Amazing how a love story could have a wonderful effect and the most long lasting perhaps to me, than any sermons or proverbs would have. Just thought I'd share the link with you here. Geez, I cried the whole way.
The man is just someone who is too good to be true. You will all wonder why a guy so good gotta leave so soon? Imma take a raincheck on answering that one. It's been a mystery to me since 2004, since I watched right in front of my own face a good guy passed away so quickly and peacefully.
It all came clear. The ticket to heaven can't be bought, it is GIVEN. All the lost souls, all the souls we've mourned, He summoned them for a reason: He just gave them the ticket. They have deserved it.
We all have purposes. Some have figured it all out, some haven't. But He has hinted the way for us to live, LOVE. Hate belongs to demons only. I know it's hard not to hate, I hate, often times. But isn't the way to something good is always the hardest? Live your best. Never think about tomorrow, cause everything will fall into place, one thing after another. Everything will be beautiful at His time, not yours. Don't force it. Godspeed.
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
But Really
They'd say I'm a dreamer
but really, I just like to dream
They'd say I'm a thinker
but really, thinkin is all I do
They'd say I'm moody
but really, moods are what animate me
They'd say I'm old-man wise
but really, that's cause I think too much
They'd say I'm a singer
but really, they haven't heard my real voice
They'd say I'm an actor
but really, that's the wall I've built for all past years
They'd say I'm a poet
but really, I'm a woman of too much words
They'd say I'm the life of the parties
but really, I feel dead in them
They'd say I'm a lover
but really, love is all I have to offer
but really, I just like to dream
They'd say I'm a thinker
but really, thinkin is all I do
They'd say I'm moody
but really, moods are what animate me
They'd say I'm old-man wise
but really, that's cause I think too much
They'd say I'm a singer
but really, they haven't heard my real voice
They'd say I'm an actor
but really, that's the wall I've built for all past years
They'd say I'm a poet
but really, I'm a woman of too much words
They'd say I'm the life of the parties
but really, I feel dead in them
They'd say I'm a lover
but really, love is all I have to offer
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Another Crap
I could make you a poem
I would make you a poem
By then I will be exposed
I will be naked under the spotlight
There's nothing left for me to hide
You'll see me and I'm afraid
Under the exposure I'll fall
Under the exposure I'll fall
I'll fall under your charm
And there's nothing else I could do
And I don't know what you could do
Wait wait wait a little bit longer
I'll let myself linger
In you deeper and deeper
And I will be a believer
Cause this is getting better and better
I would make you a poem
By then I will be exposed
I will be naked under the spotlight
There's nothing left for me to hide
You'll see me and I'm afraid
Under the exposure I'll fall
Under the exposure I'll fall
I'll fall under your charm
And there's nothing else I could do
And I don't know what you could do
Wait wait wait a little bit longer
I'll let myself linger
In you deeper and deeper
And I will be a believer
Cause this is getting better and better
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Love (Not) Actually
Been thinking a lot lately. A friend of mine told me last night to write something "genius", apparently cause I've been pretty fucking Boring with capital B lately. Ok, that was some pressure she put on me. Hahaha. Tick tock tick tock... Yeap..so..what I got to write? Politic? No..too apathetic and self-professed to write about politic... Economy? Fuck I hate numbers. Religion? Starting to grew tired of that topic. I really have no idea what I got to write here. I consider this blog as my rubbish bin. I just throw everything here without consideration. And I know none of them are genius sampah, but is there any such thing as "genius sampah"? Haha. But, like sampah, there are organic and non-organic ones, some you can recycle, some you just can't. Hehe. So I think I'll just go back at what I'm good at, bitching and whining. Nyahahah.
"Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more. -Erica Jong-"
EVERYTHING IT'S CRACKED UP TO BE. Love has surely made everything cracked up. Let's not talk about the cheesy love between a boy and a girl, or a boy with a boy, or even a girl with a girl. Those are just too overrated. One's love for position and power has made one sold all one's assets for a so-called kampanye, and finally one ended up broke, crazy, in another word, cracked up. In the name of one's love for God, one sacrificed one's life and OTHERS as well, so abruptly, it even hurt a greater amount of other people as well. All for the sake of religion, for one's love for religion.
For one's love towards someone, one even dares to confront and insult one's God, saying such shallow things such as, "I don't think He really loves me cause He has always given me boyfriends with different religions." COME ON?
You may ask, does love really that destructive? Well don't assume too quickly. As destructive as it is, you will find a lot of definitions of love. My favorite definitions of love is the one in Dan in Real Life. "Love is not a feeling, it's an ability." It strucked me right ahead. It's "How much can you love someone?", not "How much do you love someone?"
One of the most classic love quotes is the one from 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy. Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude; It is not self-seeking, nor easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongdoing. It does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, trusts, hopes, and preserves. There is nothing love cannot face; There is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance. In a word, there are three things that last forever: Faith, hope, and love; But the greatest of them all is love."
There there, my two favorite love quotes. The others are just boring, cliche, or bullshits.
So, sometimes, I just get really tired, really bored of people, including myself, asking about what love is, asking where the love is, screw all that! When you feel something, just go for it! No, no, lemme correct that, when you feel something to someone, just follow your urge, whether to love them or hate them or thrill them. Cause love is not something you feel, it's something you do. That's why we say "I Love You", it's a verb! Yeah!
Got tired already. Godspeed.
"Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more. -Erica Jong-"
EVERYTHING IT'S CRACKED UP TO BE. Love has surely made everything cracked up. Let's not talk about the cheesy love between a boy and a girl, or a boy with a boy, or even a girl with a girl. Those are just too overrated. One's love for position and power has made one sold all one's assets for a so-called kampanye, and finally one ended up broke, crazy, in another word, cracked up. In the name of one's love for God, one sacrificed one's life and OTHERS as well, so abruptly, it even hurt a greater amount of other people as well. All for the sake of religion, for one's love for religion.
For one's love towards someone, one even dares to confront and insult one's God, saying such shallow things such as, "I don't think He really loves me cause He has always given me boyfriends with different religions." COME ON?
You may ask, does love really that destructive? Well don't assume too quickly. As destructive as it is, you will find a lot of definitions of love. My favorite definitions of love is the one in Dan in Real Life. "Love is not a feeling, it's an ability." It strucked me right ahead. It's "How much can you love someone?", not "How much do you love someone?"
One of the most classic love quotes is the one from 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy. Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude; It is not self-seeking, nor easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongdoing. It does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, trusts, hopes, and preserves. There is nothing love cannot face; There is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance. In a word, there are three things that last forever: Faith, hope, and love; But the greatest of them all is love."
There there, my two favorite love quotes. The others are just boring, cliche, or bullshits.
So, sometimes, I just get really tired, really bored of people, including myself, asking about what love is, asking where the love is, screw all that! When you feel something, just go for it! No, no, lemme correct that, when you feel something to someone, just follow your urge, whether to love them or hate them or thrill them. Cause love is not something you feel, it's something you do. That's why we say "I Love You", it's a verb! Yeah!
Got tired already. Godspeed.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Shoot!
Dia telah mati
Kuperkosa dia
Lalu kutusuk lambungnya
Seperti para kafir yang membunuh Yesus
Kukubur dia
Tengah malam kugali lahat
Bungkus ia dengan kafan
Baunya ia
Adrenalin mengalir
Aku muntah
Banjir asa menyerbu
Kuusap peluhku
Menatap pemandangan di depanku
Setangkai bambu kutancapkan
Sebagai tanda nista
Hari ketiga bangkit
Sambangi rumahku
Enggan ketuk pintu
Dia serbu kamarku
Rasuki raga yang lompong
Setan! Hantu! Iblis!
Sumpah serapah caci maki
Hantuiku ia gembira
Bumi menolaknya
Melepehkannya
Kini ia kutanggung
beban kelewat berat
Hatiku berkelojot
Otakku lengket
Sakit dan lelah
Ia yang datang
hendak menuntut balas
karna ku telah menguburnya
hidup-hidup
Ia...Cinta
PS: Puisi asal yang iseng dibikin karena sedang enek. Aduh maaf bagi yang baca, selamat muntah ya.
Kuperkosa dia
Lalu kutusuk lambungnya
Seperti para kafir yang membunuh Yesus
Kukubur dia
Tengah malam kugali lahat
Bungkus ia dengan kafan
Baunya ia
Adrenalin mengalir
Aku muntah
Banjir asa menyerbu
Kuusap peluhku
Menatap pemandangan di depanku
Setangkai bambu kutancapkan
Sebagai tanda nista
Hari ketiga bangkit
Sambangi rumahku
Enggan ketuk pintu
Dia serbu kamarku
Rasuki raga yang lompong
Setan! Hantu! Iblis!
Sumpah serapah caci maki
Hantuiku ia gembira
Bumi menolaknya
Melepehkannya
Kini ia kutanggung
beban kelewat berat
Hatiku berkelojot
Otakku lengket
Sakit dan lelah
Ia yang datang
hendak menuntut balas
karna ku telah menguburnya
hidup-hidup
Ia...Cinta
PS: Puisi asal yang iseng dibikin karena sedang enek. Aduh maaf bagi yang baca, selamat muntah ya.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
I'm not moving
I just updated my playlist and added Julia Perez' Belah Duren. Haha. Lovely :)
Yesterday probably was the happiest day I could get in this week. Hung out with 4 大便s, got a chance to drove Tania's Yaris (haha I know you weren't approved, thx anyway ;P), and almost fell off P16. But overall it was a great day. I was just being happy, and suddenly I saw his shoutout. He's in pain. I don't know why but I want to know. Whether it's because his girlfriend or whatever, I don't care, I just want him to tell me, like he used to do. And I will try my best to cheer him up and wipe the pain away. I suddenly realised how much I missed talking to him. He was never boring. I know with all his flaws and all, taking me for granted and all, he is still as hateable as ever, but still, I miss you, friend ♥ (*sigh..* just realised how pathetic I am for not being able to let go).
Yesterday probably was the happiest day I could get in this week. Hung out with 4 大便s, got a chance to drove Tania's Yaris (haha I know you weren't approved, thx anyway ;P), and almost fell off P16. But overall it was a great day. I was just being happy, and suddenly I saw his shoutout. He's in pain. I don't know why but I want to know. Whether it's because his girlfriend or whatever, I don't care, I just want him to tell me, like he used to do. And I will try my best to cheer him up and wipe the pain away. I suddenly realised how much I missed talking to him. He was never boring. I know with all his flaws and all, taking me for granted and all, he is still as hateable as ever, but still, I miss you, friend ♥ (*sigh..* just realised how pathetic I am for not being able to let go).
Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, and your
heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be. Thinkin maybe you'll come back into the place that we meet and you'll see ME WAITING FOR YOU on the corner of the street.. -The Man Who Can't Be Moved-
Friday, April 3, 2009
Fix Me
I have been trying to act all fluffy, cheerful, happy, but as I say, it was all just an act. A pretend. Au fait. Acting is exhausting. Why can't I just bleed it all out?
One silly, petty, thing about him still could make my world go around or even turn upside down. It's not healthy. I gotta fight this. But just like Callie said, sometimes I feel like there is no fight in me anymore. I'm losing my faith. Sometimes I just pray and hope the whole thing will play itself out, but it just won't. I'm broken, really. I'm not trying to fix what isn't broken, it's just..the battery has ran out. Please fix me.
One silly, petty, thing about him still could make my world go around or even turn upside down. It's not healthy. I gotta fight this. But just like Callie said, sometimes I feel like there is no fight in me anymore. I'm losing my faith. Sometimes I just pray and hope the whole thing will play itself out, but it just won't. I'm broken, really. I'm not trying to fix what isn't broken, it's just..the battery has ran out. Please fix me.
"Heaven has been away too long. Can't find the words to write this song.
Oh..your love.." -Like a Star-
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Sayonara
Terserah ya, gue ga peduli lo mau pikir apa tentang gue.
Orang-orang juga tahu siapa yang berbuat apa.
Yang pasti kayak kata Simple Plan, "I try to make you happy, but you LEFT ANYWAY!"
Jangan sok bego deh ah. Please, I'm begging you, get me for once napa?
This is for you jerk
Aaliyah - Miss You
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you (Said I'm needin you)
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
Who's been with you
Is your heart still mine (Is your heart still mine)
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
Off to college
Yes you went away
Straight from highschool
You up and left me
We were close friends also lovers
Did everything for one another
Now you're gone
And I'm lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow
Come back to me (to me)
Can you hear me (callin)
Hear me callin (for you) for you
cuz it's
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you Ooh...Ooh
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
Who's been with you
Is your heart still mine (Is your heart still mine)
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
Now I'm sittin here
Thinkin bout you
And the days we used to share
It's drivin me crazy
I don't know what to do
I'm just wonderin if you still care
And I don't want to let you know
that it's killin me
I know you got another life
And gotta concentrate baby
Come back to me (to me)
Can you hear me (callin)
Hear me callin (for you) for you
cuz it's
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you Ooh...Ooh
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
Who's been with you
Is your heart still mine (Is your heart still mine)
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I(I miss you)I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I
I can't breathe no more
Since you went away
I don't really feel like talkin
Don't want to hear you don't love me
Baby do you understand me
I can't do a thing without you
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you (Said I'm needin you)Ooh...Ooh
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
Who's been with you
Is your heart still mine (Is your heart still mine)
I wanna cry sometimes (Yeah)
I miss you
Thanks for everything. Now, let's move on and never ever touch each other life again. Hey wait a minute, you ALREADY move on. While I'm here stuck in the past. Congrats. Cheers for the best next to come, for ME.
Orang-orang juga tahu siapa yang berbuat apa.
Yang pasti kayak kata Simple Plan, "I try to make you happy, but you LEFT ANYWAY!"
Jangan sok bego deh ah. Please, I'm begging you, get me for once napa?
This is for you jerk
Aaliyah - Miss You
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you (Said I'm needin you)
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
Who's been with you
Is your heart still mine (Is your heart still mine)
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
Off to college
Yes you went away
Straight from highschool
You up and left me
We were close friends also lovers
Did everything for one another
Now you're gone
And I'm lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow
Come back to me (to me)
Can you hear me (callin)
Hear me callin (for you) for you
cuz it's
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you Ooh...Ooh
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
Who's been with you
Is your heart still mine (Is your heart still mine)
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
Now I'm sittin here
Thinkin bout you
And the days we used to share
It's drivin me crazy
I don't know what to do
I'm just wonderin if you still care
And I don't want to let you know
that it's killin me
I know you got another life
And gotta concentrate baby
Come back to me (to me)
Can you hear me (callin)
Hear me callin (for you) for you
cuz it's
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you Ooh...Ooh
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
Who's been with you
Is your heart still mine (Is your heart still mine)
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I(I miss you)I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I,I
I can't breathe no more
Since you went away
I don't really feel like talkin
Don't want to hear you don't love me
Baby do you understand me
I can't do a thing without you
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you (Said I'm needin you)Ooh...Ooh
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
Who's been with you
Is your heart still mine (Is your heart still mine)
I wanna cry sometimes (Yeah)
I miss you
Thanks for everything. Now, let's move on and never ever touch each other life again. Hey wait a minute, you ALREADY move on. While I'm here stuck in the past. Congrats. Cheers for the best next to come, for ME.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Whoa
Whoa...seriously? What did I do to make you hate me?
ZERO. Yea zero, like that new coca cola flavour, punk.
If anything, the one who should be hating is me, not you, the person who won't even realised what did he do wrong. Grow up, this is no longer high school, oops I mean playground.
Whaaatt? Whaatt is it? I can't hear you. What, you're not a playground kid, you're a college student now?
Yea yea that I know. So act like one! Dumbass!
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