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I never understand all the shits people put out on New Moon. What did you expect it to be? Rocket science? A movie about a teenage girl, vampire clan, and a smokin hot pack of werewolves is supposed to be like that. Easy to chew, and you'll hope one of the werewolves will chew you. Haha.

My foreign language comprehension skill is getting worse. And this supposed to be lethal, since I am STUDYING language <--- if any of my senior or teacher see this maybe they'd say, we're not only studying the language, but also the culture, history, politic.. (and then it fades til all I could hear is blahblahblah..) Fantasticness.

If I could be born again as anyone/anybody in any time/any place, I would wanna be someone who lived in China around 1911-1950. So I could explain to the next me on the next life, which means now, about what and how China post dynasty really was.. T__T

Why did thou ever bother analyzing about words, phrases, clauses and how they formed and reformed, oh dear almighty Language God?

Sometimes I just wanna go honest all the time, but everytime I go, no matter what I ride, I always get blocked by two dead ends, "Manner" and "Morality". Dang, whatever happened to the road to heaven and a peaceful state of mind? <--- Okay, desperate attempt to be witty spotted and busted and charged guilty.

For all we know, the judgement day may happen in 2012. But for all we know too, it may not be too. Whatever happened to the saying "The Judgement Day can happen anytime, we'd never know"? Sure it may happen in 2012, but it may not too. The point is NOBODY ever knows. Stop bitchin about the idea of 2012. No more "2012 ga mungkin kiamat!" or "2012 bakal kiamat!". What about you fix your own goddamn brain first and then you may go ahead blabbing about religion.

Oh how I love the sims. Love, love, love. And ice coffee in the morning. And dipping Marie Regal in ice coffee in the morning. And internet. I don't know how to live without internet. I can't even remember what I used to do in spare time before internet. I can't remember what it used to be like, socializing with real people directly, instead of doing it via internet. Wow, I must be one pathetic oxymoron.

I'm really not a church person. You know...that kind of person who's active at church...doing stuff...best friends with all church youth' members... I'm not saying it's wrong. I encourage the idea. But sometimes I just feel like that kinda relationship is fake. How do you suppose to be yourselves in front of dozens of The God of All Things Good' worshipper? I don't mean to generalize, but sometimes they can be so indirectly judgemental it's making me questioning myself, "Am I really goin to hell or what?". Haha. Well say what you say but it's just me. But it doesn't mean I'm anti-church either, I just don't like the idea of 'Doing things in God'. If you wanna do good, don't bring God in it. Zip it to yourself. If you wanna do good, don't do it for God, do it for yourself, if not for those who are in need. Ok. Me, hell, now.

I always feel I'm slightly more superior than anyone else. Which means I'm also slightly delusional. But in my defense, it is because I have a superior God :)

Before, I have a thing for bald men. Now, gondrong men is everything. Now, me wants gondrong, brewok tipis, mata indah. Dang.

I always feel pity for those who hate or afraid of something a little bit too much. Where's your faith? Where's the love? You may not go through it cause of the pain or fear is just too much to bear, but I know that you know you'll LIVE through it. So, stop WHINING. Stop hating to the point where you can't do anything cause you're always thinking of it. Just STOP everything and live your life like you're supposed to be, IN LOVE. Yeaaah.

People keep saying, "Ayolah, kamu harus diet" and blahblahblahs. Back to the previous point. I am living my life like it supposed to be. I love myself the way I am. If someday I decide to go on a diet, let it be cause I want it, for me, and because of that only. Not because I want some random guy on the street take a second look at me and say "Dang, that girl's hot!". I'm not gonna be a hypocrite and say 'Iyuh, those guys are pathetic!'. Every girl wants to be appreciated sometime. But I just haven't arrived (and I hope, will NEVER arrive) to the point where I won't eat carbs for it, or keeping myself from having the things I love. I have much more important things to be focused on, and I need CALORIES to do it. Period.

I love my friends like I love myself: I always come second, everybody else's first. Hahaha this is sooooo backdoor bragging (don't get it? watch 30 rock!), yet saying 'yes I don't love you that much friends!"

I'm reading Empress Orchid by Anchee Min for my final literature class assignment. Wish me luck. So far chapter one is interesting. Witty.

So long, adios. Godspeed.