaannya penting, kelasnya maksudnya yang ga penting. Kalau begini, rasanya menyesal dulu tidak memilih Sastra Inggris. *sob*

Baru mulai menyadari ternyata: COWOK FIB LUCU-LUCU. Gosh. They always have a way of taking my breath away. Hahaha. Really one of a kind. You won't find ones like them in any other faculty. Or university. Come, come to FIB UI! Yeah!

Anyways, I really don't have any idea why I'm writing this post. This post is literally shit. Just for the sake of 'update'. Gosh. Kthxbye. Godspeed.

WWHF

2009-10-31T23:10:00.003+07:00

When words have failed
Silence is all we need
Just take a deep breath in the moment
You'll feel the euphoria
Of the air dancing in nothingness

The grass, knowing no one recognizes 'em
But they're keep attached to each other
Knowing nothing could ever kill 'em
As long as their roots keep binding to each other
Oh the euphoria

As long as the sun's keep rising
Just us; you, me, and them
Knowing we're undone
When words have failed
Silence will break the ice

The Lost Souls

2009-10-25T10:33:00.004+07:00

Amazing how a love story could have a wonderful effect and the most long lasting perhaps to me, than any sermons or proverbs would have. Just thought I'd share the link with you here. Geez, I cried the whole way.

The man is just someone who is too good to be true. You will all wonder why a guy so good gotta leave so soon? Imma take a raincheck on answering that one. It's been a mystery to me since 2004, since I watched right in front of my own face a good guy passed away so quickly and peacefully.

It all came clear. The ticket to heaven can't be bought, it is GIVEN. All the lost souls, all the souls we've mourned, He summoned them for a reason: He just gave them the ticket. They have deserved it.

We all have purposes. Some have figured it all out, some haven't. But He has hinted the way for us to live, LOVE. Hate belongs to demons only. I know it's hard not to hate, I hate, often times. But isn't the way to something good is always the hardest? Live your best. Never think about tomorrow, cause everything will fall into place, one thing after another. Everything will be beautiful at His time, not yours. Don't force it. Godspeed.

But Really

2009-10-24T08:45:00.004+07:00

They'd say I'm a dreamer
but really, I just like to dream

They'd say I'm a thinker
but really, thinkin is all I do

They'd say I'm moody
but really, moods are what animate me

They'd say I'm old-man wise
but really, that's cause I think too much

They'd say I'm a singer
but really, they haven't heard my real voice

They'd say I'm an actor
but really, that's the wall I've built for all past years

They'd say I'm a poet
but really, I'm a woman of too much words

They'd say I'm the life of the parties
but really, I feel dead in them

They'd say I'm a lover
but really, love is all I have to offer

Is there any such thing?

2009-10-17T22:55:00.004+07:00

Soo...I've been thinking about this. By this, I mean this blog. This another junk on this empty space called internet. It's title. Hanny in real life. Me. In. Real. Life.

Gosh, what was I thinking when I chose that url. Suddenly it sounds so corny and cheap. Oops no offense Dan in Real Life, I love the movie, but who would want to read bunch of craps of pages about ME in REAL LIFE, huh? Even I don't.

I'm thinking of changing this blog's url into something a little simpler, and really defines me, and no, it's not banci gembrot. I don't know, maybe you can help me think of something cool nyahahaha.

As a last goodbye to the name "Hanny in Real Life", Imma describe me in real life. Okay the real me in real life is nothing sweet. I'm an angry bitter little girl. Lately I feel like I'm losing my 'emotions bud' (if there's any such term). I don't feel sad, happy, worried, nor anything. Nothing. I've been faking emotions the whole time. It's not that I don't have any emotions at all... I mean I do feel things, but lately I've always faked 'em in front of people. All I am lately is bitter.

I feel like I've been pretending to befriends, to act all nice, to the people I don't really want to befriends with or act nice to. And some of those people doesn't even deserve it. They're good people. So the question is maybe, 'what the heck is up with me?'. Was it cause of I lost my dog a couple weeks ago? But I didn't feel anything about it either. I mean I was sad, and I miss Shiro sooo badly. But the sadness didn't dominate me. I am at a point where I don't really care if anybody gets hurt as long as it's not me who gets hurt. I'm like the old space theory by Copernicus, the center of the universe is earth and every other things just rotate around it. Wrong on so many levels.

I started to feel like a superhuman, like nothing could get through me. Was it cause I've gone past my labil times a looong looong time ago? I know I have, but where the hell did all my emotions have gone?? And aside from the fact that I'm typing it, I don't even care for the fact that I'm emotionless.

Geez I really should start get away from these people. I can't stand be around them. They're just straight ass annoying and one of them doesn't even realize it and always think my cranky face whenever she's around was not caused by her. Dude, it's you dude. Nothing else. Nobody else. You. Annoy. Me.

I used to worshipped realness. I loath fakeness. But now I'm becoming what I loath. And it's making me angry. There is nothing worse than being angry at yourself. Okaaaaay enough rantiiinnng. This has been too emo, too much emo is never good for anyone.

So the change is going to happen effective immediatly. Hahha, I haven't even decided what the new url yet. So, until then, Godspeed.

In the end of a cranky week like this

2009-10-11T17:56:00.005+07:00

Call me a bitch. Yes indeed, I am. I talk about people, whether it's a compliment or an insult, directly or indirectly, I say what I think is right.
Rule one, if in the end it turns out I was wrong, I'd apologize and go in peace. But if I'm right....there ain't no way I'm giving up on it.
Rule two, I don't care if the person I talk about is somehow in others' opinion, whether slightly or much more, better than me, I'd still talk about her/him. And you could only get that DILLIGAF look from me. You're entitled to your opinion and so am I. And if you try to infiltrate me with your stupid rasionalisation on what you believe is right, while I know it's wrong, Imma ignore you cause arguing with a fool makes it two.
Now you get what I mean when I said "call me a bitch" right? Yea. Godspeed.

Another Feedjit Post!

2009-10-10T01:02:00.002+07:00

Beep..beep..beep..another Feedjit post! Yeah! Ok if you don't get what I mean, try to read my previous Feedjit post here.
Sooooo...ok who am I kidding, just tell em already Hanny!

"Show me everything" --> Don't worry dear, God'll someday. O wait wait, what is it, when you typed 'everything'..did you mean...? Oh hell NO get outta here!

"Hanny Atalie" --> Heh? Hmmkay...another artis?

"Pucuk dicinta alam tiba" --> And there you were...arrived at my blog..bener-bener pucuk dicinta ulam tiba kan.

"Pidato the character I want to be in a movie" --> Waduuuh...ketauan nih ya kerjaan anak sekolahan. Ngopi aje lo bray!

"Irama lagu as long as you love me beserta artinya" --> Jaaaaaahhh...elah....masih stuck di era 90s ya sob? Sama.

"Kekuatan Bella Cullen" --> MUAHAHAHAHHA =3

"Cinta vs sayang vs nafsu" --> Yea, you've come to the right place baby.

"Cinta dan napsu" --> Err.....okay...never thought this would be such a trending topic hahahaha.

"Cinta vs jorok" --> Sekalian gih benci vs resik. Baru tau gue ternyata lawan katanya cinta itu jorok ahiy. Woo ngeres aja lu bray!

"TARIANPORNO" --> iya yang ngetik pake caps lock semua dan tanpa spasi. Cari aja link tarian porno saya di page ini, linknya agak rahasia jadi harus dibuka satu-satu. Coba-coba saja ya bray. Ya kali-kali deh ya -_-

"bercinta dengan makhluk gaib" --> Subhanallah...sudah bosan dengan manusiakah?

dan terakhir, ini spesial buat Idya, you wouldn't believe it Id nyahahahha

"www.pramesti widya.blogspot porn.com" --> Oke. Cukup. Kenapa sih semua yang mampir di sini cuma nyari napsu sama porno doang? Apa lebih baik saya tutup aja blog ini? Sebelum FPI yang tutup. Gimana sodara-sodara?

Hoaaahhmm it's been one cranky crappy and crabby week. Monday started with a theatrical fight with my mom and ended with another crankiness at the boarding house. Super. Enjoy your weekend. Godspeed.

No Such Thing

2009-09-27T01:51:00.004+07:00

I really don't think there are normal people in
the world. You wouldn't know what normal is if it weren't for insane. We're all
basically psychopath. Just more insane or less insane than the other.

True Blood

2009-09-26T23:35:00.005+07:00

True Blood. You know what? I LOOVE IT. You say "Ackh just another vampire-tastic bull. Let's see if Bill fckin Compton can beat Edward stupid colon". I say "Yeaaassss! Bring it oooooonnn HBO." Hahaha. Yeah, it really is like Twilight for adults. And when I say for adults, I mean really for adults. I shouldn't even be watching it with my age and all. Not to mention my innocent face ;). Explicit visuals and the usual cursing slurs (Dang whatever happen to the world of television, first Dexter, now this? Or maybe it just I that was too naive?) are probably two of other things that keep this series the way it is.

So basically the setting is in Lousiana, and it is the time where the vampires have come out of the closet. Demanding for their civil rights and equality as citizens of the world. Question is, why do they finally decide to expose themselves after thousands, hundreds thousand years of concealment and discretion? The answer is True Blood. The Japanese apparently have developed synthetic blood (called True Blood, available in A-, O-, and other blood types, you name it) so it makes it possible for the vamps to stop feeding on human blood. This is just too cool. Hahaha.
And not to mention the sex scenes. Just see it for yourself and you'll see why I said it's for adults. Don't watch it with your elders or minors. It'd be so aaawwwwkkkwaaaard.

There's this scene, you know the scene where Bill and Sookie first met at The Merlotte's? It is sooooo worth the Emmy. It's even more chemical than Edward and Bella's first biology class. Hahaha.

Ok, so who's the Romeo and Juliet, Edward and Bella, Bonnie and Clyde, Rangga and Cinta, in this another vamptasia hit, huh? The couple, without whom, the series would be boring. The couple who is the life of the series. Let's welcome Bill Compton and Sookie Stackhouse.

Well, I gotta say this isn't the first tv series which female lead character I hate so much, I wish I could get in the series and dunk em head in cold water reaaaal hard, because the first was Grey's Anatomy.

Wassup with this Sookie btch anyway. So Bill practically said he loved her and would do anything to be with her, she drove away. Bill drove away too, she comes purring back in. Bill went to the vamp magister court for killing a vampire in the DEFENSE OF SOOKIE, she messed around and go bitchin with Sam. When Bill found out Sam and Sook are hookin up in Sook's livin room, Bill took Sam down, and she went on and FCKIN CRASHED A VASE ON BILL'S HEAD. And then she even made a rasionalization on what she did with Sam and threw Bill outta the house. And then she's back on again with Bill after Bill tried to save her life, in the process of which, he went out in the daylight and that ain't no good for a vamp. Dang bitch, that ain't right.

I know Sookie is like the main character here and all, but please please please, make her go away, or at least make her grow a brain cell. And that bitter girl Tara. Don't you just wanna shove a brick in her mouth and suck it up to her? I've never seen a woman that bitter unless she's wearing a hairnet, and sorting out seafish in the market. We all like bitter, like Cristina Yang's bitter bitter, or Debra Morgan's bitter bitter, but this one's just straight ass annoying.

That Jason Stackhouse. He's plain ass stupid that's what he is. And I don't know why I just don't find him hot. He always mess up things and I can see him turnin his back on his sister in the future. But you can't help but to like him. He's innocent stupid and that's what makes him funny.
In the future I hope there will be less of Sookie's Barbieness and more hot guys comin along. Hahaha. Enjoy True Blood. Godspeed.

Imma Kiss Guru

2009-09-24T22:08:00.007+07:00

Oke, you see that application on the bottom right of this blog? Yeah that's called Feedjit (@citra h: bacanya fijit loh cit) Live Traffic. The main function is to tell the location of people who have come or happened to cross by this blog on any random occasions or accidents. And also why. Whether it's via blogger, via google, or via whatever website there is, you know it all. And if it's via google, it tells what people type to made them end up here. And..umm..yeah these are what they type.

"Relation P process with reality life" --> masih normal
"Sandra Herlina" --> artis mana nih? haha ya masih normal lah
"Artis Korea Big Bang di Twitter" --> Waw thanks. Turut senang deh bisa ikut membantu promosi Big Bang

Berikutnya:

"Gimana rasanya cipokan" --> Woooooootttttt?? Oke anda telah datang ke tempat yang tepat. Ini memang blognya Kiss Guru Hanny Lengi. Yeah. The Guru sudah memiliki berbagai macam pengalaman cipokan. Termasuk dengan anjing dan kura-kura.

"Wanita normal yg memiliki jakun" ---> ..... Err...seriously, gue bener2 mau tahu siapa yang ngegoogle ini. Orang macam apakah yang ngegoogle ini. Apa yang dia makan, di mana dia dibesarkan, orangtuanya berasal dari mana, dia semalam di mana, berbuat apa, sama siapa. Ga, ga, serius tapi. Dia lagi mau bikin makalahkah sampai ngegoogle ginian? Mau operasi ganti kelaminkah? Cmon tell me stranger. I'm all ears.

Yeas peeps, untuk ke depannya lagi gue akan terus mengupdate post macam ini. Attendre et voir. Godspeed.

Selamat Hari Lebaran

2009-09-20T22:54:00.004+07:00

Ok...selamat hari lebaran 1430 H bagi yang merayakan..Yang tidak merayakan ya..ikutan ajalah minta-minta maaf...Siapa tahu ada yang ngasih maaf...
Post kali ini agak nyampah sih, ikutan si Reigina Tjahaya, tapi gapapalah..blog blog gue, hidup hidup gue, terserah gue dong mau ngapain :P

3 things I'm addicted to:
internet, pinset (jangan tanya untuk apa), susu.

3 things I'm interested in:
internet (lagi), tari-tarian porno (hahaha ga pake porno deng), bahasa.

3 things I found hot:
Jakarta, glasses, betis telor hahaha.

3 wildest dream:
jadi atlet congklak, kawin di hutan (liar kan), dilahirkan kembali sebagai hewan langka (pastinya hidup akan liar karena diburu orang terus).

3 obsession:
jadi atlet congklak, penyanyi2 cewe yang bernyanyi2 sambil menari (ok that just sound too gay just then, ah to hell with it), our existence.

3 things I treasure the most:
ah ga ada ah...semua hal berharga bagi gue (ahiiiiiiyyy..).

3 types of smell you love:
wangi susu anget, wangi abang gue..enak bener dah pake parfum apa sih bang, wangi duit.

3 types of smell you hate:
bau ketek (kecuali ketek sendiri), bau sampah busuk, hmm sama bau rokok pastinya (HAHAHAHA).

3 things you hate:
ga ada ah..hidup ini terlalu singkat untuk dilewati dengan kebencian...ajiiikkk.

3 bad habits:
suka ribet ngejelasin diri sendiri, niat basa basi tapi ga jago akting jadi ketauan ga tulusnya, suka secara ga sadar ngeliatin orang sambil MANGAP. ajik kan.

3 things you love to wear:
luaran gaul, sendal jepit gaul, jins item (biar pantatnya keliatan kecilan dikit gitu hahaha).

3 childhood toys:
blackberry, psp, the sims (biasa anak kecil gaul jadi kayak gini deh).

3 favourite author: jk rowling, dan brown, stephenie meyer (ok gue pathetic tapi tapi tapi..udahlah akuin aja kalo twilight tuh guilty pleasure lo semua kan...ya kan ya kan..ngaku).

3 favourite director:
siapa yak... hmm Rudi Soedjarwo, Tim Burton, dan 2 orang sutradara Thailand yang nyutradarain Shutter itu.

3 reason you do this thing:
iseng, rebek explaining diri sendiri (liat kembali ke bagian bad habits), iseng lagi.

3 person you would tag to do this:
aya, imee, idya.

Eh eh sebelum kalian pergi ini ada mantra buat kalian, baca ya:
cok kocok kocok dikocok kocok
sembilan bulan brojol si ucok
brot

Yak karena kalian sudah membaca mantra tadi, hati-hatilah nanti saat sebelum tidur, cek kolong tempat tidur dan pastikan tirai jendela kalian tertutup. Godspeed.

The Thin Red Line

2009-09-19T10:09:00.006+07:00

Yin dan Yang. Some of you might be wondering: Wtf is Yin Yang actually?
Cuma gambar lingkaran, tengah-tengahnya terbagi dua oleh sebuah garis berombak. Satunya putih dengan titik hitam, satunya hitam dengan titik putih.

Konsep Yin Yang atau Yinyang (Hanzi: 陰陽) berasal dari filsafat Cina dan metafisika kuno yang menjelaskan setiap benda di alam semesta memiliki polaritas abadi berupa dua kekuatan utama yang selalu berlawanan tapi selalu melengkapi. Yin bersifat pasif, sedih, gelap, feminin, responsif, dan dikaitkan dengan malam. Yang bersifat aktif, terang, maskulin, agresif, dan dikaitkan dengan siang. Yin disimbolkan dengan air, sedangkan Yang disimbolkan dengan api.Yin (feminin, hitam, bersifat pasif) dan Yang (maskulin, terang, bersifat aktif) adalah dua elemen yang saling melengkapi. Setiap kekuatan di alam dianggap memiliki keadaan Yin dan Yang.Kemungkinan besar teori Yin dan Yang berasal dari ajaran agama agraris zaman kuno. Konsep Yin Yang dikenal dalam Taoisme dan Konfusianisme, walaupun kata Yin Yang hanya muncul sekali dalam kitab Tao Te Ching yang penuh dengan contoh dan penjelasan tentang konsep keseimbangan.Konsep Yin Yang merupakan prinsip dasar dalam ilmu pengobatan tradisional Cina yang menetapkan setiap organ tubuh memiliki Yin dan Yang. (Wikipedia)

Secara pribadi, I'm not a Daoist, but this Yin Yang concept has always fascinates me. Kita, manusia, tidak hitam ataupun putih. We're simply grays. Yang terlihat putih pun pasti memiliki hitam di dalamnya, and vice versa.

You know how di film-film yang di dalamnya ada mafia, gangster, triad, atau semacamnya, somehow some of them still find the time to go to the church? Or wihara, mosque, etc. Yeah those movies are trying to show us, even the evilest ones still need to look up to the greater good. This concept really really blows my mind like a twister. Hahaha berlebihan.

Here's a quote from a Mentalist episode, The Thin Red Line

Patrick Jane: It's nice to be nice. But if you want to get ahead in life, sometimes you have to be a bitch. I know you know how.

Grace Van Pelt: Gee, thanks.

Patrick Jane: It's all about the balance, Grace. Yin, Yang. Nice, bitch. Little bit of bitch inside the nice, a little bit of nice inside the bitch.

Grace Van Pelt: Yeah, I'll work on that.

Patrick Jane: Keep 'em guessin'.

Godspeed.

Bercinta Bersama

2009-09-17T22:29:00.005+07:00

Oke entah mengapa semenjak diinisiasi gue semakin merasa terikat dan belong ke jurusan gue. Berlebihan banget mungkin kalo dibilang gue cinta banget sama jurusan gue, terlebih setelah inisiasi dan puding pete laknat itu, tapi itulah kenyataannya. Anjing, bisa muntah ke muka sendiri gak sih? Hahaha. Perasaan setiap saat jadi pengen nyanyi lagu yang itu loh...yang itu loh...

"Perasaan iniiii janganlah cepat berlalu....perasaan ini..." dan begitu seterusnya.

Pokoknya I love you lah 08. Mari bercinta bersama.

Ouh, dan terima kasih yang telah membuka post ini karena melihat judulnya. Maaf anda kurang beruntung.

[B]Ego

2009-09-05T23:02:00.004+07:00

Ketika titik kecil itu berubah hijau
Rasa ini mulai kembali mengapung ke permukaan
Karna aku tahu kamu cuma satu klik jauhnya
Aku ingin berbincang...
Sudah lama aku tak membaca kecongkakanmu

Aku pun amat ragu kamu merasakan yang sama
Karna kamu tinggal di negeri cendekiawan
dimana banyak kembang yang lebih harum

Ya aku tahu aku egois
Karna meskipun banyak wangi yang juga lebih manis
Bagiku wangimu tetap instingtif
Cuma kamu yang bisa berbau seperti kamu

Aku memang gila
Aku memang menjijikkan
Tapi aku hanyalah aku
Aku bukan siapa-siapa
Aku bukan orang lain
Aku dan kamu adalah aku

Semua hal yang tidak ada inti tapi masuk akal
Semua hal yang mengingatkanku akan kaca
Semua hal yang mengingatkanku akan bulan Oktober
Hanya aku yang mengerti
Kamu cukup tahu saja

Aku bukan pencari roman picisan
Aku hanya mencari teman
Karna lebih baik aku mati daripada kesepian
Tapi siapa bilang teman tak bisa menciptakan roman picisan?
Aku dan kamu tahu lebih baik dari itu

Dan kata-kata kali ini amatlah aneh
Aku pun agak bergidik membacanya
Seperti berada di luar diriku sendiri
Tapi aku...sepertinya...ingin
AKU
dan aku dan aku

Salam, aku dan egoku

Show Me

2009-09-05T13:18:00.002+07:00

I realized as I lay down to sleep
We haven't spoke in weeks
So many things that I'd like to know
Come have a talk with me
I need a sign, something I can see
Why all the mystery?
I try not to fall for make believe
But what is reality?
Where do we go?What do we know?
Life has to have a meaning
Show me the light
Show me the way
Show that you're listening

Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me

Guess it's funny how I say thanks to you
For all you've given me
Sometimes the price of what you gave to me
I can't stop questioning
O God of love, peace, and mercy
Why so much suffering?
I pray for the world, it gets worse to me
Wonder if you're listening
When people go
Why do they go?
Why don't you choose me?
But someday I know I'm gonna go
I hope you're waiting for me

Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me

Maybe we'll talk
Some other night
Right now I'll take it easy
Won't spent my time
Waiting to die
Enjoy the life I'm living

Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me

-John Legend, Show Me-

Occasionally Grateful ;P

2009-09-04T22:08:00.004+07:00

Gue kangen hari-hari di mana lagu-lagu cuma sesimpel "Aku tak peduli siapa engkau selama engkau mencintaiku", atau "Pukul aku sayang sekali lagi", atau "Aku menaruh cintaku padamu, hanya itu yang ingin kulakukan". Sepertinya dulu itu, lagu-lagu begitu sederhana, lumayan cheesy namun catchy dan manis. Hahaha. Kita cuma tinggal menelan bulet-bulet semua permainan kata-kata cinta manis nan gombal tanpa harus repot-repot mikir.
Gak seperti sekarang, di mana kita harus repot-repot menebak apa sih sebenernya arti lagu ini? Artinya tentang kematian, kehidupan, Tuhan, atau cinta-cintaan seh? Ngomongin petir, buku, atau lelaki sih? Zzzzzz.
Hahaha bercanda deh. Saya mah lagu apa aja suka...selama saya masih bisa ikutan nyanyi. Tapi ya siapa sih yang bisa nolak kedahsyatan kata-kata berikut, dan jangan lupakan nada-nada yang catchy geeeelllaaa yang bikin kita nyanyi-nyanyi lagu ini terus nonstop sepanjang tahun.

"I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me beybeh"

Not that it reminded me of any personal experiences loh ya. Really seriously. Hahaha.

Oke..ngomongin apa lagi yeeee. Semakin ke sininya, gue semakin merasa bersyukur kuliah di jurusan sastra. Santai....ga banyak paper kayak fakultas lainnya...gak ketemu itung-itungan...kerjaannya cuma ngebacot aja...Cihui banget lah pokoknya. Gue gak bakal sanggup kalo disuru masuk akuntansi yang bikin tabel melulu. Atau kayak anak-anak HI atau hukum yang kerjaannya bikin paper, terus mesti rajin update berita-berita terkini dari koran atau warta berita di tipi. Ya bukan berarti kuliah di jurusan sastra lantas membuat gue sah untuk jadi buta berita sih...tapi tetap aja itu bukan suatu keharusan yang mendesak seperti anak-anak fisip. Hahaha. Sastra Cina UI is the best lah pokoknya. At least for me.

Biar banyak orang yang memandang rendah anak-anak jurusan sastra, tapi jujur aja, itu gak terlalu mengganggu gue. Bukan mereka yang menjalani, jelas aja mereka gak tau kenyataan sebenernya kuliah sastra itu kayak gimana. Ya gak bisa menyalahkan mereka juga sih, kadang aja gue yang uda menjalaninya merasa blank tiba-tiba kan. Kayak misalnya lagi ngapalin percakapan-percakapan bahasa Cina, terus tiba-tiba langsung berhenti ngapalin gara-gara tiba-tiba mikir "Hah, ngapain sih gue ini sebenernya, abis kuliah mau kenalan sama orang Cinakah? Abis kuliah mau pesen makanan di restoran Cina kan?" atau yang lebih dalem lah dikit, "Sebenernya apaan sih tujuan dan guna hidup gue ini, sehari-hari cuma ngapalin hurup Cina, kayak bener-bener nyari kerjaan, terus apaan nih fonetik morfologi sintaksis dan lain-lainnya ini? Emang bentar kalo gue kerja di koran bakal ngebahas morfologi ya?".

Hidup sehari-hari di kosan juga cuma kalo gak ngapalin hurup Cina dan percakapan, ya ngelamun menatap langit-langit sambil mikir si penunggu kamar sekarang lagi ngapain ya, jangan-jangan dia juga lagi tiduran juga di sebelah gue.

Oiya just FYI, setiap kosan di Depok pasti ada setannya. Cuman kebanyakan sih baik, tenang aja. Kayak di kosan gue, kata temen gue yang bisa ngeliat makhluk goib sih ya emang ada. Gue pun sempet digangguin di malam pertama tinggal di kosan. Punggung gue bener-bener merinding (ya mungkin itu pas dia lagi tiduran di sebelah gue) terus pagi-paginya bangku yang gue inget udah gue masukin ke meja belajar tiba-tiba udah berubah jadi posisi serong rada mau keluar dari meja. Hiiiiiiyyyyy, serem ya? Gak juga sih. Hahaha ngemeng doang gue, padahal di kamar kosan tuh udah penuh rosario sama minyak urapan (yang akhirnya juga si rosario copot, dan minyak urapan ga pernah diotak-atik kecuali pas suatu malam saat gue tiba-tiba sakit perut dan minyak itu gue pake sebagai pengganti minyak angin).

Akhir kata, ngekos itu mantap, banyak banget malam-malam di mana gue merasa kesepian tapi secara keseluruhan, gue bersyukur bisa merasakan kehidupan kosan setelah 17 tahun cuma ngedemprok di rumah gak ketulungan manjanya. Cita-cita gue sekolah di sekolah negeri pun kesampean setelah SMP dan SMA gagal masuk sekolah negeri. Terima kasih Greater Good :)
Godspeed.

XOXO, Occasionally Grateful Girl

Geyimis

2009-08-25T12:15:00.003+07:00

Wow ini baru mantap bang... Cengkok sendu dengan irama 90an yang kental.. Hahaha. Membuat gue merasa seperti anak kecil kembali. Cihui. I think it's a perfect december love song. Yuuhuuuuu.

Certified Lazy Girl

2009-08-25T10:54:00.005+07:00

Tidak punya ambisi adalah ambisi saya. Dan sepertinya sejauh ini ambisi itu sudah cukup terpenuhi. Hahaha. Sejauh ini tidak ada halangan dalam meraih ambisi saya ini. Biarpun anjing menggonggong (wow too much G's) dan ayam berkokok, saya tetap tidur lelap di tempat tidur saya setiap harinya. Yeah! Di sekitar saya orang-orang, baik yang pintar bahkan yang gagal dalam pelajarannya, sibuk mengejar masa depan dan cita-cita mereka, tapi tidak, tidak. Saya tetap tidak akan goyah. Saya tetap tidak akan punya ambisi. Saya akan tetap bergelimang dalam kemalasan dan menunggu seorang milioner mengangkat saya menjadi ~~pembantunya~~ istrinya. MUAHAHAHA.

Mereka mau punya ambisi? Terserah. Asal jangan seret-seret saya. Mereka bilang saya mau pintar sendiri? Terserah. Bukan salah saya kalau saya belajar lewat bersenang-senang.
Saya tidak tahu sejak kapan saya benci ambisi. Mungkin karena saya benci orang-orang yang terlalu dibutakan oleh ambisi. It's like they're sleeping with it, eating with it, showering with it, live with it. Wow that must have been devastating. Ambition is evil and it keeps sugarcoating it's followers about the real truth of the world. And what is the real truth of the world? I absolutely have no effing idea. Hahaha.

Yeah call me lazy. I am lazy. I know I am. But in my ~~hopeless~~ defense, think about this, what if today's your last day on earth and the last thing on your mind is your textbook? Oh oh, do you hear that? Yeah, God? Uh huh? Yeah He wants me to tell you, even HE thinks it's pathetic. Okay, you guys have a guhhhreaaaat day! Godspeed.

XOXO, Certified Lazy Girl

Demi Cinta

2009-08-19T22:17:00.006+07:00

Saya jadi ingat 2 tahun lalu, saya tidak ikut upacara bendera di sekolah. Saat masuk, bapak guru menanyakan alasan ketidakhadiran saya. Saya dengan semangat dan bangga menjawab "Ikut upacara di komplek pak!". Sekelas pun menertawakan saya. Termasuk bapak guru itu yang tertawa dengan sedikit sinis. Whoa whoa whoa whoa. Memang ada yang salah ya dengan saya ikut upacara di komplek? Salah kalau saya mencoba berbaur dengan orang-orang komplek saya? Orang-orang yang notabene TINGGAL dan HIDUP di sekitar saya, literally everyday 24/7. Salah kalau memang saya ingin mencoba eksis di komplek saya? Tentu tidak bukan. Sekolah itu hanya institusi. Sedangkan komplek ini adalah KEHIDUPAN saya. Masa kecil saya tidak akan berarti tanpa orang-orang ini. Mereka adalah beberapa warna krayon yang ada di dalam kotak krayon saya, yang warnanya paling terang atau kereng di antara warna-warna lainnya. Susah untuk menghapusnya. Arti mereka terlalu besar bagi saya. Saya cinta mereka. Saya cinta komplek SPS. Yeah. Oke maaf kalau kalian jijik. Saya juga kebelet eek bacanya. Godspeed.

Diambil tanggal 17 Agustus tahun 2007. Saat saya masih sedikit lebih langsing, dan menjadi paskibraka untuk pertama kalinya seumur idup. Hahaha.

Diambil tanggal 18 Agustus 2009 saat panitia 17 Agustusan '09 Komplek SPS bermain ke Dufan.

It's Official: Imma Twigeek

2009-08-19T04:13:00.003+07:00

Yak....bagus....sebentar lagi Hanny yang kalian kenal gembrot, uninterested looking, physically weak, yeah that particular Hanny, akan segera berubah. Sebentar lagi saya akan berubah. Menjadi cuantuik luar biasa dan impossibly strong, menjadi VAMPIR. Merujuk ke istilah yang digunakan Jacob Black dan teman-teman werewolvesnya (di Breaking Dawn dibilang sih kalau sebenarnya mereka itu bukan werewolves, tapi shape-shifters, they can shift shapes to whatever as necessary, not particularly wolves only), vampires are BLOODSUCKERS. Well, NYAMUK adalah PENGISAP DARAH juga bukan? Dan nyamuk-nyamuk di kamar saya sepertinya semakin hari semakin montok, dan setelah mereka menggigit saya, saya juga merasakan burning sensation yang luar biasa (karena nabok nyamuk terlalu keras) seperti yang dialami Bella Cullen saat dia bertransformasi menjadi vampir.

Oke, BANGUN gadis gembrot yang terlalu banyak membaca Twilight!

Oke saya percaya memberi makan yang kelaparan membawa pahala sehingga saya pasti akan masuk surga setelah "memberi makan" nyamuk-nyamuk kelaparan itu *sigh*. So until then, let's talk about Twilight one mo' time! Yeah! Haha. Seakan obsesi saya akan Twilight The Movie belum berakhir, sekarang saya jatuh cinta pada bagian terakhir dari saga vampir itu, Breaking Dawn (artinya subuh yang merekah bukan sih?). Deskripsi Stephenie Meyer akan setiap adegan terasa nyata dan mendetil. Dari setiap deskripsinya saya bisa merasakan pesan moral yang ingin dia sampaikan (jadi inget masa SMA, bikin sinopsis mesti pake pesan moralnye), yaitu immortality worth an expensive price. It is worse than dying. But even if it means you have to live through eternity with the one you love, it'll all worth the while. Caelah..dalem bener ye kan, I love you forever, LITERALLY, FOREVER. Prikitiiiuuuwww!
Siapapun yang membaca perasaan dan emosi saat menjadi vampir lewat sudut pandang Bella Cullen pasti akan merasa 'kepengen'. Saya yakin itu. Jika dengan menjadi vampir berarti memiliki kekuatan super, badan yang tiba-tiba sempurna tanpa cacat, penglihatan yang tiba-tiba membuat dunia lebih indah dari biasanya, dan berkah bakat a wonderful self-control seperti yang dimiliki Bella, maka saya akan mengambil kesempatan itu tanpa berpikir tiga kali. Mungkin dua kali saja cukup. Haha. Jika vampir benar-benar ada, maka saya akan mencari pacar vampir saja. Namun saya tidak percaya mereka ada. Saya tidak percaya pada apa yang tidak pernah saya lihat. Berarti saya tidak percaya Tuhan juga dong? Wow itu rahasia. haha.
Ya ya oke saya ini Twigeek. Namun saya yakin di luar sana banyak Twigeeks lainnya yang lebih impossible dan difficult daripada saya. Maksudnya dibilanginnya lebih susah, lebih ngeyel, lebih tergila-gila sama Edward Cullen daripada saya. Haha.
Saya sendiri sih pribadi lebih ngefans sama Jacob Black. Saya percaya dia pria yang lebih baik untuk Bella. Seperti yang Jacob bilang sendiri di Eclipse, "He's your drug, I'm healthier for you. I'm your sun." Ya Jacob lebih sehat untuk Bella dibandingkan Edward yang seperti kokain, bikin nagih dan nagih dan nagih. Dia matahari yang selalu ada saat Bella butuhkan. Tapi ini salah satu pesan moral lagi (atau mungkin curhat colongan?) yang Stephenie Meyer coba selipkan di dalam karyanya. Cinta itu BUTA. Hahaha. Memang harus buta kawan. Tapi biasanya orang buta memiliki indra-indra lain yang lebih kuat bukan? Lihat saja Daredevil. ;P

Merujuk kembali ke istilah vampir itu sendiri, saya ingat dulu saya pernah baca di Bobo sewaktu SD, vampir itu ternyata beneran ada, maksudnya istilah vampir itu ada based on manusia beneran. Dulu di Eropa, keluarga bangsawan dan kerajaan yang memiliki hubungan darah sering sekali kawin ataupun mengawinkan anak-anak mereka. Pernah belajar biologi di SMP kan? Saya sendiri tidak pernah belajar biologi saat SMP. Saya percaya saya itu sleepwalking dan ngigo dulu sepanjang SMP dan entah bagaimana karena beruntung saya dapat lulus pelajaran biologi SMP. Ya pokoknya entah bagaimana, manusia yang memiliki hubungan darah itu tidak boleh melakukan hubungan perkawinan. Nanti ada kromosom atau gen apa gitu, yang jika menyatu dapat menyebabkan penyakit albino pada keturunannya. Nah jadi di Eropa dulu mungkin banyak banget orang albino, dan muncullah istilah vampir. Penghisap darah yang tidak pernah keluar pada siang hari. Ya iyalah bangsawan kok pucet, jadi dulu pada malu deh keluar pas siang-siang. Tamat. Yeah! Pintar kan saya. Makanya dulu waktu kecil baca Bobo dong, jangan main layangan mulu. Gosong deh tuh otak.

Yak mungkin segitu dulu deh, sebelum terlalu banyak Twigeeks yang mungkin bakal mampir kemari karena ngegoogle "Edward Cullen naked", atau "Kristen Stewart naked" <---- sengaja bener, biar blognya rame ye mbrot? Hahaha.

Sebelum pergi jangan lupa saksikan New Moon, di bioskop-bioskop terdekat kesayangan anda, tanggal 20 November 2009. Godspeed.

Taylor's too hot, I can fry eggs on his chest (Hahaha cheesy to the max!)

Come One Come All

2009-08-13T22:56:00.005+07:00

Not so title-related post. I just miss My Chemical Romance. Haha. Yeah I miss those make-up waring emo-screaming boys. At least they can wear makeup and still look like a man. I hate wearing makeup. Besides from the fact that wearing makeup covers up some good ol pimple scars of mine, but still, I often end up lookin like a freakin drag queen instead of a gorgeous beauty queen. With my strong hard lips line, thick wormy eyebrows, mushroomy nose, it's not easy to have a good woman look after applyin makeup. It's not something that should be expected either hahahaha. So I'm pretty sure last sunday, on my brother's wedding, I'd ended up lookin like an old transgender hag on most of the picture taken that day. Hahaha. Okay enough with the bitching and moaning.

So what is up around these days huh folks?? Let's see..
JW Marriot and Ritz Carlton got bombed and turned out it wasn't Noordin M Top all along inside that little house in Temanggung, it was Ibrahim instead...

Marshanda uploaded some pretty mentally sick videos on her youtube account and erased em a few hours later....Impulsive cowardly act Marsh, didn't say it'll do good for your career, but hell your parents still have tons of money anyway huh. After all Paris Hilton got famous for makin a sex video, why can't you be so too for makin videos of you on a high? You don't exactly need special talent on those specialties. Even a 5 year old can do as good as you do.

Mbah Surip died. Folowed by the person who arranged his funeral, WS Rendra. And there they went all the "Tak Gendong" jokes scattered round on facebook, twitter, msn, etc.

Bella Cullen carried the blood and flesh of Edward Cullen and died in the delivery process. Edward changed her and they all live happily ever after with their cute baby girl Renesmee. And not to mention future son-in-law Jacob Black. Yeah sorry, I'm officially a Twilighters now. Breaking Dawn is just so cool, I was reading half the book 4 hours nonstop to find out what happens next with The Volturi and all.

What else what else? Geez I just realized that I really really have to decrease internet-related activities for a while and start watching some tv for God's sake. I found out about all of those stuff above from the internet (Even I couldn't help but to google the summary of Breaking Dawn first before finished off the book). Not like it's a bad thing, finding out stuffs from the internet, but I've barely watch or see the "real" news, you know, real news about people and stuff happening all around the world, world peace, third world war and all. It would be a good start to watch some headline news instead of dancing Korean videos on youtube. Yea you can see the big "L" right there, written all on my forehead. Godspeed.

She's Alone

2009-08-05T15:28:00.003+07:00

She is alone
She's not lonely but she's alone
She's relieved
That nobody gets to see
Just how vulnerable she can be
Guess it's best this way
Thinkin all the pain she could share
Instead of happiness
Nobody'd want to get near that
Nobody wants to be sad
She hides herself
From the man she hides
For all she knows
World would be better off without
She's not lonely, but
Even in the crowd she's alone

Big Bang

2009-08-01T10:29:00.005+07:00

Baru saja bangun dari hibernasi...Yak..minggu ini udah banyak banget hal-hal sampah yang gue lakukan...Cuma duduk di depan laptop, bolak balik buka twitter, facebook, youtube, google, facebook lagi, twitter lagi...SAMPAH! HAHAHA

Dan ga tau kenapa, belakangan ini gue mulai ketagihan artis-artis Korea. Buka asianfanatic.net cuma buat browsing gambar-gambar, disave di laptop.. Mending deh kalo gambar artis cowo, ini kebanyakan cewe. Gue gay banget. Tapi emang gue merasa lebih tertarik ngeliatin foto artis cewe daripada artis cowo gimana dong. Bukan pertanda gay bukan? Seneng aja ngeliatnya. Kok bisa ya pada cakep-cakep bener? Ibaratnya kalo gue berdiri di sebelahnya uda kayak jeruk dan ampasnya kali. Dia jeruk, gue ampasnya. Kalo foto cowo mah..basi..yang itu lebih enak liat aslinya. Hahaha. Buka youtube..yang dicari juga artis-artis Korea lagi....huanjeng...kenapa oh Tuhan, kenapa??? Kenapa saya benar-benar sampah ya Tuhan?? Hahaha. Ga deng gue ga merasa sampah kok. Emang kenapa kalo suka sama artis-artis Korea? Haram apa? Kaga kan. Ya ya ya.

Dan semakin lama gue tersedot ke dalam Korean Wave ini, semakin lama gue..hmm apa ya kata yang tepatnya. Bingung bukan, jijik juga bukan. Jadi kan ya cowo-cowo Korea ini suka sekali memakai yang namanya pakaian-pakaian dengan warna permen. Yak candy color fashion ternyata sedang in sekali di Korea sana saudara-saudara. Dulu gue mungkin akan jijik ngeliat ada lekong memakai baju dengan warna-warna yang semestinya hanya dipakai oleh permen saja, tapi sekarang I find it very...attractive.

Dulu tipe cowo-cowo gue adalah cowo-cowo seperti ini, cowo-cowo Kaukasian yang seperti ini.

Wets, jangan salah, sekarang masih. Hanya saja sekarang dia tidak semenarik these dancing-singing-candy-couloured-clothing-wearing boys.

And I know I said that a sexy man is a man who dares to confront his feminine side, but this...

This is just on a whole lot another level right? Haha. TOO feminine maybe... but somehow ini ketutupan oleh kerennya dia pas nyanyi...nari....aaaahhh..Yang ga tau dia itu siapa, dia adalah leadernya those dancing-singing-candy-coloured-clothing-wearing boys..Name G-Dragon. Those boys itself? Name Big Bang. Keep that in mind next time you see them on the street tell them I love them so. HAHAHA.

Jadi apa dong kata yang tepatnya? Tak ada kata yang tepat yang bisa mengungkapkannya mungkin.

Yang bisa gue ucapkan hanyalah..selamat menikmati Big Bang. Here 'em goes.

Before Sunrise

2009-07-22T09:08:00.012+07:00

Conversations flow. They really do. A beautiful guy met a beautiful girl on a train to Vienna, she caught him by the eye. She kinda hooked him first by the whole thing about how as couple gets older they lose their ability to hear each other, like they sort of nullify each other, and he thought it was nature's way of allowing couple to grow old together without killing each other.

Well..that was a hook. Hahaha. Soon they were wandering the streets of Vienna, talking, laughing, and all. Ever since I read this novel Love in Prague by Judith an Indonesian writer, Eastern Europe cities have always been my dream destinations. But you know, not that goal-oriented, like researching on them history and stuff. I just dream on visiting them later. If I got the money, and If I do, I WILL spare the time for God's sake. Amazing how a single novel about Prague can hooked me up that much on Europe, than any kind of pictures, videos, or movies did. And this movie just a kind of suplementary to it all. A sweet movie about love, life, strangers, with Europe background.

The guy, Jesse, is all this American guy, bitter, but in heart I think he is someone who believes so much in love, that when it hurt him, it turned him cynical. The girl, Celine, is this free-loving, independent, sweet, smart French girl, who always has her own takes on everything.

I just..hate the ending. (Warning you for some bloopers) They could've been forever. They're clearly each other's angel and demon. But they choose not to. Over what? The fear of being depressed? Urgh. Sure they could get to know each other...lose interest in each other...but that'd be better than give the whole thing up, right? It kinda bugs me of how people willing to sacrifice so little for something they know is right and almost heaven-made.

Four thumbs up for both actors though. The acting is incredible. Well, I heard in real life Hawke and Delpy managed to become a couple, but then broke up. The word said Hawke broke up with her over Joely Richardson. But I didn't really knew. I wasn't a fan of Hawke then. Guess I kinda am now. Never thought beautiful guys would be so attractive. Haha.

I can't pick my favourite quotes. The movie itself is my favourite quote to life. So...is Before Sunrise my favourite movie..? Yeah I guess so. Watch it to get it. Overall I give it 4.5 stars out of 5. It loses the half star for the sucky ending. Haha.

Man of The Hour: Tim Kang

2009-07-18T21:53:00.008+07:00

I'm having a crush on..Tim Kang. Hehehe. Agent Cho in The Mentalist. Yeah I just love Agent Cho. Not Tim maybe, but Cho. The character.

He has that worried eyes. Gotta love men with worried eyes. He is Korean American. A little bit short for a man. But hey, he's stiill Asian. He is not Yao Ming peeps. Total yummy shoulders. I can see ~~myself~~ my head on ~~him~~ that freakinlishly comfortable pads. ;)

♥

Watch Me Go Mental

2009-07-15T08:43:00.006+07:00

Currently watching a new show: The Mentalist. Tokoh sentralnya Patrick Jane. He is not a psychic..kind of. He reads body language. Dia bisa baca semua arti gerak-gerik lo. Wow menyeramkan kan ya kalau bertemu orang macam ini. He used to make a good living, pretending to be a psychic. Terus gara-gara ngatain seorang serial-killer di televisi, si serial killer itu Red John balas membunuh istri dan anaknya. Huhuhu ;(.

Tingkah laku Jane, according to what my sister said, Ngegemesin. Hahaha. Yeah, iyuuuhh you sis. Pongah, jumawa, congkak, ngegemesin. He always acts like he knows everything and nothing can be unresolved. Well, mungkin kebanyakan orang yang memiliki talenta kayak dia akan bertingkah seperti itu. Quoting from namakutephy.com's review, he always play with people and there's no way people can play him.

Gara-gara kebanyakan nonton ini pula, gue mulai ketularan sok-sokan bertingkah seperti The Mentalist. Once when someone asked Jane if he's a psychic, he said "No. I just pay attention". Jadi gue pun merasa ya ~~gue~~ semua orang juga bisa dong jadi The Mentalist. Kita udah punya bakatnya sejak lahir, but some just choose to ignore it.

That leads to my straight lame ass conversation I had with Citra one night on MSN.

citra:
hahahaha thats my gurleh tadi aku nntn ballet competitionnya ponakanku
Hanny:
JIYEEEEEEEEEEEE
citra:
tapi dia gamasuk finaaaal :"(
Hanny:
LANGSUNG PENGEN JADI NUTCRACKER YA LO too badpoor lil girll..
citra:
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHA
citra:
but she did great tangan dia agak kaku pas nari
citra:
huh? what do i know about ballet anyway?
Hanny:
you know everythin about ballet since 7 years old youve dreamt on bein a ballerina
Hanny:
you bought the shoes but you were just to fat to fit in a tutu dress
Hanny:
your mom would say you were her prettiest girl and you could be the best ballerina in the whole world
Hanny:
but your friends would mock you and called you names when you get into that tutu dress.am i right or what
citra:
ahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahhaahahahahahaha
Hanny:
sumpah cit lo mesti nonton the mentalist its really fukin cool
citra:
that is the crrrrrrrrrruelest thing a person would have said to me. (sumfah ini gatau grammarnya bener apa kagak

Mmkay..everybody's a mentalist. You just have to encourage and embrace the mentalist in you. Haha. Godspeed.

So this is what it feels like to..

2009-07-14T22:10:00.007+07:00

Get out of my comfort zone, experience the life outside the "palace", jadi orang awam hahahaha. Gue gak akan pernah ke depok naik metro mini 85 lagi. Hmm, ok. Gue koreksi. KALO GA TERPAKSA ATAU MEPET, gue gak akan pernah ke depok naik metro mini 85 lagi.
Naik 85 serasa seperti berada di dalam sebuah film aksi. Tabrak sana, tabrak sini. Salip sana, salip sini, ok you get the point. Well sebenernya kalau mengesampingkan fakta bahwa 85 hanyalah sebuah kaleng besar alumunium karatan, bukan batmobile atau bumblebee, (dan itu juga menandakan bahwa gue bisa mati konyol kapan saja akibat amarah sopir-sopir dan kenek-kenek batak yang berbanding sejajar dengan hari, makin siang makin panas) mungkin I would've actually felt really cool. Hahaha. Serasa jadi Megan Fox yang sedang menghindar dari serangan Decepticon atau Bruce Wayne yang sedang beraksi membela kebenaran dan keadilan.
Di lampu merah relasi kebon jeruk masih sempat-sempatnya pula ni metro mini berhenti adu bacot bentar sama 85 yang satunya lagi. Gue uda merinding takut disop, soalnya orang batak denger-denger selain suka makan anjing, mereka juga suka makan daging perawan manis.
Setelah 45 menit yang menegangkan bersama sopir dan kenek Batak 85 yang jaminan asoi, gue pun turun di lampu merah lebak bulus. Dari situ naik deborah kecil (gue sih bilangnya deborah jelek hahaha) sampai depok.
Sesudah naik baru tiba-tiba menyesal. Baru ingat alasan mengapa selama ini lebih setia memilih menunggu si deborah besar (deborah cantik sebutan dari gue hehe) di halte lampu merah kedoya selama satu jam++ daripada naik 85-debo jelek yang merupakan sebuah kombinasi yang lebih terjamin keberadaannya.
Kaleng sarden isi 5 saja mungkin masih lebih luang dibandingkan debo jelek di siang hari saudara-saudara. Bayangkan jika lubang hidung anda, dimasukkan dua puluh biji kacang pilus. Itulah debo jelek di siang hari. Betis gue pun sampai sekarang makin kencang akibat bapak berpeci sialan yang berdiri memunggungi gue. Ga mau kalah bener, gue didorong terus sampe mau mati rasanya. Pas dia turun pengen gue jorokin rasanya biar ngejengkang. Si kenek anjing juga ga tau diri. Ibaratnya uda masukin dua puluh kacang pilus ke lubang idung, tapi masih pengen masukin satu biji lagi. Abis itu pengen ngupil pake jari telunjuk. PENGEN GUE TUSUK PAKE CENTONG BUBUR.
Ketika dia nyelip-nyelip di antara gue dan bapak peci sialan, I COULD ACTUALLY FELT HIS BALLS AGAINST MY ASS. Untung ga pake digesek-gesek. Kasihan juga sama orang yang duduk di depan tempat gue berdiri. Perut dan tas gue literally ON HIS FACE for half an hour. Hahaha, sori ya mas-mas pembaca peta jalur busway. I heart youh.
Akhirnya gue pun tiba di depok. Misi utama gue: Nyebar proposal misa alam ke dosen-dosen FIB bareng Ka Cuni dan Sandra. Herlina sang PJ Danus uda nelpon gue hari sabtu, nyuruh gue dateng hari senin. Ternyata apa saudara2? Saat gue mau ambil proposalnya yang dititipin di Wisma SY, proposalnya uda diambil sama PJ yang satu lagi dan ga jadi disebar hari itu. WALANG SANGIT EMANG.
Intinya all those times I've spent on those two fucking barbaric buses, have been SIA-SIA. So much for mau berbuat baik untuk kegiatan agama huh? Lalu hari ini setelah menghabiskan sekitar dua belas jam syuting Happy Song + perjalanan di dan ke Indosiar, dinyolotin sama mbak-mbak busway, dinyolotin sama kenek P16 gara-gara turun pake kaki kanan (yang mana selalu gue lakukan tiap kali turun kendaraan, but everybody says kita harus turun pake kaki kiri, tapi terserah juga sih ya, kalo ternyata orangnya right-footed gimana? hahaha bener-bener ~~maksa~~ luar biasa lucu gue), suddenly gue merasa kehilangan semua selera humor gue dan semangat gue untuk tertawa atau apapun itu. I just want a good night sleep, and tomorrow a trip with Sheila and Janet. Godspeed.

Another Crap

2009-07-12T22:54:00.004+07:00

I could make you a poem
I would make you a poem
By then I will be exposed
I will be naked under the spotlight
There's nothing left for me to hide
You'll see me and I'm afraid

Under the exposure I'll fall
Under the exposure I'll fall
I'll fall under your charm
And there's nothing else I could do
And I don't know what you could do

Wait wait wait a little bit longer
I'll let myself linger
In you deeper and deeper
And I will be a believer
Cause this is getting better and better

Baru bangun, mau ke depok

2009-07-06T08:24:00.004+07:00

Wait a minute, what's that smell? Aah...it's the sweet smell of pemilu aiyt...The sweet smell of victory....and the smile on the losers' faces....hahahaha...

You know...choose right.

Gue ga akan mencoba untuk memanipulasi siapa-siapa untuk ikut memilih apa yang gue pilih. After all itu hak masing-masing individu. Akh ngapain, ga guna. Nyahahah. But remember, whoever it is that you will choose, choose right. Godspeed! Nyahahaha!

Delicate

2009-07-01T13:50:00.006+07:00

As I'm growing up, my ear-range of music is becoming wider. If I were 5 years old and Damien Rice's Cannonball were played on the radio, I would have changed the tune right away. But now, I can listen to anything. From those cheesy Korean songs, those depressive, deep, and mellow songs, alternative, r&b, 50s, hardrock, ANYTHING. What Imma tryin to say is....hell, I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT IM TRYIN TO SAY.

Mmkay..there's this one Damien Rice's song, Delicate. When I listen to it, well...it is kinda..DEPRESSIVE. You can say so. Rice kinda gives you that effect, both the singer, and the food. Hahaha. The song is deep, hard to comprehend, and all that depressive song is made up to be.

So I googled the meaning of the song. Well most of them are from the listeners. I was really lookin for the explanation from Rice himself, but couldn't find it. Some of them say it's about a love affair between friends..confusing love..an affair that is denying being a love affair..blablabla..some say the word 'hallelujah' in the chorus is not referring to anything religious but to a jeff buckley's song hallelujah..but there's this one explanation that really caught my eye.

He/she said that it speaks of the intimate relationship between God and humanity portrayed. Like, the relationship between God and human beings is like a love affair, and God can be jealous as well. Hahaha. Just like my Catholic teacher said in one of his lecture. In my own opinion (look at me talkin like my own opinion really matters hahaha), it's about two people who are in love so passionately, they even might kiss when nobody's watching, they even might make love in SACRED PLACES, but somehow it's all gone. It can be whatever we want to interpret.
Well, one thing for sure, the song creates exactly the impact Damien Rice wanted his listeners to feel after they listen to this song, that is: DELICATE. Nyahahahahahah. Godspeed.

Love (Not) Actually

2009-06-27T15:06:00.004+07:00

Been thinking a lot lately. A friend of mine told me last night to write something "genius", apparently cause I've been pretty fucking Boring with capital B lately. Ok, that was some pressure she put on me. Hahaha. Tick tock tick tock... Yeap..so..what I got to write? Politic? No..too apathetic and self-professed to write about politic... Economy? Fuck I hate numbers. Religion? Starting to grew tired of that topic. I really have no idea what I got to write here. I consider this blog as my rubbish bin. I just throw everything here without consideration. And I know none of them are genius sampah, but is there any such thing as "genius sampah"? Haha. But, like sampah, there are organic and non-organic ones, some you can recycle, some you just can't. Hehe. So I think I'll just go back at what I'm good at, bitching and whining. Nyahahah.

"Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more. -Erica Jong-"

EVERYTHING IT'S CRACKED UP TO BE. Love has surely made everything cracked up. Let's not talk about the cheesy love between a boy and a girl, or a boy with a boy, or even a girl with a girl. Those are just too overrated. One's love for position and power has made one sold all one's assets for a so-called kampanye, and finally one ended up broke, crazy, in another word, cracked up. In the name of one's love for God, one sacrificed one's life and OTHERS as well, so abruptly, it even hurt a greater amount of other people as well. All for the sake of religion, for one's love for religion.
For one's love towards someone, one even dares to confront and insult one's God, saying such shallow things such as, "I don't think He really loves me cause He has always given me boyfriends with different religions." COME ON?
You may ask, does love really that destructive? Well don't assume too quickly. As destructive as it is, you will find a lot of definitions of love. My favorite definitions of love is the one in Dan in Real Life. "Love is not a feeling, it's an ability." It strucked me right ahead. It's "How much can you love someone?", not "How much do you love someone?"

One of the most classic love quotes is the one from 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy. Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude; It is not self-seeking, nor easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongdoing. It does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, trusts, hopes, and preserves. There is nothing love cannot face; There is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance. In a word, there are three things that last forever: Faith, hope, and love; But the greatest of them all is love."

There there, my two favorite love quotes. The others are just boring, cliche, or bullshits.
So, sometimes, I just get really tired, really bored of people, including myself, asking about what love is, asking where the love is, screw all that! When you feel something, just go for it! No, no, lemme correct that, when you feel something to someone, just follow your urge, whether to love them or hate them or thrill them. Cause love is not something you feel, it's something you do. That's why we say "I Love You", it's a verb! Yeah!
Got tired already. Godspeed.

Ayam Penyet ♥

2009-06-25T23:20:00.003+07:00

Anak (A): (baru pulang dari kampus, masuk ke kamar ibunya) Mooommy!!

Ibu (I): Oi.. tadi siang makan apaaa?

A: Ayam penyet..♥ Enak banget maaa, aku kangen banget deh sama sekolah..Taon depan aku mau SP ah! ♥

I: Sini..sini..mama juga kangen sama Anak..Anak kalo liburan di atas terus sih..

A: (baru hendak menyahut)

I: (suara si M pun mulai mengawali acara debat capres, ibu mengangkat tangan menyuruh anak diam) Hah...mampus deh dia...jawaban ga nyambung sama pertanyaannya..abis deh nih dia kali ini...Mampus..

A: =.='

♥ baca: keadaan anak sedang high akibat menghirup udara Depok terlalu banyak.
Pffffttt. Godspeed.

Apparently I Am

2009-06-25T00:39:00.003+07:00

My friend Caroline gave me the link to this quiz and I don't know if it is true or was it just my suggestive thought that the results seems weirdly accurate hahaha. Go ahead try it for yourself: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love: You have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Bernardine "CL" Stefani

2009-06-22T17:20:00.004+07:00

Okay something hilarious, if not stupid, just happened. Jadi ceritanya ya kan, gue ganti foto profil facebook gue dengan foto di bawah ini.

Yak. Leadernya 2NE1, CL. I'm like, a huge fan. Hahaha. Yea yea yea so, gue cuma pasang foto itu sebentar sekitar 1 jam lah. Kemudian saat gue liat facebook, lalu berangkat ngepost award dari Rere, lalu kembali ke facebook lagi, itu kira-kira hanya membutuhkan waktu sekitar 10 menit. Saat kembali lagi ke facebook, ternyata sudah ada 11 notification baru, gue pun tercengang. Pas dibuka..jeng jeng..isinya notification dari "Are You Interested?" semua. Anjing.

Sebelas notification yang isinya "Someone clicked YES on you on "Are You Interested?" dan masih terus bertambah seiring gue membuka satu persatu foto orang-orang yang mengklik "YES" (this means, "YES" I wanna fuck you because you are such a cute Asian) on the so-called "Bernardine Stefani." Haha.

You just got PUNK'D LOSERS!! <---- maling teriak maling

The Real Bernardine "CL" Stefani. Bhakahkakhakhak.

From Rerek

2009-06-22T17:09:00.005+07:00

Okay I got 3 awards from Rere!! Yay!! Well, sebenernya gatau sih tiga-tiganya buat gue apa bukan..apa cuma satu doang....heheheh pengennya sih tiga-tiganya...haha but whatever anyway, thanks Rere! Big smooch for yah!

So apparently I gotta tag others..Okay

1. Aya

2. Idya

3. Vava

Enjoy! Hahaha. Godspeed.

Love American Style

2009-06-22T01:04:00.004+07:00

One of my favourite episode in Dexter season 1. Title: Love American Style. Minutes before Dex killed his victims, they had this conversation. These 2 victims are immigrants dealer and husband and wife as well.

Jorge: I love you.
Valerie: I love you so much.
Dexter: I'm going to ask you a question and I want you to answer me honestly, understand? No more bullshit. How long have you been married?
Valerie: Twelve years.
Dexter: How do you love each other? You're like me, you make it work. how?
Jorge: We want the same life.
Valerie: We want the same thing
Dexter: You share the same dream?
The Castillos: Yes that's it.
Dexter: That's, uh, helpful. Thank you.

WE SHARE THE SAME DREAM. Yeah rock on. Godspeed.

The Truth is..

2009-06-21T16:14:00.003+07:00

We put up walls to hide how vulnerable we are. We hide, we deny, we refuse, we reject. All for one main reason, to know who is willing enough to tear down those walls and really see what's behind it.
Because deep down all we really need in the end of the day is someone who we can be comfortable with in those awkward silences. Who doesn't need to ask if you're fine, he KNOWS you're not fine. Who tries to do nothing to fix you, but to "face you the reality of your powerlessness".